got home ard 3plus 4 am. the bbq was really really fun ! happy birthday to Adrian and Jason Chua in advance ! ;p

after work i went down to pasir ris park. i was the first girl, excluded Pei Shan, who reached. kinda envy Richard and Peishan, they're so loving. >.< the rest were all guys. some guys was playing soccer, surprisingly i didn't join in. somemore they're playing in a grass field where there's SHIT ! dog shit ! lol. and KokSheng was always shouting, "got shit ! got shit !" Mao was a CRIMINAL ! lol. shd be his skills ah, the ball he kicked kept hitting on someone.

the girls havent came yet, so Qiu announced for the BBQ to begin ! lol. had a great feast ! sticking my butt on the seat and waiting for food to serve. haha. shd i say im honored or what ?! i get Kok Sheng and Jason Chua to feed me. lol.

someomore, later im like a servant slicing the chicken chop or 'lame' chop for the guys and feeding them. lol. ltr me and meng kiat shared seat, when i wanted to sit, meng kiat stand, when he want to sit, i stand. the satay was long. then when is ready, Richard took all away and shared with Peishan. lol. mk and me went to snatch and i got my share, mk gt 'bullied' by Richard. lol. Qiu can really cook ! he's not called Chef Ng for no reason !

koksheng was always the one lame-ing. lots of crap. its very fun ! haha. ltr Lian Kwang and Jun wei came, LK in argentina jersey. haha. LK still say he's gng to play in the world cup ltr. haha. but he left at 11 plus. so i said he's playing for the 2nd half. lol. ltr by the time the girls came, we all were full ! haha. time for the girls to eat.

poor junwei and mengkiat got bullied by us. lol. 'the servants' for drinks. waha. everyone was like ordering them for drinks. mengkiat was the first victim ! junwei the 2nd. haha

had the bday song sang. blew the candles and cut the melted cake. omg. the mango taste was strong, though it looks gross but its nice. time for the guys to have fun. lol. then the girls just see. water bombs were thrown, poster colour all over the guys bodies, flour too ! gross part is the maggie chilli and seasoning sauce !

after that the guys went to the water. omg. just image someone drowning or something, then they tasted chilli sause and seasoning sauce. lol. then they went to bath. and the girls sit around and chat. no one wants to go home. so chatted on all sorts of stuffs. jonny came and ate the 'leftovers'. then Richard, his gf, kok sheng and adrian went to watch soccer. then lingz suggested to play 5,10,15,20 game. the loser spin the no. of rounds they lost. lol. started of with 2 person, then added in more and more ppl. i didn't join, my eyes are blurry, im tired. seeing them play is really funny, see them walk sideways, spinning in a circular way. lol. so darn funny ! waha. its like everyone is acddicted to tt game. lol.

ltr abt 3am, we walked out for cabs. separate in grps for cabs. then Richard found a handphone in the middle of a pathway. duno what happen to tt hp ltr. im the 2nd grp to take the cab. got home wash my face and straight to bed. den time for work. go working with the celebration spirit. lol. what a fun day ! i'll always enjoy my time with 5B ppl ! ;p always lame-ing and full of fun ! xD

my alarm rang at 6.30am, but im still in my dreamland. enjoying it. till shirley sms me at 8am. when lesson starts. lol. since my attendance for that module is full, so nvm, i skipped ! =X went to sch at 10am went for an hr lesson, took my lunch with shirley and huimin. ltr headed to town for starbucks. like last wk ! lol.

went out of sch, and saw weikiat and stanley. cus 2nd lesson changed back to lecture at 10am, and they didn't know about it, so came ltr. then we asked them to tag along us. this time we settled down at wisma's starbucks and chatted. the guys went to food junction. sat till 2 plus and then we walk around wisma. then we decide to skip 3pm lecture. lol.

walked till 3plus and went back to sch, enter the lecture for air-con. just for like 10mins, then the lesson ended. lol. went for nxt lesson talking craps, laughing ard. haha. its like free lesson today. felix seated bside me, chatted for a lot of craps arh. shdn't have came school today !!! its like no need to go sch for lessons. argh

ytd im a silly girl. i gave myself a bite on my arm. cus im curious about love bites. the girl i met at work had a love bite, so i ask how to do it. im a curious girl. =X then today i ask shirley and huimin abt love bites. they say it won't hurt. mayb im did it wrongly, cus i bite. i duno la !!!

