kinda lasy to blog recently. but still i wont disappoint my readers. ;p

friday dear didn't came to my place. cus i went shopping with mummy and dear didn't want to tag along. saw this dress for dinner, which is really cute. but ended up its the last piece and its not in good condition. Zzz.. mum did bought a top that she likes. in the end, i decide to satisfied myself with crystal puzzle. i bought a star and a tressure box to add t the collection. but still im looking for the pyramid and the water drop. ;(

as for sat. decide to go dear's place for the night, but mummy told me to come back cus we've planned a family outing. in the end i cancelled it of. i dont mean to do that, but if not, i wont see dear for 3 days and i know i cant take it. nvm, there'll be another time. so went to dear place to slack. watched shrek 1 and 2 and  narnia ! so happy. then went out for dinner at IMM. dear bought me a necklace, ear rings and a ring ! love it. will upload the pics other time. ;p

as for sunday, dear went to study for his exam. in the morning, woke up, ate some snacks which makes me full already. then headed to prata stall with kevin and elieen. then dear asked me what i wanted to eat. then i told him im full. then he said it out loud, then 4 people there, only him eating. then for the sake of it, i forced myself with the food. was really unhappy and didn't talk much for the day. somemore, dear knew i hated people with beer smell on them. and dear bought beer when we're at the coffee shop after they finish studying. and that adds up to my unhappiness. just felt like beating someone up. argh.

as for today, its a fun day ! >.< went to AMK jubilee arcade and played photo hunt ! 10 ppl looking for mistakes. then we're so excited. lmao. then after school, went to schol's giodano and ended up buying a sleeveless top, though my arms look big. ;p dear went for his steamboat session with his classmates.

my pay isn't in yet ! argh.. i was told that by monday i will get my pay, but i havent got it and its tuesday !!! its not the first time already ! the previous time they dragged for 3plus weeks ! damn fucked up.

ytd dear told me he will be going back his place cus he's going to drink with his friends, which kinda disappoints me. haiz.. then the thought of friends comes before me came to my mind. then i start hitting and pinching myself just to stop myself from thinking and being sad over it.

then ended up dear came back when im in dreamland. for no reason i cried. then start being sad for what that have came to my mind earlier on. haiz.. then dear scolded me. he said he had enough of his friends just now and he wanted to come home and see me smiling at him, but instead i cried. i know im always at fault for crying. and i know im at fault for thinking that ur friends come before me. me equals to lots of truoble equals to troublesome gf.

on wed, stayed back after school for my C# assignment. completed it and manage to help some friends solved their errors. ;p

then went bugis with lishan cus our motive is to get our addidas watches. haha. previously i saw this white addidas watch with gold frame with dear and we fell in love with it. and i tried asking if dear like it or not before i set my mind on getting it for dear.

okay, we finish our stuff quite late. then we rushed to bugis, accompany lishan for her dinner. then headed down to get our watch. waha.. in the beginning, lishan wanted to buy the transparent red one, but after she saw the white with gold frame, she, too, got it. and guess how much i got it for ?! $79 each, when outside is selling at $118. hahaa.. im so happy. ;p then went down to PS cus dear's dad, sis, sis's friend and dear was waiting for me. omg. my t-shirt was wet with my perspire when i got there. then ltr had dinner at long john.

dear knew i got something for him and he was peeping into my bag. then i pass the watch to him. he was surprised to see it. ;p previously, he thought of getting it, but i kinda refused to go down to bugis. haha. ;p i have my plans eh. wahaa. then to my surprise, dear got me a S necklace. haha. love it. and its the same as sis's necklace just that hers is the letter P and mine is the letter S. haha.

ytd, before i went to school, had lunch with sis and dear. and finally i can have lunch before school starts at around 12pm onwards. i didn't go for lecture though. haha. then went for test at 4pm. rather fair, at least i did till qns 3 when there's 4qns. ;p then headed to aunt's place.

was kinda angry and disappointed with dear. cus i asked if he wanted to go school with me. then he took quite awhile to reply. but i just ignore him and went to bath. then he contiune sleeping, so i assume he wont be going school with me. then went i left his place, dear said sorry to me. i told him twice that i dont like to listen to sorry. if you did something wrong, try to amend it, sorry dont do the tricks.

