1sept
its my last day in comex show. sold 13 pieces of camera. hehe. still alright. totally i sold 25 pieces in 2days. daniel is the DJ ! lol. he said that the girls there are cute ! and its free eye candy ! -.-" whatever. envy that he earns a lot more money than me. ;(

i really missed dear when im working... when im busy and i cant msg him. ;( i miss him !!! and he said he walk round my booth for like twice and yet i didn't notice him. damn it ! >.< argh...

dad appeared in the show too. lol. dear even said dad was cool ! lmao.

2sept
sianz... working in parkway. damn it. heard the previous promoter got condemn... and im really worried if i could survive there. sianz... those promoters is giving me a bad impression. ;/

World-famous Australian "crocodile hunter" and television environmentalist Steve Irwin has been killed by a stingray blow to the heart while filming a new documentary.

The larger-than-life Irwin, 44, known for his fearlessly enthusiastic handling of even the deadliest of wildlife, was killed when a stingray barb punctured his chest during underwater filming on the Great Barrier Reef.

"He came over the top of a stingray and the stingray's barb went up and went into his chest and put a hole into his heart," said the ebullient Irwin's longtime producer John Stainton, who was with him at the time.

"It's likely that he possibly died instantly when the barb hit him, and I don't think that he ... felt any pain," a tearful Stainton told reporters in the city of Cairns Monday.

Police and officials at Irwin's zoo confirmed his death in the freak incident that took place at about 11:00 am (0100 GMT) off the coast of Port Douglas in the northeastern Australian state of Queensland.

Irwin was evacuated from his boat by helicopter and ambulance service officials said he had suffered a puncture wound to the left side of his chest and was immediately pronounced dead.

Stingrays have several sharp and venomous barbs on their tails that they use to defend themselves when they feel threatened, but Stainton insisted that Irwin had not provoked the creature while filming.

"I have never met a more professional person in my whole life nor a more passionate person in my whole life on wildlife issues," Stainton said of the iconic Irwin, who was making a show about deadly sea dwellers.

Australian wildlife filmmaker David Ireland said that the stingray's tail was "like a bayonet on a rifle".

"If it hits any vital organs it's as deadly as a bayonet," he said.

Police said Irwin's US-born wife Terri had been informed of his death while hiking in Tasmania. The couple had two children aged eight and three.

The garrulous animal-lover's rallying cry of "crikey" when faced with a crocodile, snake or ferocious-looking spider made him an Australian icon across the world.

His "Crocodile Hunter" show, in which the tousle-haired adventurer appeared in his trademark khaki shorts and shirt, was first broadcast in 1992 and has been shown around the world on the Discovery cable network ever since.

His outspoken persona became so popular that he won a cameo role in a Hollywood movie, "Dr Dolittle 2," starring US comic actor Eddie Murphy.

Australians mourned the loss of one of their best known countrymen, with Prime Minister John Howard leading the public outpouring of grief over the death of a man whom he knew well.

"I really do feel Australia has lost a wonderful and colourful son," Howard said. "He took risks, he enjoyed life.

"He brought immense joy to millions of people, particularly to children, and it's just such a terrible loss. He was one of those great quintessential Australian faces that people recognised everywhere," added the grim-looking prime minister after parliament was told of his death.

Ordinary Australians called into their local radio and television stations expressing their shock and sadness at Irwin's passing, while others flocked to the television star's Australia Zoo in Beerwah, on the Sunshine coast of Queensland state, to lay flowers in his memory.

"We just thought he was a good guy for what he did for Australia. He put us on the map, I reckon," said Rod Cameron at the zoo.

Another mourner was more sanguine. "He died doing what he loved, didn't he?" said tourist Glenn Batson.

The son of reptile park owners, the young Irwin became a crocodile trapper, ridding residential areas of their reptilian threats.

His fearless approach to the animal kingdom however provoked international outrage when he involved his infant son in one of his death-defying antics.

In early 2004, he fed a four-metre (13-foot) crocodile with one hand while clutching his baby son Bob in the other during a show at his Australia Zoo reptile park.

But Irwin was unrepentant when confronted about the incident in an interview. "I will continue to educate my children and the children of the world so they don't go into the water with crocs," he said.

