ytd night was a nightmare. i felt so terrible. my stomach ache got worst. like sth swirling in my stomach. and now, i'm sick. running a fever. but still decide to work. haiz. nvm, tml off. so mots prob. shd be resting at home.

ive nth much to blog. just that its a awkward day for me. im i that cold-blooded ?! i can even laugh out loud when i feel bad. guilty. haiz. i just don't want to take things so seriously. i don't wanna feel worst.

it started of by me trying to console someone, but ended of me irritated by that someone. i just dont wanna put my effort in people who set their minds in giving up on themselves. its a waste ! useless fool ! i'm sorry for what had happened, and now are you trying to put the blame to me ?! i will feel guilty no more, and to hate you more ! just a useless piece of SHYT !

my effort had gone wasted. and there's no point keeping this friendship. since you don't care about it, why shd I ?! you're a disgrace to urself, lil boy !

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now by saying sorry, u think u can resolve what had happened ?! what did you try to do after saying sorry ?! words said can't be kept back ! saying that you lost control of urself, its just a lame excuse. WTF. for now, what i can say is i cant forgive. im totally upset with him.

i'm sorry to vent all my anger here, my words maybe too harsh. no offence to other people. argh !!!! i just don't wanna spoil my mood for my outing ltr.

so tml will the results of the posting. and my mum seems to want me in SP ! no comments, as long as its Biz IT or Biz. i hope its Biz IT !

today went down town! caught the 5.30pm underworld: evolution. its M18, but the person didn't check IC. so bought it just like that ! so a M18 show is a 'M18' show. with the procedure ! lol. then mic n caris blame me for bringing them to watch that kind of movie. ;P show ended at 7.17pm. saw the NGs working. just nice its dinner time. went to the restruant/cafe for dinner. we're VIPs ! lol. its like treating it like our home. waha. ordered fish & chips. wow. its too much for me ! didn't manage to finished it off. then it was like 9pm. store closing soon. so went down to PS for that Roxy Quicksilver wallet. guess what ? it is closed !!! i finally decided to buy it and now its close ?! argh. nvm i still have wed. ! wed. movie will be Big momma 2! haha. like ive so much money to spent ! lol.

woke up late. went online to check for my posting. results was saddening. rushed to work. on the way, CH called. i told her no school wanted me. and tears came bursting out. but i tried to control myself. i don't want people in the bus to see me cry. though they didn't see, but i think people in front of me know. of cus CH knew.

early for work. moodless. sad. sian. ignored jonathan. thanks to CH for accompany me for lunch. and thanks to people who try to comfort me, though its late replies. life in my workplace is getting better. time to go home, waited for joanne. after that still have to sit outside the bus int chg for her/him to smoke. after she/he jio people out, she/he smoked again. and there's a no smoking sign in front of us ! then she/he say here nv say will fine. just nice our buses came tgt. she/he acted blur when i ask how abt ur smoke? she/he say after disposal of tt cigratte, huh? what did you say? giving a cunning smile. lol

took that bus feeling kinda low. but fought back my feelings. thinking positively. there's always chances if i want. when its a dead end ahead, hope will be just at the corner !

kinda pissed when I lost two sales today. one was a $399 oven. and another was 2 $69 mistral fan. damn. somemore that mistral fan, jonathan knew ive serve that customer, no matter how much he hate me or what so ever, he let it off to to Swing, its okay to let it to her, but at least tell me ! after that ive no mood to serve customers. so all thanks to the other promoters which made me have a $3881.91 sales today ! overshot !!!

 

guess how much was today's sale ?! this time there's more ! $8414.91 haha. hit so much also ain't much commission. gonna change job again! as a part timer promoter !

tml off ! have lots of plan for tml ! may god bless me !

today i looked ugly.  cus of my dark eye bags. woke up at 7am ! guess what ?! met NV boi's bro. in the lift ! haha. went to appeal in all the poly of SG ! in the bus 27, saw chris ! he's doing great in Simei, higher nitec logistic ! somemore, ppl is bridge leader, bringing freshmen ! gt 2 khakis also ! lol. he always have things to chat ! damn funny, suan-ing us.

after that settle at CP at 3+pm. ate. after that, went to PS actually wanted to buy that wallet, but its out !! argh.  nvm. watched Big mama house 2 ! yeah! damn funny. oh ya. today took cab around to those poly. we're really broke for today after the movie. lol. CH is so lame today, and mic is so high in the cab. i duno why ! -.-" then caris trying to 'tune' to a normal channel. for me, i just listen !! -waha-

gotta slp early today. there's work tml !