this morning, dad's friend took all the puppies away. then he said he'll take presen back some other day. sad sad. cus mummy had enough of taking care of her. ;( present seems sad without his pups making noise and stuff.

my head is dizzy right now. i almost fainted just now. i stood up from the chair and the next moment i knew that im sitting on the floor with my vision temporarily blanked. oh gosh. what's happening to me ?!

tues, went out with dear's aunt and sis. then we met dear's ex gf. dont think i don't know her. she even walked up to say hi to his aunt and sis. the problem dont lies with her. but lies with dear. for no reason, after dear's ex, dear kinda ignores me. then as if im the one ignoring him. then ltr, i heard dear replying to aunt saying, 'angry, then let her be." that time i dont really knew what was happening. but i did guess it right. for the rest of the day, i was kinda.... quiet.

then ltr when i got home. i asked dear what he was talking about. (you know, girls tend to rmb the details.) then dear told me. was really freaking upset with him. for 10 months plus, he dared to say such a thing, like he didn't bother about me. if he dont bother about me, then why bother to be with me ?! why waste my time ?! and he deeply hurt me... once again. which makes it the 4th time. and i dont know why am i so stupid to let him do so.

i cried for the whole night. then the next morning. my eyes are still swollen. he made me doubt our relationship. and is there anything that ive caused him to treat me that way.

whatever it is... problems have been solved. and there's nothing scar craved on my heart. i did promise not to leave you... but pls dont make me leave you.

this week, we hardly have time in our world outside. stayed home on wednesday to watch rented DVDs. then thursday, i went out with swing and friday, went to see sis's wedding gown. then for the weekend, dear will be working. its holiday, but seems like when we're schooling, we have more time together.

i just wanted time to go out with dear. cus when we're at home, we or rather me, seems so slack-ed at home. lying around sleeping. and i dont like to stay at home. mum always 'disturb' me, i cant even play a game peacfully. Zzz..

i hate holidays.

i finally found out why i wanted dear to spend time out with me. cus we're alot less loving than before. i dont know what causes the sudden change. or maybe its the midst of getting sour. dear gave an excuse for not turning up for work tml. cus i told dear about the issue we're facing. maybe not we're the ones, maybe its just me. its been like one plus week, we havent have the time out alone. guess i should give all the time to my friends, spend time with them. haiz..

is it that i take things to seriously ?!

for the past few days, dear and i had quality time together. though we spend quite some money. ;/ sunday, went watching fantastic 4, at first i thought sliver surfer is the victor.

then on monday, didn't go out with swing, cus she's working, then dear and i went out met kevin and elieen to sell away their phones then to town for a walk. ;p had hongkong food at cine. hehe. nice !

ytd, hung around sengkang after presen was taken away. went to return and rent movies. then to compass point. saw this bag at charles and keith, i like it but, still flicker-minded. but ended up didn't get it. but went to arcade and played $25 of sweet catching. gave up the temptations, though there's a few times till we got the jackpot. so an aunty went to contiune our game. hehe. its really fun. though the sweets are cheap. haha. for the fun, its worth it. ;p

i miss my presen ! wondering how she's been. is she locked up all the time?! is she having fun ?! i really misses her. haiz..

having a feast with some friends tml. hehe. looking forward to it, bet it'll be fun. ;p

woke up around 12pm today. ;p spend the night chatting till sleep (2am ?! around there.)

chatting about our lives in metro till we got together. its really amazing how the whole metro knew about me and dear's story. from the whole of lvl 3, i dont know how it spreaded till lvl 1. shuxian and kelvin, the legendary couple ?! lol. we chatted about our feelings and stuff. haha.

found out that dear started watching porn when he's in ITE. and when one of his classmate watches, the whole class(all are guys) including their teacher joined them to watch !!! and he was like no big deal about porn, when other guys will like omg its porn, send me, send me. haha. okay.. its something personal about dear... he'll be staring at me when he sees this. =X

dear talked about his life before we got together. and seems like im the 'middleman' who bring his family bond closer. ;p im so special eh. haha.