Irwin's voice remained on the answering machine of his zoo on Monday, reminding callers with a whoop: "Remember, they rule," referring to his dangerous documentary subjects.

i cant believe it!!! he's a dare-devil and he got killed like so easily !!! but, please pity him, coz he has 2 children, and, he's only 44 years in age. i would LOVE to cok THAT stingray IF i'm able to catch it in my hands. BBQ, it's NICE!! LOL!

lmao.. its kinda obvious that the comments wasn't by ME!

ytd sent dear to tamp. int. chg. for sch early in the morning when the rain just stopped and everywhere looks misty. after that offered to buy breakfast home, which is kinda surprising for me to do so !!! >.<

after that rest awhile at home. took my medicine which i stop for like days ago. then went to meet dear after he finish school. was so tired ! guess its the effect of my medicine. ;p i SLEPT in the train troughout the whole journey to dear's house !!! and then SLEPT again at dear's house. lol. or maybe im really tired waking up so early.

slack awhile, cook the only source of food, maggie mee, for dear, then went to bukit batok driving center for dear's first theory lesson, when im a comfort driving center student. ;p i didn't eat before going there. and i waited in the strong air-condition place with a hungry stomach for 1h40mins.

went to dear's aunt's house for dinner ! its 'mouse's tail' (mee tai mak). and its a 'ke jia' dish ! love the chili she made ! to me its not spicy, and its DELICIOUS ! haha. ;p dear also bought a pair of slip-ons ! also got to see dear in spec. ;p haha. very innocent looking ! i cant believe its my DEAR! lmao.

then guess what ?! we went to take bus 156. which is from clementi to sengkang ! long long journey !!! before the bus come, dear went to buy drinks and snacks. hurt his knee ! seems very painful to me. what's wrong with the bus driver or even the passengers to wait for just one minute ?! big prob. to wait for just ONE MINUTE is it !!! kinda pissed to talk abt that. rmb that i can complain you, but you cant complain me. YOU ASSHOLE ! lol. make me rmb abt the joke russell peter said. lmao.

its freak frezzing cold in the bus ! and it cant even be controlled. damn it. im sitting under the air con with it blowing at me DIRECTLY. and if i change direction, it will blow towards dear and i don't want dear to have a flu again. so i'd suffer myself.

while dear is sleeping in the bus, i was reflecting.. reflecting on the days with dear. once i told myself that i'll be a loyal gf, and of cus i did. now, i want myself to be a devoted gf/wife-wannabe, to care and love dear. taking care abt his health, his finanice, his well-being and his everything, wanting the best for him.
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this morning, like ytd, woke up got prepared and sent dear to sch at tamp. int. chg.

woke up this morning, looking at dear, admiring his looks. >.< how glad that ive got him as my bf. dreamt of some suitor in the lift wanting to make friends with me knowing that my bf is beside me. and even ask dear if he allowed him to get my no. lmao. then dear scolded him in front of me and other ppl in the lift. then that suitor walked out of the lift sliently. haha. have kind of a satisfaction.. haha. as i hate suitors ! =X

ltr went home and waited for parents to got prepared and headed to town !! got my handphone service plan changed ! hehe. then just nice we're at Paragon. so went up to crumple. finally decided which bag i shd get. and just nice, mum is LOOKING for crumpler bag ! wow ! an aunty carrying a crumpler bag, it'll be my first time seeing an aunty with it ! hehe. ;p and guess what ?! she even offered to buy one for me ! hehe. suppose dad is getting one also ! hehe. but din buy in the end, cus Kevin can get a better price ! =X

after that went to tangs. me and mum went shopping for shoes. and there's one shoe mum said its nice on me. but no matter how i look, it dont suit me. so in the end i didn't buy any shoe. but instead i caught my eye on a expensive belt. its a bronze belt with a crown buckle on it. damn nice !!! it cost $79 !!! argh !!! didn't buy it too. damn it. then after we walked away, dad gave a hopeful 'phew'..

back to the home appliance side of tangs. damn it. my dad its just so willing to spend his money on a worthless piece of shit when there's one which is strongly reccomended by me ! cus when im working in courts, im in home appliances dept. so i knew best abt such things. ;p got kinda hot tempered by dad's ignorance ! and when shopping dad is always the one walking away from us (our finanical personel. =X)

then ltr meeting dear at city hall mrt. so dad say that its long since he went to raffles city shopping center. so went there tgt. but after we shop addidas, dear called. he's reaching. went down to meet the train dear was in. just nice !! hehe.

then went to dear's house. brought dear's le coq bag. big bag ! heavy things. a bag of coins for dear's dad. my right shoulder is damn tired now. argh..

after dinner and stuff. went back home. when the whole journey im so HIGH ! after dear made me lmao when alighting the bus at the terminal. haha. his reaction was so funny ! argh.. then ltr he just cant bear with my craps. haha. i laugh all the way home. hehe.

this morning woke up, dear was running late, but im damn sleepy. i cant even open my eyes wide. i have no idea why. then dear went to get prepare and left alone. somehow felt that he's kinda disappointed. still felt bad though. ;/ wonder where will we be going ltr after dear finish sch. hm..