today started of with bad start. ive flu and cough. i almost cough my lunsg out. damn. drank alot alot alot of water ! feeling better now ! but my voice isn't back yet !  

but there's just so many things worth for me to be happy/high about. met a new buran promoter. cute. mi mi yan. same age. plump ! lol. like the bad guy in tt mickey show ! haha. he said sth to me. just hope that he's not another j. :x

2nd thing. someone bought me a packet of potato chips ! lol. cus i help techno promoter to sell her stuff. but really, there's just no other brand for me to sell. :x

3rd thing. most high for. a handsome promoter said goodbye to me. not that pervious promoter, andy chan, he'd disappeared ! lol. this promoter looks abt 20+. have a pair of attractive eyes ! lol. XP i was going home. then i guess he's smoking. then he said goodbye to me. or us. then i replied. and he ask for my name ! hehe. then he said bye again and also said that next time we can have dinner together ! wee ~ but i don't know his name. nvm, i'll have the chance ! keke

basically, i'm just too easy to be satisfied ! xD oh ya. there's sth funny to share. my dad's trainee saw my pic, and told my dad i'm gd looking. then my dad told them to pay a deposit of $5k and $2k per month. till i got out of poly. then ask me, if i say no, the money is burnt ! lol. this is really good ! waha

when i went to metro and work, life is better than schooling. cus i interact with people around my age mostly ! cus its holiday season.  but as for courts, im stepping into the society. cus people there ranges from all ages from 17 to 50 over. somemore most people there smoke. which makes it so common to me unlike people in metro.  

working life is so different in these two places. there's so much restriction in metro, but in courts im so free. free to do things that are restricted in metro! and more things happen to me in courts ! haiz.

back in those schooling days, when I 发花痴. i'm gng crazy again. haha. just kept thinking of that 'attractive eyes' omg. of cus my shuai ge have more chance, though 帅哥是拿来看的. hehe. but no matter how, its fated ! i still have to get to know people better ! haha. im really thinking too much. damn high sia! i love his eyes, only his eyes! haha.

3rd blog entry of the day ! afternoon, went down to sch to apply for aumni. but 4gt abt the slippers restriction. but luckily, Naz. around so sercuity let us in! came back, while others went out. and took a nap. waking up feeling giddy as usual. woke up feel so hot, what's with the weather ?! ive the fan blowing directly at me okay ! nvm.

as soon as i regain, i gave my new job a call again. i called ytd, the sale rep. said ask for my name, age. so im working as a weekender, if i got in. but what she didn't ask was my phone no. so i approach the promoter who sort of recommended me this job. and he told me to try again the nxt day, which is today. gave her a call, and she told me to go down for interview ! -yeah- ;p its worth being happy for ! haha.

today was the brightest day of my life. and ive the brightest smile i ever had ! even my trip home seems so sweet. i'm so high today.

the phlips promoter ask me whether some 王子 ‘电倒我’ ? then i replied to her, “我的王子来了吗？” its the first time a very handsome guy want to know me ! everytime i see him, i'll blush. i even got caught by him that im looking at him. :X did it clear everyone's qns ?! haha. he's an actor look-alike ! he have chen hao ming's eyes ! hehe. kinda look alike, but he more shuai !

haiz. actually shd be having lunch n dinner with shuai ge. but he tot i took my lunch, so he went with another promoter. then for dinner, heeating with AV staffs. and those are all guys, so went with may ling. went home that time, saw him outside slacking, while the other staff smoke. my teacher, Roy, said goodbye to me, and just nice shuai ge is there sitting, so i said goodbye to both parties. argh. after that he called me, but why didn't i heard ?!?! he said he wanted to sent me home. but too late. by the time i notice, im boarding my bus !  nvm. waiting for shuai ge to add me in msn ! XP

in the beginning, i thought that he don't really look that great up close. my new god sis, Kat, also think so too ! but after awhile, i think that he's cute ! he called me while working, then, i went to find the sight of him. and chat liddat. then he gave me a yeah sign ! oh.... so cute ! hehe XD also notice he have tattoo on his right arm ! then May Ling commented that he have a playboy look. hehe

woke up kinda early. cus he appeared in my dreams ! not haunting me !!! ytd added him in MSN. hm.. had a great conversation ! he seems that he wanted to know how i feel for him, but im those sort of girls who won't say it out. im crazy abt him, yes i do !

he asked me abt his first impression, if i have those ever thought of talking to him, also asked me if i like guys with tattoo, he even wanted me to comment on him. but all my answers are "alright lo". :X how i wanted to tell him, but im just not brave enough. he also asked abt what's my nick abt, the irresistable. how i wanted to tell him that his eyes are so attractive, so irresistable.

