starting I didn't get what Amit said, but finally get his words when YongHe interupted... it was after work while waiting for YongHe to get changed and go home together ! so he ask, "Do you think I have a chance with you?" this was what I finally realised after I said,"Huh?!" he just said nvm after YongHe approached... so he don't know that I heard what he said ! so now I'm kinda fearing of him asking this qns again ! Joanna also said to me that she realised that Amit is always seen with me ! -omg- I couldn't react to this ! hm... my heart start to tremble everytime I think of this ! -argh-

hm... today I ended off by ignoring Amit ! -lol- he tried alot of ways to make me talk to him... keke... he was at the donations booth while I as him if its fun (but actually its boring)... and he replied, "ya, its fun without you!" so I use this opporunity to not talk to him ! I'm a bad person hur !

I felt like talking to Amit now... he's so poor thing ! he tried hard to talk to me but I just ignored him... he held my arm trying to catch my attention but I just wave it off and ignore his presence ! I'm bad isn't me ?! haiz... felt guilty, he didn't join for us for lunch and he went home without a bye... hm... I felt so bad now... its my fault !

hm... I felt proud of myself... for being to pro in Gift wrapping counter ! i'm the one who clear the queue, wrap the fastest and also nice, and I could handle odd shapes of toys and stuffs ! keke... love it when customers or colledge praise me on my wrapping ! keke...  almost everyone said my hair suits me ! keke... everythings just goes so nice now... EXCEPT for bitchy customers who gave me a hard time ! their bitchy and GREEDY !!! they wanna wrap their whole family up izzit ?! or thy're just so poor that they couldn't buy gift wrappers ?! I just take it that they so darn poor ! I start to talk to Amit... It started with he looked at me and I just said, "What's your problem ?!" he was surprised of me talking to him... now I don't feel that guilty ! tml, py and huishan joining, and also Jereina !! -yeah- I'm so happy !

just receive a mail from Creative ! guess what there's new stick-on for my Zen Neeon ! -woho-
Bold

Chic

I want the bold 1, bold 2 and Chic 1... it's so cool !

what a tiring day, maybe cus Maggie is not around and I only slept 4 hrs... woke up at 5.50 am ! couldn't go back to slp so came online to play maple ! keke... did my first party quest ! -lol- bought christmas presents for my 3 niece ! lucky there is discount all thanks to virginia ! but, tt Jun liang n amit asked me if i were related to her ! cus she help me to pay... hey ! not like that, after that I'll pay her cash ! previously, mun wai ask me if i were annie poon's whoever... -omg- i'll b crazy if it's true ! -lol- I just missed Lissa, Virginia's daughter !

tml off-day! going out with Swing ! -yeah- finally !

went to 6 shopping malls today ! 3 places! saw YDKs ! -woho- one is at far east selling shoes of differern brands (not leftfoot)... another one was my suai ge at bugis street ! >.<

today, I'm off, so is Jie... hm... he when to Metro Tamp, I went to Orchard, where he work (but previously I don't that he's working there)... he came to find his friends, I went to shop... erm... maybe it's fated ! I don't know...  

PY and Huishan reporting to work today ! tml they're in my shift ! -woo- tml there'll be more ppl for dinner !

heard news about Niuniu's fan went to NiuNiu dancing lesson for Niuniu not to learn his dance steps ! I also saw pictures of the gathering session... because of these annoying people, some people like me can't get in ! I want to learn dancing !! and I think that NiuNiu is a highly skilled dancer ! I'm just so angry with those people ! -grr-

hm... my partner,elisa's last day... actually, I kinda feel irritated by her... keke... she's a hyper active... worst than me ! Payday today ! only got 6 days of pay... it's the pay of Nov. and I only went in on 25 nov. so I only have $153.80... haiz... nvm... my dec pay will be more ! Niven finally got his Ipod Nano ! -lol- today's customers have a better manner ! -lol- they have lesser presents to wrap ! keke... Virginia same shift with me today ! -yeah- saw Lissa ! she's just soo ccuuttee ~ n playful ! I love her ! will be buying a X'mas present for her !! 

oh ya... have to rmb to buy a mickey doll for Virginia ! and something for Lissa ! keke... I have alot of things to buy ! so looking forward !

after 2 day of full shift, I'm really exhuasted ! however, there's something that makes my day ! I've a crush on a promoter ! most friends would make comments abt his fair complexion, but I don't know why, I just like him... keke... he's fair, tall (taller than the range of height I wished for a guy), kinda cool ! I just prefer to look at him and not making any moves... but because Niven (the 1.81m tall guy in my gift wrap) is his friend and he knew about it... -grr- (I should have check b4 telling him... ) he's teasing me every now and then ! -omg- he said he wanted to help my in my 'happiness', so decide to hint to that promoter ! -argh- what if everything goes wrong ?!

