while installing visual basic 2005 for my project which i really put in my 100% effort in, i decide to rest awhlie and come to blog.

had been busy in school on my project. during coding, im stress, but when eating, chatting, im de-stressing. haha. my part is done. left my final compilation of mine and huimin's. but still there's some error here and there. login page to do by tonight.

kinda pissed my KENNY's behaviour. when i ask for shirley's code, he was like so arrogant. HATE PEOPLE WHO DONT HAVE BASIC RESPECT. when you're talking to someone, at least make eye-contact, not that you must look at the person you're talking to all the time, but at least give some manners.

okay.. my program is installed. going back for more project ! ;p

done my project ! done huimin and my part. waiting for huimin to past the her updated part. and i can create the class diagram.

oh ya to KENNY, i told shirley to past her part to me by ytd. but since you're doing her part, and you fail to pass it to me, i will throw the final compilation to you ! if you can complete it on time, then TOO BAD ! dont ever forget, friends are the most important thing in life. since you offended so many people, means when you need help, everyone will turn out down. nobody treats you as their friend. friends are the ones that will always walk the path with you, without them, its a torture. if only this will goes into your mind. only friends can see what's going on and guide you.

sometimes i pity you, sometimes i dislike you. WAKE UP.

im wondering if its worth having this entry on THIS person. THIS person just makes his life so worthless that i cant be bothered about him.

met dear, after i rush through my use case. suppose to watch a movie, but timing not good, cus dear meeting his family ltr. im not joining, im tired and some proj stuff to do.

went to amk hub's arcade. saw some hard core players playing their machine they're good at. one of them is my pri sch friend, shannon, but i doubted that he rmb me. haha. he was really good in the drum machine, his hands and legs can coordinate, and he did it really fast ! haha.

then ltr, dear took bus to meet his family and i went home. slept in the bus till i feel like sleeping till the last stop.i haven't been that tired and drained before. but the effort put in with the successful of the program just brings joy to me.

from the project, i learnt the logics of c# and java coding. its not that difficult after all. ;p

my presentation is finally over ! after so much of hard work. but somehow, im not impressed by myself. somehow, i dont think i will scored what i wanted. but nevermind, its over. time to get myself prepared for the exam. ;p

ghost online ~ ;p

few more hours (cus we're together like 4plus 5am of aug 9th) will be our 1st year. hehe. last year around this time we're in the cinema watching ant bully. ;p

nothing much happen today, but rather happy. ;p went to yishun intend to get a mouse, but its all male, and not totally white. so went down to chong pang. caught an eye on a white guinea pig. dear said it looks like a rabbit. haha. maybe cus it have red eyes like white rabbits. ;p named it after dear's nickname, xiao bai. haha.

time for some pictures after so long. ;p

mummy's bday cake.


look at how happy it mummy.


that is dear's hairstlye.


it doesn't looks so fat as it is. haha.


im not a rabbit !!


papa xiao bai, baby xiao bai. ;p

saw this in lingwei's blog. its really interesting and true about girls' heart. just wanted to share it. and its up in the reads portion. ;p

if a girl cried infront of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
if you take her hand,
she will stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go,
she couldn't go back to herself anymore.

A girl won't cry easily,
except infront of the person
who she loves most,
she become weak.

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hand firmly,
she's the one who would stay
with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you ruin her life.

when she cry infront of you,
when she cry because of you,
look into her eyes,
can you see and feel the pain, and the hurt she's feeling?

THINK.
which other girl have cried
with pure sincerity,
infront of you
and because of you?
she cry not because she is weak,
she cry not because she want sympathy or pity,
she cry,
because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt and agony
have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

GUYS,
think about it,
if a girl cry her heart out to you,
and all because of you,
its time to look back on wat you have done,
only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
cos' one day,
it may be too late for regrets,
it may be too late to say "i'm sorry".

To my friends:
dont do this to a girl,
you may regret for the rest of your ife,
maybe in your life,
she's the only one that LOVE YOU THE MOST!!

back to blog. went to tamp. ikea with swing earlier on. after that, we went to giant, didn't buy anything though. haha. then went to the courts too, cus its kinda early still. went there, i saw a friend, who changed job. got a lobang from him. but i just gave him my number, and im stupid enough not to get his number from him. omg. nvm. just have faith in him. ;p

ltr went to compass point. walk a lil then when to slack at starbucks. slack till 11pm and came back. lots to talk about. really enjoy the time. haha. about bf, friends, artists and anything that we can think of. haha. never out of topic. ;p

kinda think of it, i only ate a meal today. had sausage when im in ikea. then starbucks coffee. kinda hungry now. but nvm. im quite tired now anyway.

was thinking about the girl's heart post topic. and somemore chatted with swing about some issues. especially the first paragrah, i cant deny when i cry/teared, is when i cant take the problem sliently. i cry it out cus its better to release myself, my pain. no matter how minor the problem is, its still a topic that people can quarrel about. its true that some words are better to be kept to oneself.

i dont want to know the truth and i dont want people to change. if i dont, i will be selfish. maybe or maybe not. i dont know. i just want to cry. my heart aches, but im out of tears to cry. a heartborken girl.