he even asked if i peep at him at work, then i tried to say, most girls peep at guys, all those lame ans. but i did admit to him, i peep at him. and he told me not to peep at him, but look at him. lol. i will. just love to see him at work.

damn. he made me dig out tt guy, tt plump guy. told him. and also hinted him that i didn't gave tt guy much chance ! xD after that he made wild guesses on what i meant on irresistable. he said that i enjoy guy wooing me. of cus not la. so i hinted to him, is abt someone. but nv say that its him. :X

okay. the happenings for today. i noticed that everyday i see him, he seems so irresistable. asked him out for dinner, but he's not hungry. so went w/o him. and now ive had the guts to look at him. ;P im kinda sad cus when we went out for dinner, not long after, he went with other promoters for dinner. and he is the only guy i felt jealous for. perviously, i din get to interact with that guy that often.

okay. the happenings for today. i noticed that everyday i see him, he seems so irresistable. asked him out for dinner, but he's not hungry. so went w/o him. and now ive had the guts to look at him. ;P im kinda sad cus when we went out for dinner, not long after, he went with other promoters for dinner. and he is the only guy i felt jealous for. perviously, i din get to interact with that guy that often.

okay. the happenings for today. i noticed that everyday i see him, he seems so irresistable. asked him out for dinner, but he's not hungry. so went w/o him. and now ive had the guts to look at him. ;P im kinda sad cus when we went out for dinner, not long after, he went with other promoters for dinner. and he is the only guy i felt jealous for. perviously, i din get to interact with that guy that often.

okay. the happenings for today. i noticed that everyday i see him, he seems so irresistable. asked him out for dinner, but he's not hungry. so went w/o him. and now ive had the guts to look at him. ;P im kinda sad cus when we went out for dinner, not long after, he went with other promoters for dinner. and he is the only guy i felt jealous for. perviously, i din get to interact with that guy that often.

ytd, kinda tired. woke up feeling so slpy. damn. ytd, found out shuai ge have gf. its still alright to me, haven't put in much feeling.

today damn shock by what travis told me. he told me what kind of person am I. so damn true. oh ya. today that well-known 'ti ko peh' came. i didn't know it's him in the beginning. so just be friendly, till my teacher, Roy, told me. wah, damn ! he look at me from top to toe. its damn rude ! and he have an evil smile on his face ! lucky im not in a bad mood, or else, the whole courts will be seeing me scolding that 'ti ko'. i'll embarrass him in front of everyone !

heard stories abt him wooing a small girl to someone who have a husband. tml, im off. gng to interview. back at work on wed. damn it. that 'ti ko' working, then my teacher off. his zhuo you shou, zi qing, off also. damn it. no one there to protect me. but hope my teacher told that eric, the osim guy. to look after tt 'ti ko'. the more i say, the more i get angry. luckily, im at home. or else, i'll b fierce to him !!

i kinda dislike shuai ge's personality. he wanted me to be his 2nd gf. meaning he's going 2 timer. which i disagree. i did told him, i don't want to be his 2nd gf. so, hm... he want to play around, i'll play around too. i've nth to lose and i can gain those sweet moments chatting on the phone with him. haha. my horns are growing out ! ;P

went for interview! that lady said i looks sweet ! hehe. cus im wearing skirt and heels, i guess. got into my job. just have to wait for the venue and date to start work ! im in the digital camera section. more to the AV side ! -yeah-  have to learn plasma TV and stuff. kinda excited. under attachment in my current job, not my new job. meaning that they want to safe cost eh ! but, i don't mind. just look forward to learn abt cameras ! :X

after that went down to courts ! though my impression for shuai ge have changed, i still have the feel for him. haiz. but i still won't be his 2nd gf. chatted with him today. nth much. as i enter there, all eyes seems to fixed on me ! i didnn't noticed, but shuai ge told me ! haha. im just diff. cus i wore skirt n heels !! i also noticed shuai ge look at me when im talking to other ppl. ;P hehe.

damn it. jonathan pissing me off day by day. after i served a customer, then that customer wanted to see fans, so i intro those fans. then guess what he do ?! he came in and serve my customer away. cus previously i dislike him. so whenever he's around, i'll disappear. so there goes my sales. he took away my sales and gave it to other ppl. ive tolerated ! lucky there's 2 guys calming me down ! :X thanks guys !

