its halloween ytd, dear and me went with daniel, shirley and kenny to party world. had a great fun. starting i chosed those songs that dear like and was happily singing along. then until i sang xiang xin wei lai.. my mood just went down totally. at the same time i saw s.h.e - tian hui in the TV. its a double hit. haiz..

mood was down after that. dear even noticed.. opps.. i just cant kick off my thinking about the past. seriously i hated dear's past. i hated to remember how hurt dear was. those days when we're chatting online, me trying to cheer dear up when he's feeling low. haiz..

cash is running low for me.. i want to work ! but im damn lazy to find. damn it. if i work, weekends will be boring for dear. then i wont have time to spend with dear on weekends.. ;(

on the streets of town, groups of people wearing there're costumes were walking around. its the first time i felt halloween in singapore. hehe.

went home feeling so moodless just wanted to sleep and just do nothing. but somehow i felt restless. i didn't have such feelings before. haiz...

before dad left to thailand, he gave me a sms to take care of mummy. then ltr he said he love me and mummy which touched deep down into my heart. felt like crying. its his first time telling me this. tears almost rowed down while im in the bus at jurong going to dear's place.

its a FUN day today. went home early this morning while dear when to his CIP work. suppose to take a nap at home then go with mummy for breakfast. but what i heard from mummy is that when she wake me up, all i did was shake my head. opps !! i didn't knew i did that. ;p ending up i ate mummy's lunch or something. ;p

after that went to metro tamp. to wait for dear to head to his place. dear's dad deciding to get a new hp which in the end didn't get one. was shopping in Great World just now. went WH and dear's mum bought a skirt for me. dear too got me a hand bag !! >.< ate indonesian food ! and i have a stomach-ache. ;p was really happy today ! its the family fun i really missed. haiz... dear got his ear ring and stud. sis gt skirts and scraf.. hehe. oh ya, saw this 'dress' in ZARA ! it really attrachs me !! love it, but its to expensive. dont think it would be worth. im not rich, so those clothes in the shop most prob dont suit me. haiz.. ;/

ytd went to dear's mum's friend's house, aunty jo. hehe. won $100+ in gambling. hehe. ;p small gamble. haha.

i maybe too demanding to dear. i know its my fault again after reflecting. and im too petty. cus dear promised me to let me play a game of mahjong but ended up forgetting about that. and also i felt so bored seeing hours of watching them playing mahjong. only after the 2nd round then he let me play, but by then, im already not happy. haiz.. then after everything, we went back, all the while i did not care about dear, neither do i smile to him. after we reached his place, we packed our stuff and left to my place. though dear try to apologised to me in the beginning, i was to angry. its only when he spat out all his guilt to me then i understand. im wrong to be so petty. i know that i shouldn't throw temper at you and dont ever blame yourself for being useless when i dont think so. and for god's sake no one is useless as long as you give yourself hope ! i love you for who you're and i dont care if you dont have money for me to spend, we can stay home and rot !! as long as we're together ! may life be tough now and life be better ltr.

okay.. enough of such 'sorrows'.. in the earlier part, dear told me that he may not be going to my place today cus he want to get a haircut., which means i have to sleep alone. ;( so i decide to find things for myself to do. i'll be going to trim my hair too, still thinking if i should change my hairstyle or just get it trim. ;/ and i will be alone. ;( then ltr, dear offered to accompany me after he got his haircut. glad that i wont be alone, but seems so inconvenient for dear eh.. ;/

ytd went to town for movies, (shirley beside me complaining that she's sad cus i didn't meet up with her ytd at town) watched the convenant ! its a great show ! i love fantasy shows. ;p hehe. and we watch it in cathay ! and its in the grand cathay movie room. its so big and grand can ?! sound system is also better. haha

after that went to CP for dinner with parents at jacks place. had steak ! its still alright to me, jack's place still alright. then cus i wanted to get my hair cut, so we went to HG. cus mum reccomended a salon. the standard is better than other salon i went bah. will get back there also finding the same stylist. ;p love my hairstyle ! ;p

kinda missing my sun tanning. hope i could go sun tanning on this fri. will be out with swing while dear went to play pool with his friends. then ltr meet at his house in the evening. hehe.