hm... so just now, went to dear's hse for steamboat. yum yum ! i ate 3 rounds of rice !!! lmao. im full now. took a lot of pictures there with an sony SLR camera ! woho ! then ltr i ate the most delicious cake i ever eaten ! >.< its a yam cake from HANS !

was watching slient hill before heading home with dear, sis, bro-in-law, and bro-in-law's two bro. shd be a suspense story, but the jokes they came up made the whole show funny. somemore the looks on the dead were so freaking funny with those 'dance move' they have.

ltr bro-in-law sent us home. and here am i blogging. hehe. oh ya, reached home drinking mum's tonic, which the main purpose is for dear, and to me the soup is sort of my fave. then dear got to have the bigger bowl. but anyway, im full ! which is just to make myself feel better. ;p

have to work tml. new area somemore. damn it. hope someone save me over back to plaza singapura !

wanted dear to spend the night over for tonight and tml night. reason being both of us are working, so we won't have time to go out. as for tml night.. hm... wanted him to be there till the day past. ;p

ytd was our first month. after dear sent me to work, i rmb that im suppose to get sth for him. was searching for famous amos or some other cookie shop to get some cookies for him. but it ended up, me getting another type of cookie. ;/ nvm.

kinda pissed with TWO guys VS me, snatching my sales away. bt in the first place im wrong too.

ltr after work. rush down to get my cookies then headed to city hall to wait for dear. reached at 10pm. then i waited for 1 1/2 hr. the feeling wasn't great. felt like crying just to wait for him. i don't know why i felt that why, just that i wanted to see my dear a lot. i was feeling down. i don't know why after the pain i once felt, the me now is so fragile.

while waiting for dear, went to the restroom at raffles city shopping center. saw a nice pair of pumps at ALDO ! but the shops there are mostly closed. wanted to enter addidas too. but im just too late. ;/

when dear came. how much i wanted to throw my temper or sth, yet i just can't.. guess im not like other girls who get pissed off so easily. i just threw the bag of cookies at him and walk sliently to the platform with dear. though dear apologised cus he kinda screamed at me cus he can't leave his workplace and meet up with me. i don't mind, and its not his fault. its okay for me to wait, but just that the feeling of waiting is torturing for me. ;/

ltr on the way home, felt better.. i know its a stupid reason i gave that im tired. yes im tired, and im also down. down cus of waiting. argh.

not gonna work ltr. i somehow don't like to work there, though the staffs are kind, but its FAR. so fake a reason again. kinda bad though. ;p as long as they send me back to PS, i'll most prob. turn up every single week !! xD

kinda have some plans ltr. hehe. i want to spend some money !! >.<

ytd didn't turn up for work. dear too. worst part, dear didn't even inform. ;/ reason for not going to work is cus dear dont want me to and its damn far ! ;p

so ytd, both of us went to Expo for some furniture fair. haha. as we walked in, there's a woman from a wedding company approached us. i was kinda blushing trying to get out of the embarrassing situation >.< then my parents came to help us out. haha. ;p oh ya. gonna get the room doors changed ! hehe.

then somemore, while filling up some particulars on the invoice, we saw the huge pen. then the staff told us where to get it. lmao. its from a built-in cupboard company. they really have nice designs of the cupboard. hehe. we took the pens like no one's biz. lmao.

then ltr went to around walking at Expo. dad bought cup corn. though i was full and i did rejected, bt dad still bought a cup for me. hehe. >.<

ltr took train. me and dear went to city hall while parents when to bugis. hehe. im getting my pumps at ALDO ! hehe. it looks cute on my foot ! >.< but that outlet don't have my size. ;/ only at suntec. dear also saw a pair of shades ! looks cool on him. and he's tempted to get it. went up the shopping center. enter a shop named party city. they sell sweet not sold in those 7-11 or cheers. the fun thing is there's a chocolate flavoured and PEZ (rmb the sweets that currently sold toys-r-us) LIP GLOSS !!! omg omg omg. kinda tempted to get it. dear even wanted to buy it for me, but it adds up to $10+ and i already have lip gloss. so didnt got it. both of us left the place empty handed.

while walking to suntec, saw Kenny running. haha. he's late ! and Shirley is working !! WORKING !!! it totally shocked me ! haha.

manage to find the right size for my foot. bought my pumps. bt dear didn't saw the pair of shades. after that wanted to get the movie tix for little man so went to marina square. cus of the IMF in suntec, we rather walk to millenia walk. dear brought me to candy empire. aw... its full of candies and chocolates from diff. countries. im so thrilled by that place. there's so many sweets i love ! bought a chewy sweet, candy spray and JELLY BEANS ! ah... love it !