12/12/05 - the day that I'm most troubled ! I caught a fish... the fish I wanted... I'm holding on but not rolling back my line nor letting it go... my fish start to find its way (knowing that "it's" caught)... I don't know why I'm just fearing and worrying... there're friends behind telling me to roll back the line, but I don't have self confidence now... I always don't have...

tml its my off day again ! -yeah- going to ployclinic for injection b4 goiong to HK! finally decided to stay on in Metro! unless I'm permitted for 5 days unpaid leave ! if not, I'm gonna be any toys promoter, so that I could work in Metro Tamp. !

today after work went out to celebrate Lingz b'day last minute ! -lol- it's just so sudden ! ate Sakae dinner buffet ! lots of fun stuff ! today my body was soo boneless ! after there's so many things to think/solve ! lucky tml off, or else I'll be toring apart by tml ! I just couldn't imagine nxt wk afternoon shift dinner time ! -argh- I've to stop thinking ler lah !

waiting for a sms for my happiness ! so anxious... I'm prepared for reply that I don't wish for... my hands cold... heart pumping triple the blood than I usually pump... -omg- there's false alarms ! -hew-

my worried thoughts had drifted away, my gloomy mood is over... everything is over... anxiousness now took over with impaitence and eagerness ! chat on the phone with Niven for 100mins... -lol- came up with some solutions (his solutions are too daring !) I don't wished to talk much about what had happen and I'm shuting my mouth about this... no one gonna know about what happen only for Niven n Me will know ! I may only open this secret till everything is over and pass ! now Niven had become my friend, closest friend... I only trust him there and no one else !

my heart had been beating fast since i woke up ! -argh- I'm so excited... mayb for tml ?! -omg-

ever since he found out, my days were quite bad... I just felt so worried... haiz... tml afternoon shift eh ! -omg- gonna see him... fearing that I'll make a fool out of myself... no matter what I must try my best ! I want that 'fish' ! Niven said, "you're so desprate." what shd I do ?! that's my first time doing this sort of things... I must get it ! but I'm still worried... haiz... erm... went blog hoping ! found out that it's a tough wk for alot of ppl too ! -lol-

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may this song accompanyme through my days... go go jiayou !

 afternoon shift ytd... the queue was non-stop ! persents per person also increases ! but, wrapping stops around 9 going 10 ! my last customer have 5 bottles and 6 plus boxed items... and there's no square base doggy bags... so I do it one by one... really a waste of time ! -sianz 1/2- erm.. dinner time, I didn't even think of such situation ! my body getting so tense, my face started to blush... -omg- promoters went to BK, I followed Ain and friends there too ! and we met them there... although I knew he's there, I still got stunt when I saw him ! I looked to him and he look up at me (he's sitting)... luckily there's no space for us... -pwee- and I sit facing away from him... I didn't ate much... just flipping magazine... after dinner, they went first... after dinner went up to checkpt.... went to the toilet...and slack at the checkpt. cus Ain kept saying 'HB' her friend know about it... den when he walked out of the restroom. '"there !" Ain's friend shouted... he looked up... omg.... i started to blush ! and turned and walked away...

Ain's friend wanted to know "D" whom Ain like... so I brought her to his department and saw him... but Ain did not follow... after that when morning shift people went home... "D" walked pass our counter, Ain so happy ! 2 happy girls

after doing 2 days of full shift, I'm kinda satisfied and I did not regret accepting the offer of doing fulll shift ! today was the most fun night of all ! gd luck all the N lvls students ! today, is Niven too anxious of getting his results or what ?! he's talking crap ! which made me laugh till my tears came out ! -lol- "King Kong, Queen Kong, elephant, kong king movie, female lead, etc..." just too lame ler la ! -.-" but at least it could acc. me trough that tough night of wrapping !

oh ya, also decided to work till 24th dec ! buying X'mas gift for friends in metro esp. him ! erm... I was thinking for giving him personally, but I'll blush and my heart will pump faster ! -omg- lets see la ! going to orchard on Tuesday ! buying x'mas stuff ! almost done, but buying how many presents!

hm... ytd night after blogging, went to friendster... accepted Niven's friend request ! after that was searching for other metro friends in his friend list with I saw someone's contact ! -wow- I melted instantly ! keke... blushing too ! I'm just too crazy over him ler... that was the first time I got too over ! -diaoz- don't think i could see him today, cus he's getting his results !

early this morning I woke up feeling so excited, my heart beating fast...  :X opps !

my X'mas wishes

-hope he like my gift
-hope Niven gt really surprised by the 'surprise gift'
-getting a well paid job in town area
-hope that there's a chance to give Ain a huge surpise for her happiness
-black wallet with a "button strap" (hunting for it for very long)
-spent time with friends on x'mas eve and x'mas day b4 leaving SG

oh ya... dad bought PSP (limited edition) and Sony T9 ytd in the Suntec, sony fair... nice gadgets !

