will be spending the whole day with dear !! finally a whole day together. will be bringing choco out !! ;p

went to mustarfa last night after work. went home at 4am and im fully awake and excited to bring choco out and also spending my day with him. BUT BUT BUT !!! he is still sleeping. -.-"

meanwhile, i should slowly get ready.. 

no one have been that sincere.. that dearly.. 

today is an emotional day for me. told him about how my life was and about my family. told him cause he should know about it. 

and..

my ipod have stop functioning. it followed me for going to 3years. i will miss it dearly. ;( just in time for my iphone actually. but i still love my ipod.

had dinner as per normal. then he send me home before sending his parents home. nvm.. we have the whole day on Friday together !! 

im awake early in the morning ! im adapting to waking up early in the morning already..

had vegetarian dinner with his parents last night at a restaurant in Chinatown.. nice food !! >.< the only time i could eat their "prawn". haha.  headed to Tampines Giant after that for some shopping. im coming to know more about his daily life at home. he is like a couch potato !! haha. =x

 but.. i still love him. ;p

i bought 2 dresses just now ! honestly, its unsual for me to wear a dress, im not a girl who wear dresses. its only few months back that i started wearing one. as for now, cus my days are brighter and its a season for dresses for me. XD

just now, he called me after work, then the line was being interrupted by some chinese guy looking for someone. and he was thinking i was with some guy, which im not. i was on my way to meet him, on the bus and was quite shocked when he calls and i could hear this chinese guy talking. i was telling him that im alone all the while, but he didn't believe. i was disappointed that he doesn't believe me and i didn't have anything to proof i was alone. such things didn't happen to me before, i mean the line being interrupted. after that we talked things out and we're alright and very happy right now.

then i reached home when he called, i have this aunty asking me what time would i be home !! im already home and my parents knew i was home. that aunty even ask me who im looking for when she is the one calling ! WTF ! so whats wrong with the network today ?!

SO ANGRY !! let my bf think im with a guy when im not and made us quarrel. ANGRY !! *TSK*

finally have the time to blog..

been working for 6days a week for the past 2 weeks. felt so so tired working with disputing customers and im finally resting for this week. been out after work till late and waking up early in the morning.. was really mentally and physically exhuasted. but its always rewarding to see him after a tired day of work, he never fail to make me smile.

being with him makes me feel so in love. though we've just started, but it felt like we've been together for a long time and that we're so.. close ?! or maybe so comfortable to have him with me. its hard to describe. or maybe "im truely in  love with him" will do the explaining.

waiting for him to end work ~

and im dozing off. =X

met his parents, aunt and niece ytd night when he sending his aunt back home. it was unexpected and i was very quiet on the way back and his niece is so adorable. when i saw him carrying his niece, he just looks so fatherly. 

ytd went to SMA after work to know more about the bachelor in marketing management and human resource management. ive actually decided to study in the double major, just want to know more about the fees and how everything works. 

im finally out of those emo days and finally found someone who gave me hope in being in love again. only a few people knew how scarred i was. ruining my decent image and health ever since then and living aimlessly in my life. im glad that i have him now, to bring myself back to who i am day by day, to love unconditionally, to smile sweetly and to be happy being love. ive never felt as secure now than before. 

 i love you. *smiles*

i want to do some shopping !! i always wanted to shop, but i just no one could have the same free time with mine, else i will be the one who is not free. if i shop with my mum, she will definitely say that i always buy clothes. WHICH IS NOT TRUE ! and we don't have similar taste, then i will end up not buying. zzz. HEADACHE !!

dad is having a good impression in him and its a relief. mum said that as long as the guy treats me well, its okay for her. but, mum don't seems to like the idea whereby i have a bf. she said that it might affect my studies. whereas, to me, i think is that i wont stay home most of the time. 

sometimes, when im home and spend some time with them, they are always not around. dad is always working so hard. whenever his day is bad, our day gets bad and that plans will change. as for mum, she wants me home, but always sleeping. i don't find much point in me staying at home when i always feel alone.

was talking to mum just now, about him. then mum told me she went to ask god about my relationship. i don't feel good after i found out. i couldn't stand her being superstitious. how much i wanted to tell her that i walk my own path, lead my life and don't believe that much about fate. i can take it when it comes to meeting people is about fate, but she told me things about life is all fated ?! its not acceptable. i live my life and set my own fate, no one is going to decide my life for me. i told her that he is someone different, but she told me off that my feelings might be as wrong as my ex bf. she believes in god more than she believes in her own daughter. im so disappointed. 

i just can't take anything negative from my parents. 

when some kind of wishes are being told to everyone, it won't come true. so i hope what my mum told me that we will not last will not come true. if i have the feeling that things won't last, i wont bother to get into a relationship. maybe she just want me to focus on my studies and be home. pissed.

my morning sneezing is back. feeling really terrible.. im sneezing non stop since i woke up. zzz.

im out for some groceries and daily products(maybe). time to spend some money ~ ohho !! >.<

this time, i felt so treasured. maybe cause he is expressive towards me. sometimes, its not just the words he said that makes me feel so, its the kind of feeling he gave me. so secure. hoping for the best. 

and..

i will good.. be a nice and sweet girl of his.