reached marina, bought our tix. then we've 2hrs plus to linger around. bought Venezia ICE CREAM ! hehe. then ltr dear get his shihlin chicken. hehe... we ate a lot of fave things ytd. hehe. im so happy !! ltr before entering the cinema, bought pop corn ! hehe. its like quite some time, like weeks since we watched a movie.. hehe. >.<

the movie was great. but somehow i wonder why i was sleepy during one part of the show. maybe im to comfortable lying on dear's shoulder. ;p

after the movie, went to take bus home. hehe. then its BED time. yawns. and till this morning. dear didn't attend school today. hor hor. naugthy tortoise boy !! >.<
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stayed at home all day long with dear.. mum cooked dinner today ! im very full ! and the samba prawn seems so delicious wor.

ltr after the dinner, me and dear went compass point ! then bought things !!! >.< got my present from kennedy, finally. hehe. love it ! then just changed the pendent with dear's. its a great match, white and gold ! >.< while walking to the ATM to update my bank book, saw this keychain ! its so nice ! coffeebear. and its in a pair ! omg. and dear bought it for me >.< dear also bought jay's album and a handphone pouch. ltr guess what ?! we went to cold storage and bought food AGAIN ! haha. snackers as usual.

now both of us have a lot of couple stuffs. hehe. we have the necklace, PSP, coffeebear keychain torch, mickey keychain (the one from hongkong), the tortor (from action city, i secretly bought it for him and excused myself to the toilet and hang it for him), the tortise from IKEA. we're a lame, 'childish', mad COUPLE ! lmao. hehe. >.<
one couple of a kind i guess ! hehe. ;p finally meant to be !

early the morning woke up and went to send dear to sch. suppose to go down to CDC, but i forget to bring the receipt. so waited for dear in his sch till his lesson ended. hm... kinda bored even playing my PSP cus im alone in the cafe.. then dear came down and have break. join him for awhile and he went back to class. guess what ?! Kevin called me aunty ! grr. >.< also saw dear's clique of friends.

ltr met up with adrian, finally settle the money on the presents. lmao. have been dragging it for like 3mths plus nearing 4mths. =X

saw jieying eh ! the coolest person in 5B ! haha. then saw Niven, saw yaoxing. but yaoxing cant recognise me ler. ;( oh ya, tt jonathan from courts walked pass me. seems like he's kind of a loner. everyone in sch seems to have their clique of friends except him. poor thing eh. but not to pity him or sth, just that the feeling of lonliness ain't good.

ltr took mrt down to bugis. dear suppose to see his ear studs. but ended up having another aiming of getting ANOTHER handphone pouch. though ltr ended up not getting any of those in bugis. instead dear bought a pouch ! the same one as kevin and his clique of friends, just that its brown. hehe. >.<

then went to town. FAR EAST !! hehe. its a my shopping spree.. but its for dear. in total of today, bought a ipod nano red devil silicon case at bugis, a pair of bermudas (act first by paying it), gold bling bling bracelets (so both of ur necklace have 2 bracelet attached to it), another bracelet for dear's sis, and few pairs of ear studs, a pair of punkstar t-shirt. hehe. >.<

seems like i have been spending more on dear than myself. ;p dear happy i will also be happy. (and its my turn to say it ;p) >.<

ltr went to BBDC for dear's trial test. its me waiting AGAIN. haiz.. ;/ then went to dear's aunt's hse for dinner.

mum gotta be really happy today, cus i bought mum's fave fruits and received money from dad. lmao.

haiz.. tml have to wait for dear till 6pm. which means i shd be in CDC for like 5 plus hrs after sending dear to sch. omg !! wait wait wait.. ;/
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ytd night after bathing, was watching my recorded yu le bai fen bu.. its S.H.E stuffs. i was lying on dear's chest when S.H.E start singing tian hui, the song that brought me back to those days of pain falling in love with dear. i dont listen to S.H.E bu xiang zhang da album, cus that album walk me through the past and all the memories are some sort hidden in the songs. as for that song, it reminds me about the pain dear felt that time and the pain ive been through in the wait.

i fast forward that part of singing. then dear asked why, he most probably knew the reason though i didn't said anything cus i was controlling my tears. but still tears flewn out.. tears almost burst out.. before dear telling me to cry it all out once and for all. i really felt better.. the wound is finally heeling. like a cry baby, my tears bursted out. and i wailed all my sad hidden feelings. did felt a lot better. but i also let dear cried last night.. ;(

the happiness of dozing off in dear's arms is indescribable.. somehow the 8mths of waiting is worth ?! at least its fair, i finally got someone who love me and i love ! ;D

felt unwell.. its the period again. damn it.