it's love at first sight ! I always wanted this type of wallet and ... I found it... but but but... I'm broke ! too much x'mas present to buy ! -argh- I wouldn't tell my mum abt this, she'll most probably say HK would have a nicer one ! haiz... I like purple with black... I want it so much ! erm... hope someone would get me this !

today went to shop for xmas presents ! spent alot of money... i also realise that my friends are more important than my needs ! -lol- today, I feast my eyes on YDKs ! -keke-  did go down to Metro, settled Jereina's present, maggie and Virginia was settled ytd... hm... still more to go ! it's really kinda hard to presents ! this yr I choose each and every present myself ! really getting headache thinking if it suit that person/ trying to tell the person not to buy that present indirectly/etc... I'm just to lucky today ! cus I only put in deposit for the test tubes for 2 person, and today when I collected it, the sale girl did not collect the rest of it back... -lol- I'm a happy person today ! also say Swing's 'cuteboy' and Romoe that Heartlanders that 'ah beng', Ryan !

recently I've been waking up so early(to me) and I just couldn't get back to sleep... everytime I woke up, I was thinking of him ! then my hearts start to beat faster and faster ! what happen ?! receive Junliang's testi in friendster ! -omg- I just couldn't understand what he meant ! haiz.. anyway, today I'm passing my present ! I must jia youz ! also hope that I won't screw everything up ! my heart is still beating fast ! maybe because it's the first time I'm giving a present to someone i like ! haiz...

recently there're a couple of 'friends' that really pissed me off ! I don't wish to tell ! no one hardly knows ! unless there're some 'KPO' people going about 'crossrefering' ! I just don't understand, is it that important to check on everything I did ?! -omg- i'm so pissed by this ! and I could torlerate any of those attitude prob. people ! they suck ! sentence of the day >> to me, (ex)classmates will always remain as (ex)classmates, while buddies will always remain buddies ! -end-

I'm just so anxious today ! -wow- and the thought of buying that wallet is also wondering in my mind ! 2 things is bothering me today ! 1st - passing the present to HB... 2nd thing - that wallet !

consider a normal day of wrapping ! was waiting for 8.30pm (HB going back) and pass the present ! but as I saw him walk pass I just don't dare to stop him ! -argh- so I kicked Niven and wanted him to help me...

HB was saying goodbye to Niven !
Niven : oh ! bye! wait ! she has something to tell you !
HB turned back, I looked at hime he looked at me !
I quickly went to get the present. when he saw the present, he smiled ! 
s.xianz : for you and Merry Christmas in advance !
HB : Thank you (smiling)

arr... I' just so happy ! and I couldn't forget his smile ! -omg- after that Niven say I was rude ! -lol- guess why ?! Niven : helped you also never have a thank you from me ! -lol- I'm just too happy and I forget everything ! -lol- even my customer was laughing at me when I kept smiling and laughing with joy/happiness !

oh ya... KS, MK, JW, adrian and Richard came tamp. ! they drop by metro ! so strange, seeing my friends looking at me wrapping ! it's time for the class guys to style abit ! haiz...  

my happiest day of my life i guess ! ytd night, someone added me in friendster ! so surprise ! after that I browse his profile ! we chatted in MSN ! about 2hrs long till 2.21am ! and went to slp ! just so happy ! ytd got the resignation form ! 2 more days for me in Metro !

just now was chatting with him again ! after i woke up at 8+ going 9 ! he's early too ! hehe... keke... like chatting with him ! having a great time !

tml and sat. will be doing full shift ! will be damn tired on Fri night esp. ! just now took a couple of pic of my 'Kong' family (Me, Ain, Jereina and Niven) ! -wee-  why Kong family cus we kept saying Niven Kong, Jereina Kong, Ain Kong, Kong shu xian, etc... den we forma kong family ! photos uploaded to friendster !

yeah ! xmas eve I'm not alone ! -winkz- but only 2 people included me... still thinking of important friends to call !

hm... tml my last day ! still have presents I have not buy ! hope niven like his present ! -lol- i gave him a test tube, paperclip n a eye shadow...lol he'll scream at me ! -lol- haiz... i'm soo tired today ! hope tml will be a better day ! haiz... today then know that he's no going out with niven... and he's not booked !!! but I'm booked ler ! er... I also won't dare to ask him out ! -lol- hope he will have a merry christmas eve !

this year xmas was soo fun ! made new friends ! after work, went home with Swing to get ready for xmas countdown ! it's just soo fun... met up with Kelvin and Jun Liang... after that with adeline,mun yee gang !

before meeting up with adeline,mun yee... people were going round spraying at others foam ! there's still gang spraying ! -lol- a gang all attack one person.... wah... Swing was one victim, Kelvin was another in the beginning ! -lol- oh ya... I'm so happy to see Kelvin wearing the Flesh Imp t-shirt i gave him ! just so cool !