spent $140 today i guess. today is payday ! havent check how much i received. went shopping today. i simply love the top i bought from topshop. its the type of formal wear im looking for ! and also bought a bottom, its a pants but it look like a skirt from Mango. lol. branded stuffs. wahaha. tml will be also spending money on my bf's bday present. ahh... my expenses running high this month ! omg !!!

haiz... so im not heading to the beach ! sianz. why it rains today !!! argh !!!have to stay at home to complete my project, after that is time to spend money with my bf ! haha. xD

just finish watching too fast too furious, tokyo drift in my laptop ! wow ! their difting is damn nice. for car/driving lovers this show is totally your type ! its a racing down 'yang ming shan' that route of Intial D ! the racing part is even best than Intial D. there's more impact in this movie ! but in intial D there's more HUNKS ! haha. ;p

wait for too fast too furious, toyko drift. coming soon in cinemas ! a must must watch movie ! action pack movie ! ;p

im finally relax. haha. my project is submitted my math test is over. haha. actually only the project concerns me. today, went to the math test and found out its an open book test. haha. but still everyone copied. ;p math tests is always like that. waha. 3 test coming up nxt wk. its my excuse for not working. cus since im celebrating my bf's bday on sat. then sun will be tired so might as well not work. me and my excuse

had a great time with my bf. everyday past, im loving *HIM more. though every special day seems like a normal date, still im loving it ! haha. we're still spending time together, like what kelvin said. i agree to every word he said. must thank him lots ! hehe.

to the one i love, everytime i said i love you, i mean it and i said it from the bottom of my heart. every hug i gave, i expressed all my love i have to you. every kiss i gave, i gave it with all i the passion i have. what else can i say.

Jason hua, you mean alot to me.

slept at the 87th min of the finals of world cup ! why France lose ?! why Zidane got a red card !!!! argh... its a waste ! damn shag today. there's still test tml. and the day after. diaoz. have to rush !!! tml is my 3rd month with my bf, so we should be going out after lesson. i have to study ! but im so tired. omg. guess i would most prob skip tml's lecture. ;p

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly
6-hug them
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when your with
your friends
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you,
deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-hug her from behind around the waist
19-tell her she beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy them stuff. like small things can still help
26-don't lie to her
27-dont cheat on her
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even though she doesn't need you just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

all this while thought im not meeting him, so he went to meet with his gf. somemore, cus of his bday, i cancel my meeting with Kennedy. then today after lesson, went to meet Kennedy at tamp. then Jordan tagged in cus he's waiting for his gf. i envy jordan's gf, cus he's waiting for her all the time, for long hours !!! aww...

so they played pool in the pathetic arcade. after that went to Metro with Kennedy ! then i told Kennedy that andy, a suitor from 2004, is back there working ! so that guy went look for andy. but he didn't found andy. cus i don't want to see andy, i went up to CSC, the place i worked before. then Virginia when to page for andy to come up. argh ! somemore she said im still young shouldn't focus on one guy, must be open to other guys. and said that andy and i are friends, why cant we say hi to each other. -.-"

stayed there till Virginia's shift ended. somemore, as i walked out of Metro, i see andy again. omg.
im wondering why do m i so afraid of seeing him ?! we're friends !!!

i slept early ytd. one reason, im tired. another, don't ask. just hope i will feel better when i wake up. im sort of feeling better. i felt like my life now is just like those time when im still single. im free to go out with my friends instead of being with my bf, the busy one.

currently in school having break, 2hrs ! argh... sianz... alot of things in my mind, not bothering me, but im just concerning. haiz... whatever !!! why shd someone stress up urself ?! pls my friends, do take care of yourself, unlike my bf ! o.O

oh ya. ive a good news abt me ! im having a dog on sat ! yeah ! for free ! hehe. its a jack russel ! ;p

guess ive spend my whole day blogging. my feelings is high at this moment, and nxt im so sad. PMS is guess not. im sad for a reason, for a reason that ive been tolerating, suffering. all i can say is im sad. and thanks to those ppl who are there to listen to me.

im sad.