send dear to sch this morning, at tamp. int. chg. saw brandon.. then its niven again ! and he said im a pig, rino.. he insulted me and teased me ! >;( HUR ! he's a bad guy ! shooting me with his craps. >.<

ltr went to CDC and that's went i dont feel good. damn it. had my lunch. then just took an hr's of e-trial test. highest is 86.0% ;/ only did 2 papers.. one is 82%. to ease myself, at least i did some improvements. ;p i just hated it when it comes. took the bus home like a sick patient, feeling tired and uneasy. damn it !

ytd stayed at home after cdc. took some rest with present slping by my side. till dear came rushing home. silly him, who just wanted to see me. im touched !

then ltr in the night when i noticed present is gone missing, me and dear ran out to look for her and its to no avali. damn it. where have she ran to ?! suspected that someone took her ! ;( pls return it !

this morning, im so tired. after mid night, dad woke me up cus he heard baking. but its not from present. haiz.. so this morning i didn't send dear to sch. ;/ now im alone at home. feeling empty, where's my present ?? have my notice of lost dog printed.. hm.. pasting it up ltr. going to bugis ltr with dear and kevin. cus kevin is getting the hot pink ear stud i got for dear. thinking of kevin make me wanna drink white chocolate dream. arhh...

ytd took dear's newly pierced ear stud out. cus of my itchy fingers. =X also changed his ear studs to those that i bought for him. hehe. hm.. wonder how shd i dress ltr ?! >.<

some pictures to share. again its abt me and dear ! ;p

our torto

our WHITE psp

our necklace (mine is frm kennedy. thanks !) now its modified ! ;p

our coffeebear keychain torch ! ;p


my shopping spree with dear ! >.< only for the giodano t-shirts and the pouch. look at the Ipod nano case. that red devil thing. isn't that cute ?!



more to come. getting a couple of pics from dear. >.<

ytd im at bugis AGAIN ! haha. Kevin bought the black and hot pink ear studs same as the ones i bought for dear. lmao. somemore he place it the same position as dear's. but luckily, i changed dear's ear studs. bought more ytd too ! hehe. >.<

then jun wee bought the SAME colour pouch Kevin takes. lmao. which means almost everyone in their clique is having that pouch, except dear with the brown one. hehe. like as if dear is the big head of his clique, cus he's the only one of them having WHITE psp and having a BROWN pouch. hehe. ;p

im satisfied. bought the cheese corochan and the egg and cheese pancake! yum yum ! >.< while walking pass topshop, i saw the hat dear thought of buying for me, cus he said it looks nice on me. but i only saw it on the model, and not like on sale. when i told dear that i saw, he was browsing here and there for that hat. haha. ;p i won't let him have the chance to get it for me, cus i seldom wear a hat out. but he said he've been learning from his bro-in-law (in getting things for his sis behind her back, and he's really pro at that !). omg, i wonder how he is gonna surprised me in getting that hat. hope he doesn't. ;p

ltr was lingering at bugis for like hrs. damn it, its so boring there can ?! walking there for the 2nd time of the week. cus we're suppose to a straight bus home. and after walking bugis, its like still 8pm. so early, yet nowhere else to walk. sianz. so head home. then we planned lots of things to do at home. toasting bread and cheese, making cambell soup and stuff. but by the time we reached SK, im straving. headed to eat sausage at CP. hehe. im full ! lmao. but still we bought things home to eat.

reached home mum boiled 'xue ge'.. then we ate = no space for more food. lmao. then watched recorded bai fen bai and went to sleep. kinda early compared to previous weeks. mum kinda bias !! >.< boiled tonic and 'xue ge' when dear's around. the when i told dear that, he said cus mum know that her daughter is so happily in love so she treat him so good. -.-"

there's still no news about present. ;( everyone missed her. even dreamt about her getting her way home, but its a DREAM. ;/

dear was late for school again ! haha. and he finished school early today. didn't send dear to sch. meeting him like an hour or so later. bring his clothes for him.. later wonder where shd we go before his e-trial test at BBDC. guess what dad offered dear ?! next week onwards dear is coming to CDC with me for the e-trial test ! hehe. yeah ! then i no need to wait here and there for dear at BBDC ! hehe. >.<
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time for me to blog ! as for ytd.. woke up in the morning still feeling tired, like i always did, to get ready for work. damn it. dear and i took bus like all over the place. lmao. cus we kept taking the bus from the opp. side. and after asking the bus driver then we walked opp. to take our bus to that damn parkway. argh. anyway, made up my mind for quiting this job. cus of the cut-ed commission and the sales target thing. damn it !

as for my new lobang.. suppose to call sometime soon. still deciding hard for a alternative after quiting this job. ;p hm.. i can stop working and depending on dad for my expenses, but still i will feel bad. since ive decided on depending on myself for my own expenses excepts on my bills, so i must get a job ! searching for like jobs w/o commission = less stress, jobs at least $6 and stuffs. though i won't really mind getting to jobs with commission, but out in the market there's just so many competitive brands !

