took abt 5hrs sleep and went out to sentosa after that. and i don't feel tired. there's a lot of people there. esp. indians. somemore they wear long sleeves, jeans and leather shoes. omg. don't they feel HOT ?!

somemore, ang mohs wearing only boxers ! i cus believe some indians wear their loose underwears to the beach. omg. and indians seems to be all over. their DARK enough, why shd they come to sentosa ?! if its just to play water, go to the swimming complex !!

weather is good today ! hehe. cus the rains around 6pm ! just nice time to go home. but the toilet is so packed, the bus stop are so packed. omg. somemore its raining kinda heavy after i finish cleaning myself. argh. lucky there's a kind aunty who allow me to share umbrella to the bus stop. keke. ;p

after that reached the bus int chg. ate chao kway tiao ! yum yum. ;p somemore ate oyster omelette. ;p im so full. went down to orchard. got my flesh imp bag. hehe. my transport expenses are so high. but in few days time i shd b getting my ez-link so i can get my concession. ;p

my final product seems satisfying. lol. my face is so damn red now. ;p but my body colour can be more tan de ! >.<

currently logging in from school. im just to forgetful. arh... why am i so blur ?! i 4gt that there's not marketting class today. so i brought that HEAVY book to school. omg. im suffering. somemore, i woke up today feeling so shag. ive bloodshot eyes when i woke up in the morning. damn. it spoils my day.

lucky last module of the day is sort of cancelled, so i can go out longer. great !

this morning, noticed that i can have various styles of clothes. but more lady like. i didn't notice ive such clothes. they're in my closet for quite long. haha. as days gone by, noticed that im getting more lady-like. ever since i known that someone. hehe. but of cus my main purpose is not cus of that someone that ive changed. ;p i just love this style. ;p mayb im getting mature ?! lol.

after lesson, went down to town to meet up with swing. on the train, i already noticed a guy kept looking at me. so i kinda hide behind my coursemate. when i alight, this guy came to me. wanting to be my friend. omg. im kinda shock to received such request from a guy. first time on the streets. i rejected him at first. but he just don't wanna give up. so in the end, i gave him. and im just so stupid to gave the right number. DAMN. somemore ive told him ive a bf and im meeting my bf, but he just dont wanna give up. argh.

after that, he sms me. he seems interested to know my bf. and how i met my bf. o.O his sms goes like that :

guy : shu xian, u met ur bf le? btw v.nice to meet u.. Heez..

me : still on e way meeting him.

guy : Wa so far ar.. He wrkin at orchard huh? Hw old ur bf? U nw in poly yr1?

me : we change place to meet. He studying nt working. He 19. Ya i yr 1

guy : Ic.. U study business rite? Cos i c dat ur computer bk is ??? 1st yr biz must tk de.. those discoverin comp, excel n access.. is bf same as u in nyp ?

me : Ya. BIT. my bf not nyp de. He frm SP wan.

guy : ic.. lidat oso can noe ar.. hmm mux b noe on streets or wrkplace de huh?

me : Ya. Met e streets n same workplace.

guy : Ic... haha i met u too latez.

me : Eh... haha Bt my type of guys are beach boys. Very tan tan wan.

guy : haha.. realli? i nt tanned enuff ar? Bt u nt d beach gal type lei r u ?

me : Im bcoming one. For my bf

guy : Haha.. U tanned no v.nive le lor.. aiyo change 4 ur bf dats nt d original u le.. galz under d sun v.easy aged de.. turn dark eary gt fair difficult ya

me : I love tan guys. i nt tan also no use. I love beach also mah.

guy : Haha.. Ic..Mi everyday face sea sia

-ended- cus i don't wish to contiune sms-ing him.

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after that when we're on our way to tamp., that customer called. he said he gt 2 Mission Impossibe 3 movie tix and he don't have someone to go with. and he asked if i could join him. i replied and i said, but im gng with my bf tml. hehe. ;p

damn. i just said too many lies today. i speak too much EVIL.

went to Metro. got some bad comments abt my taste. haiz... but its my choice. Virginia is looking good with her baby in he womb. lol. still scolding CB. haha. nv changed also. i missed lissa ! nvm i shd b seeing lissa on thurs. ;p

oh ya. now my dad is letting me decide which laptop i want. wtf ! nb cb ! me pissed me off damn badly ! F*** ! i need sth for me to vent my f**king bad temper now ! i disliking him day by day now. F*** arh. nb cb ! argh !! suddenly treating me so nice ?! talking so nicely to me asking me to decide what laptop i want. im just to moodless to talk to him ! he used to tell me, he wanted to abandon this house, now i can say, this house is making me so damn F**KING PISSED OFF ! and it don't seems to have a point for me to go home so early. at most, i go home for mum ! im developing a BAD TEMPER, a temper worst than my dad. i don't want to blame my dad for the cause of it. just that i choice to be this way ! i find no means to sit down and talk nicely to him. ive been like an entertainer/performer in front of him. IM SO SICK AND TIRED.