im kinda scared that ti ko. and also very angry. he kept looking at me ! damn. he also imagine things with me. then he told other promoters, he want me to go 's. his mike' (think in the dirty form). damn him ! i still can tolerate, don't know why. my nxt move will be letting him lose his job there ! somemore, alot of ppl there is not happy with him.

cus whole store knew abt my prob. then shuai ge came to me and say, "don't worry! I'm here!" haha. so what, my feeligs are fading, cus my impression towards him changed. so at most, we're friends. lol.

went to food fair today ! nth much to see. taiyo promoters around ! saw jimmy and vincent ! xD damn. there won't be cooking for the nxt 2 days till the food fair is over. nvm. vincent will be coming on sun. at least there's popcorn to eat. hehe.

after that went carrefour and bought things. damn heavy. so took cab home. met dad at the lift. after that rest for awhile, and went to celebrate ! dad's bday !!! ate crab eh ! :X though i can't just hope that my rashes don't come out ! hehe. i'd a great dinner !

today sales was $6k plus ! -woho- there's a new philips promoter ! now its like philips is dominating courts ! haha. becus of them, i've the sales today ! i alone also sold 4 microwave oven hor ! hehe. the crowd is also bigger ! hope to see a bigger crowd tml !!

that ti ko so scared now ! -waha- anyway, he's going to be kicked out of that courts ! oh ya. damn it. i don't know how to describe cus a BOY ! when im closing one sale on philips rice cooker, this jonathan came in, push the rice cooker box, which was behind me, and hurt my elbow. its painful okay ! so i just turn back and gave a painful look. then, he didn't even bother to apologise. nvm. i went complaining to Roy, and PURPOSELY saying out loud. after that i just try to forget. what he want to do, just do it himself. i don't want to bother, cus next week will be my last week around !!! after that when im talking to mitsubishi promoter, this jonathan called him and want him to open the door for him. hey, there's other people around also, and this is not the first time also ! damn it ! nvm, let him enjoy it. i'll resign soon !

haiz. told shuai ge that today's sales was good. haiz. why did he left so early ?! now, he moody cus he found out that there's 10 home theatre sold. haiz. tml is sunday, hope theres more customer and hope he got his sales !

1st prob. of the day, i gave cashier the wrong product code. so charge wrong amount. and i went down to customer's house and get the money, cheque form, which is not charged. so that customer's house is at SENGKANG ! so went down and went back to work after that. nvm, at least i gt $838 of sales ! lol.

came back from tt tiring bus ride to and fro. i went for dinner !! after tt shuai ge called me and ask where did i go. hehe. oh ya, helped him punch in and out. but he did come. when he went home, i was gossiping stuff with that new philips guy promoter. after that he called me, but i didn't heard. so return his call. he said till i'm so interested in that philips guy and im like kinda ignoring his call. diaoz. cleared the misunderstanding. so what, we're just friends only. though im just happy he get his call ! :x

i gt into poly ! hehe. xD its after dinner, i got a call from my dad ! who told me that good news. so im not retaking my science cus ive a course now ! im so happy that i have a school ! haha.

today, jonathan is helpful. im finding stock, and he told me where to find it. but i just ignore. don't know why, just my imstinct told me to do so.

after work, G sms. called and stuff. he's just not giving up. so let it be. i told him to finish NS see. anyway, i shd b single ! lol. i enjoy life like this ! ;P

today its like a dead city ! damn. why izzit raining today ?! but at least i have $2k of sales ! hehe. that 'ah beng', new philips promoter, kept calling me fei fei ! like i'm very FAT ! grr.

then that jonathan kept purposely give customer wrong info. like courts only sell his stock ! if there's no stock for a certian fan under his brand, he say there's no stock. but b4 he wasn't like that !! wth. damn it ! er xing arh ! nvm. i'll help Kat sell her fans. no matter what i'lltry my best to promote other brands' fan !

23rd march
finally off. went to re-perm my hair and also changed my hair colour! its now ruby red ! woho. and for my pervious highlights, is now redish white ! my curls are smaller too. it took me abt 3 hrs to get my hair done. damn. its so boring. lol. after that wen home, get changed and off for my god bro's wedding dinner ! just when im coming out from my blk's lift. NV boi n his bro was there. he didn't look as good as the last time i saw him. nvm. im full after the 3rd dish. but manage to taste all the dishes. i also ate things that im allergic to. :X

24 march
went for medical check up for poly enrollment. didn't took me much time, like what i heard from my going-to-be schoolmate. after that went down tampines singtel hello! shop about my internet connection. its kinda irritating, im stuck at home w/o internet to use. i didn't do anything and that remote computer just don't wanna respond. told me to give a call, tried, still can't get online. damn. oh ya. when i reaching home just now, saw NV boi's back view. why i know its him, cus last time im always get to see his back view ! lol. im kinda sure now that he's an O lvl student ! but his age still remains a mystery !