argh !! whatever.. back to my ytd. so reached workplace 1 1/2hr ltr and was late for 1/2 hr. hehe. get to work received 4 sale. hm.. but still its closed in last mth, but still im trying out if i can get the commission. ;p didn't sold any ytd. haiz..

oh ya. dear went to meet his aunt after sending me to work. and they went praying. guess what let me blush ?! his aunt went to ask for god's blessing about me .. and the output was great ! (shang shang qian) lmao. saying im some 'fairy' (a good person or something like that. haha) to them and stuff. cus im sms-ing dear the whole day while working. then ltr we came to the topic on the past story on me and dear. it took 8mths for dear to realise that im there for him.. -.-"

i think i haven't mention it in my blog. so our story goes here. 9mths ago, i was going back to metro tamp. to work, cus previously i promised to go back to work the staff there work as a family. so get to know friends there and stuff. that day when i noticed dear is when going to dinner with my friends and dear tagged along, that was when i actually saw him. he is a hasbro(toys) promoter. and i some sort have a crush on him. days when by, crush changed to like..
cus the people in my dept. (customer service) knew and the guy there, NIVEN, happened to be his close friend. and damn it.. weeks ltr he found out about me falling for him. i was so shag when i knew about that. soon gossips spreads all over metro tamp., it was recently then i found out about the news spreading WIDELY. that time i rmb asking rek about my feelings for dear. and then i knew like changed to LOVE. the first guy i ever fell so deeply for.
cus xmas was nearing and metro have the 'traditions' of exchanging gifts. so for the first time of selecting a gift personally specially for a guy, i went down to town and start spending money. bought a hp keychain and a fleshimp t-shirt for dear.
on his last day, my heart beat double of my normal speed, or maybe triple. haha. when he's about to end work, he walked past my counter. damn it. dont have the guts to give him the present and NIVEN dont want to help me.. and also its always better to present my gift personally. so when dear said bye to niven, i gave niven a kick. haha. heard it hurts. haha. then niven shout that ive a gift for dear. i blush like hell. even the customer i was serving was laughing at me. omg.
then that day, dear added me in friendster and then i added him in MSN. hehe. which was when we started chatting. xmas eve, after work, went to xmas countdown with dear, junliang(who knew) and swing. didn't talk much with dear, was really shy that day. >.< had fun. dear left his ipod nano with me and left to look for a friend. ltr i knew that he went to find his ex, which is another part of the story that kinda breaks my heart that time. and cus dear's nano is with me and i have to fly to HK couple of days ltr. and i met him on 1 jan to return his nano back.
on the 31 dec. when i came home from HK. i found that dear was attached. with his ex whom he met on xmas countdown. i was sad and still waited for dear even though friends told me to give up. waited and waited. on feb they broke up.
valentine's day both of us, single, was chatting online with each other. happily. and rmb something dear told me which really makes me fly. and ltr kicked me back to square one. that time i thought im going to be with dear soon. but ltr, feb 16, dear went to ask another ex to be together. that night i cried like hell. still not giving up. and told dear about my feelings for him and how bad i felt. then he told me to forget about him. no denial that he's also the only guy other than my dad i listens to most.
so months passes tried my very best to forget him. but no matter how things around me flash the memories of dear to me. a month ltr i got attached thinking of giving me a chance to let someone into my heart. though it wasn't smooth, and to me it ended of bad. still in my heart dear stays. knowing that he's the only one who could win my heart over. and to me at that time it was impossible. even when im attached im chatting with dear quite often. happily. 'consulting' my problems to dear. dear is the only person who knew all my secrets, cus basically my secrets were all around bits by bits with all my close friends. ;p how my and my ex got apart is becuase that he's not ready for a long-term r/s.. cant blame, its not my luck that time. so he call it a 'pause'.. but who knows what will happen ?! and somemore im chatting with dear everyday with dear. ;p
then in the conversation in MSN with dear, our topic was on the now showing movies. then we were saying about long hu men when dear say he'll most prob watching alone w/o anyone disturbing him. with me wanting to watch shawn yue in that show, i told dear to let me disturb him, to hint him to watch together since both of us wanted to watch and dont have a partner to watched with. hehe. which happens on 8 aug.
8 augs, met up at the Cathay. and dear came first booked the tix (and its couple seats unknowingly.) then ltr was thinking what to do. and decided to watch another movie. movie after movie after movie. which made us watched 3 movies. long hu men, lady in the water and ant bully. ltr went to merlion chatted for few hrs about anything. then dear asked me about what have i regret not doing or doing. then to me was abt my grandma (out of story) and thinking if i regret loving dear (my ans WAS no. and still IS). then i didnt wanted to ask about his, cus its sad story, and i dont want to ruin his mood. then ltr part we went to hunt for water. haha. ended up at perninsular 7-11 to get a drink and settled down at Funan IT mall watching tokyo drift in his PSP. were playing around tickling each other and then he put his arm on my shoulder. tt time i was thinking maybe that's the way the treat his friends. then he put his hand over my shoulder, and to me i still thinks that its his way of treating his friends and told myself not to think so much. ;p then after the show ended.. we kissed. >.< its around 5+am when lights starting to turn on. so its so surprisingly that we got together. like those tough days ive waited and i still cant be with him and its like a moment that we got together. its the biggest miracle i met personally. ;p the feeling for dear didn't fade off while waiting.. and both of us wonder why ive chosen dear.. this is what i call FATE ! hehe. >.<