dear also talked about his ex. i did too. just hope that it didn't upsets dear. i wasn't upset, cus i know dear is mine now and forever.  

i just love to lie on dear's chest. i can feel his body heat, his warmth(from his love to me)and his manhood. i felt the happiness i wanted when im single. i felt the 安全感 i never felt before. guess im a happy girl after all. ;p as for this part, dear will be smiling to the computer. haha. his heart will be flying in mid-air when he sees this para. waha.

just saw dear's comment in friendster and blog entry. hehe. sweet ~ love you laogong. today someone(forget its lishan or lingwei) told me that me, im stick to dear alot, might as well call him my husband. hehe. ;p

transformers is starting on this thurs. but i have night classes. i want to watch it on friday. hehe. a must watch movie eh ! >.< 

today, daniel drove to school with his car soon-to-be. then 5 of us girls went on his car and went to bishan. lol. its a fun ride, cus there's a open top, we blast the music, shouting in the car. went to bishan's toy turning machine. spend money on them. lol. and we broke the TEENS photo hunt ! waha fun ~ hehe. then ltr have some finger food.  and ltr went to havng a ride all around to spend our 30mins to lesson. haha. yuki even went up the open top ! haha. we're very high !!!

then after class, dear meet me in sch. then daniel fetch us and justina to novena, then his gf to mustafa. suppose to go to sis new house but she din have a marriage cer, so everything was cancelled.

but still buying present for dear's mum bday. went city hall then. scroll around, but didn't know what to buy, till we ask sis. went down to raffles city's robinson for lancome boutique to get a lip gloss. but in the midst of it, i bought quite a number of things. dear did spend alot.

i bought weird sweets from party city, lip shaped plaster, eye shadow, ZA eye bag removal. hehe. ;p 

dear's boss called him this afternoon asking him to go down to work, cus he's busy with the 3rd shop opening. which means he will be working everyday till sunday. and dear promised to bring me to the movie on friday to watch transformers. haiz... another disappointment. souldn't have ask dear to the movie on friday, so i wont look forward for it. Zzz...

haiz... nvm, i still get the see it SOME other time. Zzz... look on the bright side bah. ltr, having maggie mee alone at home, maybe not, just have to scavage for food at home. haha.

seems like dear needed money... CUS OF ME. Zzz... okay.. just have to think of the bright side !! haha. ;p

a couple days ago, saw kok sheng on TV ! woot ! he's in channel u's Hey! gorgeous. and also heard justina saying that those who won that competition will get phone calls of advertising company. so, for the future for kok sheng, i voted for him. lmao. and i also spread the message to some sec sch peeps. vote for kok sheng !

saw Wade there also. but worst of all, i went to the website this morning, and saw darrell, the loud speaker (only metro first year ppl will know. haha.) there. omg.

cvss joseph is there too !

ytd, lingwei asked me to do a test about her. i got 20% ;( then i went to get a test for myself. it took me quite a few times to get it done.Zzz.. so readers, do give it a try ! ;p

didn't went to school ytd. woke up having a bad cold. omg. dear took a day off with his reasons to accompany me. cus i asked for him to stay with me. =x

dear bringing me to the movies in the coming tuesday ! weee~ transformers robot in disguss. ;p kbox next friday i think. ;p waha.

going down to AMK center to wait for dear after school. he's working.

im still waiting for a chance to wear my heels out; to season the sharp edges. ;p

its a tired shopping day. haven have a good sleep this pass 2 nights. maybe i slept too late.

after school, was stopped by a lecturer, my year1 lect. she ask us to help out in the duck race booth and get CCA points. haha. 6 of us joined. ;p

then met swing at orchard. im really tired to blog now, so to cut short, i bought 2 cardigans, zara yellow stripes off-shoulder top, my hp pouch and something for dear. ;p

thanks to those who did my test. haha. ;p

it wasn't a bad say for me today. wasn't that bored, there's interesting show on TV. ;p intending to take a nap till night, then have my dinner, get prepared and go down to AMK and wait for dear end work.

tml will be going to town for the duck race thing. hehe. wil have a great time ! ;p