its a long day for me. class ended at 8.30pm and dear went for his haircut who WAS not going to meet up with me and going back home. and actually i supposed to eat alone, find things to occupy myself and sleep alone. ;(

after lesson ended, me too wanted for a haircut, but by the time it salon closes. and dear offered me meet me and sleep over at my place. hehe. since i didn't get my haircut, and spare foods are running out, went shopping in NTUC. bought alot of things. so darn heavy. i struggle my way back to meet dear at home. hehe

today took a lot of pictures. its my life in sch ! hehe
being beggars while waiting for our notes to be printed.



seens before us, the beggars, joking around ?! lol



our books are here ! weiming seems to check our record.



checking of IDs ?! lol. we're just paying up our notes. ;p



mr inspector nagging us.. yawns. lmao



what ?! inspector collecting money ?! lol



is ahmad zipping up his pants ?! lol.



some gay holding hands ?! omg. who's the couple eh ?! lmao.



what's so interesting ?!



tobias posting. haha



did something just dropped ?!



pls give me something to eat ! im straving !



ahmad caught zipping his pants again ?! haha.



chio bu ?!?!?! wee-u-weet



oh !! gang leader here ! beware !! haha. ;p



is titus seeing upskirt ?! he's so engross. haha.



confrontation ?! haha. guyS VS girl



huimin quarreling with shaofeng ??? oh poor shaofeng. lmao



here goes huimin..



seems like a long passage way to the end of the room. but its not. haha.



tobias unlocking his bomb ?! suspicious object !



what's this ?! walking in a single file ?! lmao



gang fight ?! haha. but who's the victim eh ?!



or are they stepping some insects ?! scroll down more !



despersed gang ?! lmao. leftovers for weiming da ge ! lmao



weiming act cool ! haha.



oh !! ahmad got caught for destorying sch property ?! haha.



caught in camera ! evidence of weiming vandalising. haha



life in tutorial lesson. haha



the guys



the pathetic no. of girls. lmao. suppose to be equal, angle different. guys are more steady than "MOST" girls. ;/

its all cocked up now. damn it. my team project, proposal presentation wasn't even done !! shirley is not coming to sch, daniel still at home, luckily felix is reaching... oh gosh.. i don't know what to do now than to wait... haiz.. no powerpoint slides, no proposal, nothing but only ideas. haiz... ;(

got scolded by lecturer just now on our other team members. felix manage to turn up and helped. daniel came excatly after the lesson ends. oh goodness !! we werent well prepared can ?! or we weren't even prepared !! lucky we'll have a chance tml. phew..

its our 3rd month today.. but lesson for me ended very late. sianz.. why ?! then there's test tml, presentation for tml. argh !! but there'll be months and years to come for us to celebrate ! ;p and it will be a holiday on our one yr anniversary. ;p hehe. NATIONAL DAY ! recalling what happen on National day this year was specially sweet ! it always makes me smile for it. hehe. its so sweet ! ;p

Happy 3rd Month !!

recently i didn't have the time to blog. opps. =X im sick since ytd. had diaherra and headahe. then after i came home from the doctor, i have a fever. but still i have to go school for my projecet, its with me. when i was walking, i felt that i may faint any time. then i took a cab home. didn't have the appitite to finish my porridge. and i lied in bed till dear came home after school.

sat in the living room till dinner is served. i can only help by clearing the table. i was weak. then after that sat in the living room and watch TV with parents. laughing all the way while watching channel 8 with mark lee and bryan wong, designing of homes TV show. lmao. then time to sleep. which is around 9pm. guess what ?! i still can sleep even though i slept the whole day ! wow ! ;p with dear beside me, i felt the happiness and warmth i didn't felt before. all i need is him.

my cramp is unbearable ! argh ! left school during the last 2nd lesson of today. damn it. i just cant stand it. ;( poor me. recently it always happen. haiz.. what to do ?! this is the girls' life !

then tml there'll be test which i havent even flip through. shit !! gone case.. ;(

present is accompanying me cus im alone in the living room using my laptop. how sweet of her. she seems tired yet dont want to go to my mum's room to sleep and just stayed in the living room lying in her bed and rest. hehe. >.< what a dog i have !! ;p

friday after sch went home for awhile and headed to cdc for my intensive driving lessons. ;p im quite satisfied with my improvments now. hehe. dear went for some job (intro by kevin) and will meet me in aunt's place. and before leaving for cdc, i forget to bring presents for dear's sis, nieces and nephew.

so after the driving lesson, went back home and rushed out. was so late when i reached there. omg. sis, bro-in-law, aunty and dear was waiting for me for dinner. opps. =X when i reached there its like 8plus going 9. omg. ltr we, 2 couples (me and dear, sis and bro-in-law) went home, his place. also borrowed movies back, but didn't have the chance to watch them though. ;( thinking of finding on day in this week to go his place. reason being, cus of my driving, i havent have the chance for him and also me, to spend time with his family. and if this contiune, it would be like one month more to go. omg. i will feel gulity for that, okay !