woke up too early, i just couldn't go back to slp. nvm. ytd night, chatted with my mum. cus im slping with her, cus of my hot-air air-con. chatted about my laptop stuff. okay, im free to get anyone. and im getting ASUS ! god damn it. im the one using the laptop ! getting it nxt wk ! yeah ! so looking forward. but nxt wk is a packed wk for me ! ;( lots of stuff to settle, so little time. argh.

just finish eating my LUNCH. im straving. after lesson went down CP to grab some groceries. felt like a housewife. lol. im actually shopping in cold storage eh ! ;p bought a lot. its soo heavy, somemore i took the wrong train to the west loop. omg. luckily, it started raining when i reached home.

today after my one period lesson. kinda strange, the guys from class 0604 called out for me yet didn't admit. wtf. very fun izzit ?! somemore they are childish. like how secondary 3 & 4 guys. omg. time to grow up.

went to virginia's house to do sth. now my plams hurts ;(

after that went to metro and past Ain some stuff. then went home. its a tired day for me. somemore, i ate only some sushi and chicken nugget. my dinner n lunch.

oh ya. ytd night something happen to me and that guy on the train. ytd night, having a confrence with that guy and Jason. but Jason was in the background listening. kinda playing around with that guy. i lied to the guy on my personal things. damn. that guy is damn boring. he don't create topics. so me and Jason said we tricked him, by saying i quarrelled with my bf. somemore, talking to him, im acting as if im a bad ah lian. ;p then today he msg me AGAIN. damn its boring.

ytd

me : u free now ? im very boring. u wan chat ?

guy : just reached home. bath hao ler den chat. (summarised sms, cus delete ler)

me : im at hm. nth to do. boring lor.

guy : ur bf nv chat with u? (summarised sms)

me : jus had a quarrel. dun ask y. i dun wan to tink abt it

guy : i wun ask u. how long have u been tgt? (summarised sms)

me : 5 mth plus. u bath hao ler mah ?

guy : my sis using house phone. u wan me cor u with my hp or u use ur house phone to cor me ?

me : cor me la. den den ur sis finish using den u use ur hse fone lo . im bored.

guy : so u wan me to cor u or u cor me ?(summarised sms)

me : u just cor me la. ma fan la.

(then we started chatted on the phone. damn its boring. somemore i fake a lot of stuff. ;p)

today

guy : Hi shuxian having tut nw? hmm felling less moody le ? smilez ;p

me : jus now slpin din notice ur msg. Very boring (fake, i din had lesson that early. ;p)

guy : haha.. aiyo ask u go claz u slpin.. haha.. nvm u smart jux lazy oni..

me : hehe. ;p

guy : hehe... ya cutez

guy : ur bf apologised to u n coax u le or still nutink heard fr him ? hmm u had ur lunch? mux eat worz.. weather hotz mux drink more water ya

me : haven. haven had lunch lec now mah.

guy : Ic.. den lect hall cold cold u gt bring jacket? M i disturbing u ?

me : nt cold. lesson boring ar

guy : its lidat de la bear wif it lor wad to do.. Nt cold den gd.. heez.. u seem still moddy

guy : (some chi msg... on blessings)

guy : dun b sad sad la.. i m here to zhi chi ni.. hehe..

me : alright lo. how bad can i b ?

guy : Hi shuxian, wad u doing ? Hw is ur day ?

me : er... alright. bt very tired

guy : Hmm wad u doing nw ? So after sch u went town again ?

me : I watch tv lo. din went town.

guy : Ic.. Still cold war wif bf ar? See u like sian sian n moddy de

me : ya. im tried also wat

guy : Haha.. Den slp early lor.. I c u liddat oso duno hw to console u sia.. oni xin teng wor.. cheer up lei

guy : I made a cup of coffee specially for u. there is no sugar, don't worry, the sender is very sweey.. good night ! =P

guy : U ther or slp le ?

bth. omg. ive nth o say abt this person. haiz. what a great idea of chatting on the phone with this guy ?! -.-"

kinda pissed by that guy. damn it. he's getting irritating. its like when he knew i had a quarrel with my bf, he said sweet things to me and try to win my heart ! NO WAY ! not that easy! >.< somemore i didn't even had a quarrel. we're a loving couple okay ! ;p

so just now, i msg that guy.