okay back to the main subject.. after my work, dear waited for me and went home together. he insist on buying a hat for me. either the one in topshop or the billabong one. then those things i said i like, he wanted to get them for me. and those are like flowers and unsensible stuff though it will only make me happy and its a WASTE of money. hehe. and i'll try to help dear save money !! he's spending too much everytime he gets his allowance..

was browsing through friends' blog. somehow felt bad cus seems like my life is always with dear now and like ive no time for friends. and like im forgotten by the friends. ;( maybe im not those people who are that 'on' for them. ;/ just have to adapt to such life missing their fun.. ;/

was lying with dear chatting about things that happened when we just got together. it just so strange that chemistry came to us. the feeling when he first kissed me.. if he didn't kissed me that day when will we be tgt.. and stuff like that.. then ltr dear when to view my entry which ive updated and friendster updated photo. then i felt like tearing. maybe its those things dear told me earlier on that touched my heart. once again. everytime im moody, as long as dear is around, even before we're together, somehow i will be cheered. he will knock some sense to me..

those days of 'friends are forever' are over.. what he once said to me. and those days that he called me 'sister' is over.. and he knew that i hated him to call me sister, though indirectly telling me to just be friends. those days really gave me a stab in my heart. and cus of such things happening, to me it seems so impossible to be his gf. though time may tell when i could get over him that time, bt time always tears my heart apart seeing him being hurt again and again, hoping to give him a better life.. waiting sliently at a corner for him to notice me though it seems impossible for me to have a chance.

finally time has come. FATE finally bring us together after us suffering from past r/s. how thankful are we to finally found each other who can't live without. rmb once that i envy dear such a guy who would love a girl so much and hope to get someone like him. rmb walking on the streets looking out for someone who have the same hairstyle as him. rmb those days working in metro, peeping him coming to work at the the secruity check pt. rmb his left face and his back view everytime he walked pass my counter to toys dept. this was written in our story and now our story contiune.. w/o me envy a guy like him, walking on streets searching for some with his hairstyle and his left face and back view. i no longer need to.

only him couldn bring happiness nearer to me day by day.. >.<

i cant believe when i reflect through my sec sch life. for my entire sec sch life, its totally screwed up. im always the victim of 'bullies' every single year w/o fail, and what did i do ?! TOLERATE. felt kinda STUPID that i'd chose to do so. i rather be a attitude-prob. girl in school and to tolerate everything. i rather my parents know what's happening than to tolerate. why did i say this is cus i had ENOUGH ! im no longer the sec sch girl who always tolerate. maybe its the influence of dear, i dont care ! if im not happy, i will most prob. scream or even screw up someone else's LIFE ! damn it ! are they a saddist to 'bully/insult' people ?! why is it me who face such things ?! so that i'll learn to stand for myself ?! so is it LUCKY to met people like that ?!

20 sept
on 19th, after finsihing my entry in my blog, was lying in dear's arms. thinking how happy i am now. told dear how upset i felt when someone broke his heart (when he came to me), how i hope i was the girl in his friendster photo with him, how this how that. and i just cant stop crying. ltr like in Intial D, i asked dear if my tears will come every once in a month ?! haha.

on 20th, same in the night i cried again.. ;p dear asked me what if he happens to 'die' -CHOY CHOY- before me... before he could finish saying it. tears came flowing out.. again he said that to me ;/ and he told me if that really happens dont be a silly again (for him).. i dont know what to do. and i dont think i could get over it. cus since i cant let go of him from the very start, how can i let go of him then ?! anyway, this dont really make some sense now. so how many nights will i cry ?! haha. like just periods ?! lmao. its just coincedence. whatever. ;p