today
just got my internet fixed. how ? by subscribing to MOL ! haha. not supporting broadband ! :X its kinda a torture w/o internet !! argh. though my broadband contact isn't due yet, i just got kinda frustrated dealing with it. damn.

finally back to work ! kinda slacking. no matter what pls don't develope attitude problems. cus in the end, the one suffer is you. damn. met some attitude prob. staff. they suck. just tolerate, as thurs will officially be my last day at work for courts ! oh ya. a good news for me. it started of by no sch that wanted me and now i have 2 schools in hand. deciding which school to go to. haha. kinda happy!

ytd my brain is so darn messed up. or mayb im just to tired to think. okay. ytd received letter from another poly. haha. now i've 2 schools in hand. lol. dad came down to courts and find me. after that scroll around, bought a philips iron, then ZiQing gave me lots of free gifts ! haha. i only want the umbrella !

today, ZiQing drove his dad's car to work. so went to Nee Soon for lunch ! haha. he even treat us ! haha. what a rich person. 2nd time he treat eh. this time, mum came down. introduce me to her friends. haha. oh ya. today went in and out during afternoon just to help ppl buy drinks. lol. can run out also, better than staying inside. auntie shirley bought ice cream for us ! haha. just love ice cream ! hehe. sales was around $5k. leaving on thurs. will miss those days and welcome my new job most prob. and my new school life ! haha.

today, raining, making my day so boring. damn. but today's sales was $2k. not bad. i didn't serve much customer. im always slacking today. i didn't even want to care about customer in HA. today, im wearing a FAKE smile. i just dont have to mood. i just don't want to care much now. things that can be ignore will be ignored ! i just want to minimise all my prob. working in courts just let prob. pailing up. my bad habits is come back also. lucky i left a few more days. or else i'll develope a bad attitude, hot tempered girl ! damn.

i can even feel that bad words are coming out of me soon. ive changed, change back to that bad girl i used to be. i need some time to recover. argh.

shuai ge is fading away. he's flirting around with me somemore. don't waste time, im playing with it also. but now, im letting it go and also sticking to my principle, 帅哥是拿来看的 ! somemore he's moving to Jurong Courts. though he gt his haircut, he don't look as style as last time. though the golded/blonde V-shape behind his head is still there, his sides are too long for him. kinda weird eh. :X

ending my entry with : going 2 timer will have BAO YING ! heard that a promoter just gt married and still have a gf. wth. somemore tt shuai ge want 2 timer also. haiz. promoters are good at talking ! :X no offence !

im off today. stayed at home, enjoying. playing my PSP ! argh. i forget about my xbox. if eugene knows,he'll sure bug me for his halo2. :X nvm. give me 2 more days ! hehe. by then, i could play halo2 and get giddy ! :X haha. tml is back to work. haiz. hope it will be alright for me.

im really tired. my back is aching, my feet are hurting. damn. finally one more day to go. and also my final treat for my so-to-come friends ! haha.

finally, my last day is over. shd b starting new job nxt wk ! hehe. today was quite free, except the last hr. damn. 2 customers came in and bought 23 items for lucky draw. made me follow them around courts. and they're getting CHEAP stuffs. omg. though everything added up to be around $500, they just took up too much of my time. and i still have to settle my punch card and stuffs. damn. wet home at around 9.20pm. lucky erifin is there to help me, or else i guess i will complete my stuff at around 10pm. phew. im so tired now. ahh.....

im jobless at this moment ! working in courts made me learnt alot. i learnt about what type of guys attracts me. i learnt that at work there's just no age gaps. i learnt the competitivness of sales. and more.

im specially attracted to guys with ear studs ! or mayb those handsome i met there, all wear ear studs. but one thing i'll be catious about is that i'll nv to make the first move to guys... wahaha.

there's no age gap btw 30 over and ppl around my age !! kinda surprise. but yet, i haven met anyone is behind mask ! waha. i shall beware ! :X

in sales sector, esp. philips n braun, they're like always competiting, yet braun don't seems to be a match with them. haiz. mayb philips just have too many products.

its april's fool. 12.13am.

QL: hey, im hospitalize.

the next moment, im ringing her up. but she didn't pick up. she made me panic eh ! cus im smsing a friend. and his sms came. so i just reply him. then went to MSN saw LK's nick, Happy April FOOOOOL. then i noe wat happen. damn. argh. i admit, im blur ! hehe