me : ytd nite, my bf called !!! den he aplogised to me. n WE'RE BACK TOGETHER !!! hehe ;p yeah ! (acting as if im soo happy... ;p just wanted him to stop msgin me. lol)

guy : dats gd den

BUT !!! he msg me again. but i didn't reply him.

guy : Today weather cold n rainy.. Tk care wor =p

making me annoyed of receiving his msg. damn.

guy : Hiyee u off sch le ? Going pak tor after ur claz ?

me : No. sch end very late today, din slp well too. argh

guy : y din slp well when bf made up wif u le

cant he just stop msging me ?!

suddenly having the urge to eat some ice cream ! just feel like eating. seems like im lonely for the nxt few and pass days. ;(

what happen last night was blurry, my brain was in a half sleep mode. just rmb that i i teared a lil. guess im lonely for the next fews day till thurs. ;(

god damn it ! those suitors are trying to flood my phone inbox !! -.-" im learning to ignore, by glancing the sender and HACK ! are they trying to me guilty for rejecting them ?! or are they trying me make me hate them ?! lol. ;p

this weekend is just not good for me. damn it. 2 sales only !!! argh. im tired. so sleepy. so shag. omg. stress is coming also. damn it. when can i have "sleep-ful" nights ?!

ive always ponder on how HE feel for me. seen in words, heard hies words. yet still im unsure. i dont know guys well. and most importantly, i dislike guys that mind his girl's look. kinda hurts when im treated like that. somemore, i can fall apart anytime. i dont think my mind can withstand the external pressure by various things. i cant rmb things well than before. argh. my emotions are getting worst. im stress now ! yes i am.

i had a heavy head today. shd b running a fever i guess. somemore i walked under the rain. hope i don't fall sick tml. ;( my eye bags are hanging and my head is feeling heavy. omg. save me ! =.=

currently in bro Qiu's hse. ;p hm... im satisfied ! everyone will be wondering what the hack im going to bro qiu's hse. the secret will be reveal soon. ;p damn there just too much crap we're talking abt. too much things happen in between. will update things soon. ;p

hm... when to pray for VESAK day. its so crowded in si ma lu. omg. in the beginning, i just couldn't stand my dad. its crtisizing ppl blame me or my mum. cant he just blame no one for once ?! made me damn pissed. somemore, went to town for shopping, i rather he goes his way while me and my mum go shopping. he mood totally changed. like a moodswing. wtf. after that he went PS alone, me and my mum went ard town to shop. gt a sleeveless and t-shirt. hehe. still not satisfied. im wanted to get a pair of slippers !

cus we're celebrating mother's day in advance, cus im working on sun. damn it. just couldn't get a day off ?! went chom chom, one family ! hehe. ;p after dinner, i had an idea ! maybe on my bday, gng chom chom or east coast for a feast ! then invite my friends and my someone home to ton ! hehe. ;p better don't reject me guys !! haha.

the secret can finally reveal. so im baking cookies for someone ;p last thurs was in Virginia's hse baking. that's the first trial. this was the actual. lol. ;p this Qiu arh, lots of crap. the kitchen is burning HOT. im like in a sauna. lol. made a lot of cookies. cus can bake for coursemates and friends. but specially for someone. ;p kinda felt sorry that i lied to that someone what im doing. ;(

met kennedy and Huikang when i finish work ! surprise wor ! long time no see !!! Kennedy said my looks change a lot, he can't recognise me. o.O and im mature now ! lol. their just the same, no difference. ;p their just like a bro to me. my METRO bros. hehe.

watched DaVinCi today ! with free popcorn. ;p its good to have a good network of friends. but how i got it, is not from my friend, but m bf's friend's friend. lol. somemore, that friend helped us gt our ticket 3rd roll from the back ! ;p its an interesting show for those who read it. its a 4 stars out of 5 stars ! ;p

sth to share around. ytd, daniel showed me this pack of cigraettes. its pink ! and it smelt of strong strawberry ! lol. if this really sold in Singapore, there'll be more teens smoking ! cus there's more flavors ! omg. somemore this is more cheaper than other brands, the menthol is stronger too ! this is what said by daniel. its legal also ! wtf. [img:775195]

ytd night, kinda tired and bored with my bf working. haiz. but i received suitors sms-es. lol. cus the shuxian is back. no much things can bother me or spoil my mood. so replied them both. for that guy on the train, i fake too much things to him. ;p and only recently i start sms-ing him after wks of slience frm me. ;p what reason i gave him ?! - i lost my phone, who are u ? haha. im so naughty ! haha.