after my nap, i felt better. thanks for those people who were there for me. did some reflection, saw a reply from my bf. there's daniel, shirley, my ex, jun liang and kennedy. thanks ! hope i didn't omit anyone.

i think my ex still feel for me. actually i did gave him chance, but he didn't ask me out. too bad he missed his chance. glad to know that there's another person who cares for me. thank you !

my dog is here ! its call present ! i love my present ! so cute ! its a jack russell, a female, one year old ! soo cute !!!

me and my cuddlily present !


see how cute is she


cheese !!


yum yum ! food !

woho ! today's sales was good ! someone reserved 8 video cameras ! woho. somemore sales is better today ! ;p

just as im about to go home, Lixiang came ! i was rushing hom, cus of Present, my dog. hehe. ;p but still i accp. Lixiang. somemore still say how kind was him to look for me. lol. ltr still wanted to be a good person arh ?! offered to send me home. hey, im really not a small girl ! but in the end i REJECTED ! hahaha.

today there's only 3 customers who bought camera from me. sianz. after serving the china customer, which took me 1hr or so to explain, i get really tired and bored.

did my presentation researches. im presenting on digital cameras ! ;p tml gotta go sch early, cus im wearing formal wear, i don't want to go sch for like 2hrs and head home. ;p more people will see me in formal wear ! hehe.

buying stuff for my dog tml too ! she always want people to cuddle her. when i reached home, she jump up to me and as i sit down, she ran to my lap and wanted me to stroke her ! haha. my mum bite her in the afternoon for chewing on her heels, my dog's reaction was sitting by the computer table sliently. haha. kinda understanding dog hur ! ;p she's not as naughty as other jack russell i knew.

while working, there played jay chou's MTV. was watching jay chou -shan hu hai intently. love that song. sad song again. as i was watching it, i thought of my relationship. i told myself, i won't do things like that to hurt my bf, i cant bear to. i hate being hurt, so i'll make sure i will not hurt the one i love. my love for my bf didn't change. i love him like always.

have to dress formal for oral presentation ! im the only girl wearing short sleeves ! wow, Mr WeiMing is the only guy in the class who have the built to wear formal wear for guys ! 迷死女生了! but to huimin, she thinks he looks like a father ! lol.

got really nervous for my presentation ! omg. luckily i did it good enough ! ;p after the lesson, took some photos and headed to town ! 3 ladies with a bunch of guys, all in formal wear except shirley's bf. took neoprint too. will upload it ltr, there's a test tml, have to study !

just bought stuff for Present ! cost $90plus. she's cute in the clothes i chose ! bought a bone and a toy, a crouch of her, a dress and a neck strap. the bag for carrying the dog is so expensive, i can use my own bag, its the same just that its without holes and not transparent ! gonna bring her out someday ! ;p

went to sch declaring break time for myself. didn't attend first lecture, but was early for the second one, so since the lessons are in the same room, i went in for some air-con. the hall is half filled ! lol. sad for the lec. after the first lesson, shirley and huimin ask the few of us for lunch, but only me and weiming taged along.

by the time me and weiming, who took the same essential module, went back, its already finishing soon. then, after that lesson, im having break again ! lol. having break twice was fun ! ;p

during the thrid lesson of the day. ahmad told me that if any guy bullies me, just KICK his *Beep* or PUNCH it, sqeezing doesn't helps ! lol. so i shoot him back, so i shall try on u first ! haha. ;p

after sch, went to suntec, thought shirley will come along, but ending up with me and daniel going ! -.-" ate pastamania ! im so full ! somemore, my bf's friend was working =X he went to tell my bf ! lol.
but my bf knew why i was with daniel. like i've fooled his friend !=X

when to the beach today with Swing and my dog ! ;p in the beginning there's a lot of problems. cus my dog don't want to go inside my bag, i have to buy one for her. after buying it, SMUGGLE her to the train and to the bus to siloso. argh. somemore, she vomitted ! and i uses my toilet to clean her !! which means i don't have a towel !