then sun morning, went to cdc, had this instructor who i think is good. cus he dont add stress to me, chat with me, and taught me his method of turning ! its raining for that lesson, my first lesson driving in the rain and it ends up good. -phew- ;p

we decided to go down town at first but ltr we stayed at home till evening and headed to tamp. instead. thought of catching a movie. but non of those are what i crave to watch and partly cus dear have just earn his $70, i don't wish him to spend it of so fast. but, ended up with him buying sea monkeys for me or for us. cus i didn't grown them before, im very curious about that so dear bought for me. and cus of this, the BLUR cashier under charge dear and when dear check his acc. it seems like the BLUR cashier over charged him with the undeer charge amt and the original amount. dear was kinda pissed by that. felt so bad cus of this. shouldn't have bought that.

so ltr, went back home. wthout having any dinner. went home and clear my room together ! floor sweeped too ! hehe. also reserved a place for my sea monkeys. hehe. >.<

oh ya, dad bought nokia 6280 which gave away HP photo printer. lmao. i printed some of my pictures. hehe. have ah yen and ah qiang's photo pasted on my laptop ! >.< then ah yen photo on my desktop. seems like most people love ah yen more. so as for me, i will love ah qiang more. he seems so happy to see me around. hehe. poor ah qiang, everyone seems like scolding him.

as for today, most prob. be going for my 6.40 - 8.30 pm class. then dear have to wait so long. today came sch late, cus i was wrapping dear's present. hehe. im so bad, giving dear temptation on his xmas present ! he's only allowed to open it on xmas eve, the day we're leaving to thailand and the day on last year i pass him the present ! hehe. ;p love you dear !! >.<

im really rotting at home. skipped sch as usual on tues. ;p ltr will be heading down to cdc for my driving lesson again.

and dear will be playing basketball with his friends while waiting for me. but i wonder why he wore shirt instead of polo tee. o.O whatever !

i dont think my sea monkeys live. cus i see nothing now. i did see it hatch, maybe it died ?! i dont know ! i dont see them swim. ;(

okay.. im back to maple. im fascinated by junwee character ! lvl 100 over fighting powerful monsters ! kinda amazing. clips are all over YouTube ! but still a long way for me and dear to that lvl. ;p or way long, cus we seldom play. =X

listening to the songs i heard in the past, memories always flash across my mind. memories of chatting with dear everyday, getting so excited to see dear online in the past when im waiting sliently for him... when he's single, i was so happy, at least it brings some chances for me. but what sadden me was the word 'sister' he called me. i can cry all night thinking about that.

cried ytd night.. again. when we lied in the bed chatting ourselves to sleep. chatting about the Xmas present i gave him last year (he opened the xmas present i gave him.. he was kinda shock when he saw the hp keychain i made for him.) then topic changed to because of the xmas present i gave him, he started chatting with me in MSN. then we chatted every single night.. till the day i told him how i felt for him, the day he told me to forget him.. i still cry everytime i think of it. i still can recall adding him in my friendster bookmark, viewing his profile and grabbing his photos down. he's the only guy i listen/obey to other than my parents. i didn't had this kind of crave for a guy before.. and he is the only one.

when dear knew that i was crying, and the only reason why was that i think of the past again. i know dear, you're now mine and im now yours. and i was lying beside you, in the same picture with you, in your life now.. i just cant control myself from such saddness i had before. from the very start your love angel shot me, but you left me behind waiting for your attention and love.. then in the midst of it, you stabbed me three times.. how can i not feel pain ?! and cus of what ive been through, those things are just unforgetable !

being with you is the happiest thing ever happened.. and i will try to forget such pain..

what will it be like when you saw 2 car accidents, 1 suicide and ur bus went the wrong route ?! it will be quite unbelievable eh ?! that's what my mum saw, not witness.. it also prove that accidents are happening everynow and then. and its their time to live the world eh ?! shinigami are all around ! ;p

recently, im caught up with death note anime. didn't have the chance to watch the movie, but heard that the movie is a spoiler when the anime is so much better. there's only 2 part for the movie. what for ?! its pointless.. i manage to borrow death note comic, manage to get death note anime.. no need to waste money in the cinema for death note movie bah ! ;p