as for the other one, G, who is entering NS, just had a casual chat. i wonder what kinda person is he. or maybe i shouldn't even bother to wonder. lol.

happy for Kelvin who just gt attached ! haha. somemore, some people so fake, wanted hint me something, told me to view his profile. bth arh. somemore still must leave testi for him. diaoz. lol.

im so hyper now. don't know why. maybe cus the shuxian is back. or maybe cus my bf clarify sth matter with me. to Rek - u're wrong ! waha. its like ive been keeping my moments with my bf to all my faithful readers. hehe. we're getting along great. too much sweet moments ler. ;D

weekends seems so short for me cuase im always working. haiz.. whatever ! have a sudden feeling of going to the beach this coming thursday. so FRIEND, hope you're avaliable hor ! hehe.

i felt like a person with lobang, or so-called 'job agency'. ;p helping people to get jobs and help a company to find employees. somemore for FREE ! nxt time i'll have to charge them !!! > hehe. nxt wk shedule, wed - bring coursemates down to my job agency to interview. fri - bring another grp to learn what to do in another job. damn. im busy for FREE ! lol. i kinda enjoying the time for being busy, or maybe im used to it. ;p

my tagboard is rotting, its so quiet !!! ;p

weekends seems so short for me cuase im always working. haiz.. whatever ! have a sudden feeling of going to the beach this coming thursday. so FRIEND, hope you're avaliable hor ! hehe.

i felt like a person with lobang, or so-called 'job agency'. ;p helping people to get jobs and help a company to find employees. somemore for FREE ! nxt time i'll have to charge them !!! > hehe. nxt wk shedule, wed - bring coursemates down to my job agency to interview. fri - bring another grp to learn what to do in another job. damn. im busy for FREE ! lol. i kinda enjoying the time for being busy, or maybe im used to it. ;p

my tagboard is rotting, its so quiet !!! ;p

having diarrhea for the whole day since morning. and i discharged my feces in school !! i mean school toilet. ;p i rarely discharged them outside. home is the most suitable place ! hehe. ;p hm... i tink i should stop all my crapping stuff. felt disgusted to write this entry in detailed of my happenings. >.<

stomping into the toilet anytime... lol.

im feeling ill. since past 2 days. currently having a running nose. i can't stop it. ytd im running a fever, but still went to school, after school brought felix, jordan, weikiat and standley to interview. had some training on the newer models. at that point on time im feeling hot. burning hot. omg.

after that went to Suntec to meet my bf. went LJS at Marina Square for his lunch. then cus there's no where to go so he suggested to go to my house. so brought him back, without my parents wondering if he's my bf. ;p went home to watch scary movie 4, had dinner then he taught me math us there's a test tml. my dad didn't commented, mum taught ive feelings for him. lol. wahaha.

today had a great time with my coursemates. had 2 test today. shd be able to pass with good grades ! ;p im quite HIGH today also. ;p

for math test, actually its a close book, but lecturer didn't care, discussed and even open our books. lol. as for Java, im quite sure im scoring for the 40mark questions and the 4 marks one. as for the 6marks, i shall forget it. lol.

oh ya, that guy on the train is getting irritating. i really wonder if he chased other girls before. in the morning he said some stuff to create his chance.

guy : Morning, in sch nw ?

ME : ya having break

guy : Ic.. U reply fast sia..

Me : mayb network faster bah.

guy : Oh Yeah ? Hmm can mms mi ur pic ?

Me : y u wan ?

guy : Haha so long neva c u le almost 4gt hw u look

Me : dun wan la.

guy : wan la... jux 1 will do

guy : please ? Hmm btw u wud go out wif other guy frenx de ?

Me : dun wan. i only go out with my bf. if i go out with another guy, n my bf noe, that guy will get it frm him. N he'll b angry with me

guy : So possessive sia, U wud regret do lor, dat he restrict u liddat if 1 day u 2 were to breakup

Me : wan zou me ar. im loyal de wor.

guy : Nt zou u la... Aiyo... Well if u breakup gt me ma i really waitin 4 u

Me : u wan b subsitute arh ;p

guy : Haha.. i of coz dun wan la bt o like u sia if subsitute i dun mind oso

Me : diaoz. i really wonder if u chase gers b4

guy : haha.. neva lor.. oni my ex wich lasted 3yrs

after that i didn't reply. till he sms me again. and its where the fun part comes. but im NOT the one replying this guy. lol.

guy : Wad u doin nw ?

Me : Im having some private time with my bf in the bed now. hee hee.

guy : Haha.. realli? Petting huh ?