21 sept
dear didn't went to school or his CIP/team building thing. so both of us stayed at home and slack for the whole day long !! woke up at ard 11am when mum told me that the man fixing the room doors is here. so dragged myself up. that man is from CHINA ! and he seems to be not happy when my mum told him to fixed some straches and stuff ! Singapore market goes more towards SERVICE ! if you're not willing to do so then get your dirty ass back to YOUR COUNTRY, asshole ! fucking leechers ! most China people really left a very very bad impression in me, or can i say most Singapoearns. if you come to Singapore for a living then you jolly well leave a good impression on yourselves and your people.

after that MAN left. was watching Stealth in the living room. nice show ! seems like shows i've watched recently is nice except you,me and dupree. to me its boring. ;/

played Halo too. wonder when will Eugene get to me for his Halo 2. =X kinda long since i borrowed it from him. played till i got a headache ! omg. then its NAP TIME ! haha. no denial that im a PIG, felt sleepy even when i just got up. ;p slept 2hrs till 7pm and then went to CP for dinner with mum and dear. when i got home, dad
told me to polish the doors. and dear helped me with it. cus of my height i have to stretch to polish the top part of the door, and dear LAUGHED at me ! >.< slept kinda early i guess. was eating ice cream while watching Russell Peter on my laptop. finally got the russell peter video from dear. its damn funny. later both of us went to sleep after that show. lmao.

dear ended lesson early. and i wasn't prepared to go out when he phoned. so went to bath straight away. also gave present a bathe, she stinks ! ;p took ard 50mins ltr to meet up with dear. kinda fast eh ?!

dear got his right ear pierced. the 4th one. along with his friends together. headed his home ltr. for him to get his pool stick for tml. tml will be a fun fun day ! >.< dear not gng school tml. so we're heading to CDC for our FREE e-trial test with dad around. then after that will be meeting up with dear cilque of friends before playing pool !

got his stuff and then went to his aunt's hse for dinner. felt kinda bad cus dear have been staying with me for quite some time. and his parents misses him. i will also feel that way if im his parents. must always put urself in other people's shoes !

its dear last day of sch tml. holidays ltr.. which means he'll be working most of the time for nxt wk. as for me. ive decided to quit. will find a solution after i quit my job, have to settle down all my feelings before starting another job. felt kinda stressed up in working stuff. damn it.

sat, heading to tamp. fire station open house. dad says there'll be some act about how SCDF react for terrorist and stuff dear wanted to watch so lets go. then will most prob. head down to bugis for dear's shoe from dad's trainee's store. lol. dear's getting a new shoe AGAIN ! haha.

went cdc with dear for e-trial test, but didn't have the chance to take the test cus some big shot coming down and we didn't book for the date. so went off to bedok mrt station to wait for jun qiang. he took like 20 mins to come. like the bus is townarea bus got caught in some heavy traffic which is not possible to happen. and there's 2 couples waiting for him, Zhiyang and gf with dear and me.


then headed to Aljunied to meet another 2 guy and city hall for BC. then finally to clementi to meet junwee and kevin. after they had their lunch finally to play pool ! hehe. was fun seeing PROs playing, its like they own the whole game ! haha.

played for hrs then left and decided to drink at bugis. and i got half DRUNK. by mixing barcadi, long island, armsterm(nice drink !), and jacobs creek white wine. why i drunk myself partly cus im bored another reason is the drinks are nice. good that dear enjoyed himself and its alright to 'nelgect' me cus at least im beside him rite?!

okay then headed home with a dizzy head. then dear ltr found out its only after i met him i start drinking alcohol. and im drinking too much for my first time. ;p

went home i jumped onto my bed and there i go dozing off. then dear will wake me up with his sweet kisses. >.< just love it when he does that.

not working, gave a REASON that manage to give me another week of freedom, out of the stressful life since last sun. haha. informing to quit soon.

woke up late ytd when mum bought breakfast back home. after our breakfast, slack awhile and went to bath and off we go to dear's dad's coffee stall. i had sweet and sour fish w rice. love the bla-chan chilli, its so spicy ! >.< then went to dear's house. i have no idea why im so restless ytd and my mind was blank, i cant think. ive decided to buy a puzzle! it'll be $55. waiting to get some money ! hehe. ;p the puzzle will be very nice after its done ! >.<

took a cab home, im lazy to changed buses and trains. took to rivervale mall cheers to buy food home. haha. another $10+ food bought from cheers. ;p got home cooked maggie mee then its xbox time ! haha. i laughed all the way for 2hrs of game. lmao. dear just made me laugh non stop while playing the game. lol.

wed will be down at aranda chalet for my course chalet. will be fun though there's only 3 girls going to overnight there ! i'll most prob. be drunk there. lmao. bbq to me wont be fun. as long as my clique of ppl are ard (but still Huimin wont go.. haiz.) dear and Kevin will tag along, so it'll be double the fun for me ! haha

friday will be taking my BTT. hehe. then driving soon ! wee ~