and i have a lazy dog who wants people to cuddle her no matter who. she can even be cheated over to any stranger without knowing it ! brought her to the beach and she's afraid of going down to the waters. omg. somemore, she don't want to be under the sun ! damn she's really pampered ! i have to let her see some of my colours !!! ;p and anyone running pass her is someone who wanted to play with her ! lol. but when it comes to me running to the waters, she ignores ! lol. when i bought it to the waters, she turn round and started swimming back to the shores and back to the shelther ! lol. and that's my dog, PRESENT ! haha

reached the place at 1 and left at 4plus to clean up ! i just have nothing to say about CHINA girls ! they bath outside the toilet cubic NAKED ! its NOT their country okay ! they seems so uncivilised ! though what they have, is what i have, but still our mindset are different ! when to go to our country, you jolly well know your respect and manners ! its like you going other people's house.

after my bath, took the blue line bus. omg. a group of china kids we on the tour to sentosa. the bus was packed and noisy, as if its their bus. mayb in a group, as a human tend to do such things ! ;p

had dinner at seah im food center. ate chao kway tiao and drank sugar cane. this time i didn't eat oyster omlette. ;(

took train to plaza sing. to collect my dad's phone and my thumbdrive from my collegue. im exhuasted ! somemore, have to go down to sec sch to get TYS from JC. after that still have to accp. Swing to zap the TYS. im tired !

there's test tml ! still haven't study. omg.

im very tired today. slept at 3am this morning. didn't have much sales today, somemore, i dont have the mood to promote. just wanted to lock myself at home, mayb rot at home.

im tired... i'll be fine soon... give me time...

bought K800i ! im so happy! took alot of photo with my bf cus he's ard ! ;p im satisfied ! very satisfied.

guess what ?! my dog chew on my shoe ! the pair of shoes for working ! whacked her up ! now she's scared ! lol. she must learn her lesson. but still... she chew on my sony 512mb memory stick ! the card that daniel add some stuff inside ! argh... ive nth to say... i have a lazy and naughty dog ! >;(

i learnt that just by taking photos can make me happy.

stayed home the whole day. rotting at home. had some progress in my projects ! hehe. watched movie... slack all the way... just no life ! sianz...

exams coming up. today is communication skills paper. and aug 22,23,24,29 is the other papers. damn it. on 23 aug !!! 23AUG !!! damn it. sure spoil my day. every year its like that ! argh. when will it not clash on my birthday ?! anyway, i shd think that its just a birthday ! there shd be more 23 aug more to come ! somemore it's not a special day for me. none of 23 aug are, in fact they spoils my day! so it's nth special!

why kids shoud not be left alone. panty liners were pasted all around him. does he look like a warrior ?! or ninja turtle ?! lol

im going mad working/discussing on the group project ! im going nuts ! arguing ont stuff. MAD ! this few days sucks ! im so fucked up ! NBCB

relationship going down. life sucks. my days were screwed ! argh... i need time alone !

hm... kinda busy when i just got home from CP. i cant deny, everytime when im feeling down, i'll be spending the most.

after dinner, brought my dog for a walk, and requested to go CP. kinda brighten up and satisfied. bought a very simple wallet ! the same design as the Roxy Quiksliver wallet i wanted previously. its OP ! bought some daily products too ! and also CLOTHES !!! weee.... semi-formal top and shorts ! wahaa... ate ICE-CREAM too ! waha.

caught an eye on a blink blink heart necklace from 77th street, a pair of round earrings from mini bis and a laptop sleeve case from mini toons... very tempting but i have to control myself ! i guess i have to save money for the future when im feeling down ! ;p

my mum's bday today, after lesson went to tampines mall, pariss with my bf and parents. had great time and a great feast.

nth much really happen, my bf bought a present for my mum. and after that scroll in the shopping malls with my bf. then head home.

its a memorable day to me ! when messages reveal its answers. when i see the whole picture. when i understand what is happening. i will not force things. and make improvements...

that's all i will say...

everytime in a relationship, no matter how hurt the girl is, she always think of herself. and not about her bf. same like me. i learn how it is the maintain a relationship. the sacrifies i have to make. being attach is not the same as single life, and being attached cant live single life like before, there's always contributions and stuff. and being attached is an addiction. no one wants to be alone, everyone wants to be love.

maybe guys too think only about themsleves. i admit, i don't understand guys. especially those in love... met few guys whom i felt sad for, im not pitying them, just that as a great guy like them, they don't desire such things. mayb is god playing them out, but i believe it happens for a reason... they'll meet someone better ! i promise, but just don't missed it.