Me : What do you think ? Nah petting are for kids. Bores me only

guy : Huh den wad ? sex ar?

Me : Maybe. Not going to tell you. Im busy. Bye

guy : Hey wait

guy : Hey u there ? Wad u doing ?

guy : (my name), u still wif bf in bed ?

really spoils my image ! omg. thanks to THEM ! lol. why just don't the guy give up ?! perviously, that guy even ask me if i kiss in the public, and ask me if i go beach wearing a bikini... he seems like a pervert to me. omg.

okay out of that guy... after my java test which is my last lesson, bring the guys to Courts for their briefing for tml. then, took bus 136 home with Felix and Daniel. cus 136 is the only bus we 3 person can take. while on the bus spreakers of Felix laptop is till the max. the whole bus seems to belong to us. lol. and i saw porn ! lol. porn star frm my sch. haha. its boring to me. hehe. maybe its to draggy. ;p

tml will b having supper with Felix and Daniel, maybe more people. still counting. ;p

reached home 5mins ago. today sales was like as usual in this month. shag. after work, went to amk with new colleauge. he had his dinner, while i just accp. him. parted ltr and when to find the guys in courts. had a great time there!

suppose to have supper with Swing, Dan and Felix but ended up having supper with Felix. he treated me prata at Jln Kayu. and he is a gentleman wor !!! thanks alot for the supper, Felix ! ;p

sales is better. sold 2 models though, but customers are more approachable ! woho ! earned 17 bucks. ;p

recently im always around with guys. other guy friends wor. omg. kinda unfair for my bf. ytd accp. my new colleauge for dinner, after that met up with coursemate guys at courts, then, had supper with felix, today accp the same guy for lunch, then dinner its with this guy and another guy from the digital counter, after that met up with felix and dan at courts, took the same bus home too. omg.

ytd my bf came to my house again ! my parents are wondering if he's my bf or not. ;p i didn't tell them. seems like they don't mind me getting into a relationship this time, esp my dad. but still to play safe, i will keep it from them. ive a feeling that they'll most prob. know abt this relationship by this year. hope my dad don't disagree. i need to prove that i can score well when im in a relationship to my dad first b4 revealing my relationship ! xD

today i forgot that marketing lecture. somemore, the lecturer of marketing tutorial didn't turn up. wth. so im wasting my 3hrs of sleep. damn it. slacking all the way in school. 2 tests today. on test was frm a software, gt 72% !

after school when HG meet up with my parents and buy ingredients and oven ! yesh ! i can bake/grill anytime at home. but yet this wk im busy. argh.

im working on thurs n fri in PC show @ expo. gonna take off on sun to buy my laptop. yeah ! yeah ! yeah !

went home after lesson, no training for me. sianz... so since ive nth to do, i get my ingredients and make my cheesecake. actually im just testing out for the 11th.

think of it, i don't know how to bring it to my bf, cus by the time i bring it to him it'll softened. somemore, we're not meeting up on 11th !!! haiz... cus he took off on 10th just for soccer and he doesn't want to take off on 11th. plans are staying over his house on 10th till nxt day and go for work tgt. meaning "celebrating" on 10th. but i want to have a whole day with him. so i think i shall cancel the plans on 10th and go to WORK !!! shd be replacing on 12th cus ive my term break and he has his e-learning weeks. so we'll spend a whole day tgt.

that's just my plan. hope he don't disappoints me...

my bf didn't make me upset. but instead he made me more happy. warms my heart too. he's just so sweet. xD he changed his off day. ahhh !!!! i love him lots ! Xp

sadness - will be down to amk courts from this wkend onwards. though i can stay with my friends @ amk courts, but i cant meet up with my bf for lunch. haiz... sianz... somemore today after school ive nowhere to go. argh.

happiness - my bf changed his offday just for 11th. argh !!! and my no-bake mini cheesecake is damn nice !!!! its like ice cream !!!!omg. delicious !!

was on the phone with my bf just now. asking me abt what wishes i made for 2006. so i came online to see that entry.

2006 wishes

- get lucky !

- let the pain(of all issues) fade away

- get gd O results and get to the poly I wanted

- may my new friends stay on forever

- find someone who I love and will love me back...(hope its him)

now, ive a better luck. my pain faded. gt into poly. new friends are still in contact. and i found my someone, but not him. he was the first person i love alot. but im glad that i let it go and put it away. when just nice, my bf step into my life. previous suitors just got the wrong timing. but my bf is the one that really pops out at the right time, when i reflected and move on in life. and love angel brought us, the 2 lonely singles, into lovey-dovey double.