Kelvin n Jun Liang went to buy foam spray to defend others ! -lol- like a shooting game ! Kelvin also left his Ipod nano with me... finally talk to him... but not so much ! he's hyper ! after that went to find Niven and his orange gang ! -lol- they don't have foam spray... Kelvin n Junliang went to attack him... I also went to attack Jonathan a.k.a Johnne ! Johnne was so high ! he's dancing all the time ! -lol- went to far east area, but mot much people, the oragne gang when to buy their foam and headed back to hereen to spray people ! -waha- we, in casual clothes was behind the orange gang so when anyone was attack, everyone aim tt person/group ! we go around orchard like mad people screaming like hell ! everywhere is so slippery like skiing when we were walking ! Jacquline was attack and the foam went into her eyes... then after that everyone stop playing... sat down behind hereen... start playing games... Kelvin went off first.. haiz... sad eh...but he left his Ipod nano with me... keke... maybe will pass it to him today... see how first... played a dare game... kinda fun but embarrassing... it was about 2am... after that went to centerpoint for supper... and start intro. ourselves more... guess we've joined the orange gang bah ! the orange gang range from alot of schools ! -lol- there's peirce, bowen, hougang, compassvale and bedok town... and they are celebrating their 1st year anni. of meeting each others ! -lol- mayb nxt yr they'll cor us in ?!

walk down orchard road till singapore musem, starting raining and took shelter... start chatting... and I intro. a new game, using poker cards to see if you're in what position of that person's heart ! after that got really sleepy and lied down on swing's leg... and when i woke up i hear Johnne saying snow fairy thing... den I realise Niven have put a leaf with foam on my hand... chatted till around 6.50 am...time for us to go home ler ! i love this new friends !

although it's just a few hours with him, but at least we became closer ! hehe

currently prepared to leave just waiting for whoever to fetch my family to the airport ! e time has come ! flying off ! take lotsa photos do drop by my blog and left ur comments... if there's a com. i'll be dropping some replys oh ~ bon voage to me !

just reached home! I just couldn't tolerate my dad's attitude ! and temper ! in the whole trip he's always fussy about my mum... and always came to me to complaint ! -wth-

day 1 - had few hrs of sleep and went to airport ! time pass rather fast... reached HK airport ! guess what ?! the agency made me waited for 2hrs (manage to catch some slp)... I just wanted to screw up the whole company when I told myself that it's a holiday... however, I just made some unfriendly remark straight to their faces ! got really 'suang' ! dad complaining of the standard of hotel me and my mum chose... nvm... still more ! wen out for lunch... it's great ! shop around Tsim Sha Tsui for the whole day... tt place is about 3 times the size of bugis street !didn't manage to finish the street ! bought quite alot of stuff (mainly cosmetics)

day 2 - still shopping in Tsim Sha Tsui ! spent about half of the money ! -wow- HK noodles are just so nice ! yum yum ! after that went to Causeway bay tt meet up with my HK friend ! and gave her a present (photo frame) she gave me a bar of chocolates (I couldn't eat ) nvm... causeway bay is another shopping area ! -wow- just couldn't have the time to shop the whole area ! bought the puma bag I aimed on the first day while shopping in Tsim Sha Tsui(TST) ! notice that I'm so attracted to brown and purple stuffs ! 

day 3 - DISNEYLAND HONGKONG ! -wow- shows were so nice ! very perfect ! flawless ! stayed till 6 + pm... saw the lighting of the xmas tree... and left... nv catch the fireworks... but manage to take the disney train ! ;p went back shop in TST again !! finally found BAPE clothes ! but all guys and it's so expensive ! a t-shirt of BAPE cost S$100 over !!! BAPE shoe wasn't my type.. so didn't buy at all... bought a shorts also at TST ! started to like shorts ! found my style ! dinner when to a store that sucks too much ! so expensive ! and the food taste awful ! that's the only day I ate rice !

day 4 - went to Jordan and Mong Kok ! the shops along the streets were so many ! bargain till i go mad ! bought things for friends ! went to temple street, and the well known ladies street ! almost spent S$1500 in the 4 days !

day 5 -  (today) morning ate bee hoon like day 4 morning... but this time it's raining so didn't ate by the store... brought up to the hotel ! after that did some last min shopping for food ! keke... dad complaining about money issue... I just could'nt bother to care... i've tolerated for years ! -omg- I really couldn't imagine tt day tt I blow up in front of him ! he can moodswing better than ladies ! in the plane he was in good mood... after that we're going back on a cab, i was msging friends and he got angry and scream at me... then when we reached home, i'm unpacking the stuff, he is back to normal ?! what a weird father !

pics will be uploaded in msn space !