dear, dont ask me who or why i posted this entry. just let it be a secret within me. you can guess, but i dont wish to tell.

i couldn't sleep that night. trying to called dear, but just cant reach him. i dont know why, i just wanted to listen to dear's voice.

was crying till around 4am, i received dear's call. felt like an idiot from the way im talking to him. i cant express myself than to cry it out. but in the end, i told dear everything about why i was crying. i blame myself for being a selfish bitch. maybe cus im over sensitive to do so. i felt really really bad by seeing dear and his ex were close, and also feeling bad having dear made no contact to her. im caught in the middle. i always wonder, am i right doing such things ?!

i dont know why i kept having the feeling that dear have feelings for his ex still.  and i did tried hard to trust dear's feelings for me. i know dear will be upset seeing this, but this is what i feel. i felt more than this, just that is so hurtful for both parties to see and type this out.

im sorry dear.

kinda emo this few days. dear deleted his friendster acc. cus of me(most of the reasons). now someone tries to reach out for him through me. too bad.. maybe she can, in other ways, but i plead not to be aware of that, otherwise i duno bad/mad i will react.  

as a girl's point of view, if you get close to ur ex-bf means you still have feelings for him, otherwise he will be a hi and bye friend. and if you know he's attached and you still wants to get near him, you most prob. wanted to snatch him back. if you wanna get help, why not asking other people ?! thicked-skinned bitch. kinda furious when it comes to her(since that day) dont let me curse and swear at you. FUCK OFF ! no denial, becuase of you, i felt insecure.

woke up early this morning maybe i was awaken by the people talking, im a light sleeper. ;p ytd night, woke dear up cus of my eye. it was swollen last night. something was inside. dear didn't turn up for his NARFA today, its so dark in Jurong (cus im over at his place). Kevin still asleep i guess. haha. i will be very free today, meeting dear over at his school later. after that will be going for a dinner for the lunar 7th month.

end of day i guess. haha.

having sore throat and coughing for the past few days. no doubt, still studying hard for exams.

dear too was sick, and is STILL sick. for quite some time already, like one week ?! or more. but dear didn't went to the doctor. like he said in his blog, he's depending on himself for money. but sometimes, it hurts me by seeing him unhappy about his financal needs. it hurts me too seeing him sick.

its my first paper tml. good luck to me ! ;p

another exam paper tml. having a headache now. i stucked ! somemore, i need a calculator that can count binary. omg. formulas and theories to remember !! omg.

im in a state of....... getting stress !!

its like fated for me to get stress around my birthday. its around a decade of studying and exmas during my birthday. feel like roaring my anger to someone. haha. whatever.

im tired.

tml is 23 aug ! weee ~ wonder where will i go celebrate.

woke up 5am this morning. guess cus i slept early last night. then toss and turn till 6 and woke up flipping notes clarifying my doubts. haha. woke dear up by my sms too. =X exam starts at 8.30am, ending a 10.30am. what should i do ltr cus dear ending school at 5.30pm, going to AMK to get his jeans. hm... sleep ?! ghost online ?! wahaa. time to relax after the stressful studying till 24 aug. next exam paper will be at 28aug, dear's sis bday and engagement day.

okay.. gtg. wish me luck ! ;p

this bday, i got the most wishes ever !! haha. alot to be named ! dear's obviously the first, then huimin, choonhua and jeremy. in the morning, i get swing, xinyu and dear's sis smses. haha. kennedy wished me a advance one, fwe hours before the clock strikes 12am. haha. then in friendster i gt lishan's and liyana's comment ! haha.

thank you, everyone ! haha. never been that happy when people wished me happy birthday. oh ya, dear's sis even gt me a present ! >.< wonder what is it. hehe.

most prob going for a dinner with family. dont know where will dear and me be going later.

a boring day for a birthday to start of, played ghost online and i wonder why am i still home. think of hanging around, but dont know where. if i enter an acrade, i'll spend a lot of money on the addictive sweet machine. lol. if i go walk walk, i will ended up spending money, which i shouldn't be, cus i dont have enough money to. 

oh ya, thanks to my good friend, felix, he intro me a sony ericsson job, but im still waiting for a reply of my resume. hope i get through, otherwise will be praying for my friend to give me a call by end of this month for the olympus job. i desprately need a good paid job.

let this be a birthday present for me eh. haha

good morning everyone !

after my previous post, i got more bday wishes ! kinda surprised by tingyang(pri sch friend), eddy(metro friend), patricia(metro friend), huikang(metro friend) and gabriel(court friend) who wished me. haha. qian ling even wished me, after like so long we didn't contact. hehe.

DEREK forget my bday was ytd, and wished me today. omg !! haha. nvm. nothing to be sad about, we're still buddies ! ;p buddies for life eh ! haha.

there's 20 people who wished me happy bday this year. haha. excluding my parents. its like my sms came non stop. haha.

ytd, went out to suntec, my aim was to get a shoulder bag for school. but didn't caught an eye on something. dear still insist on getting something for me. i finally got candy empire's candy mix at mellinia walk. then, saw a couple ring which is really cute ! haha. not gonna saying which i get it. dear said he'll get it for our 1st year anniversary (which is over). waha ! i never loved a ring so much ! >.< then ltr, dad fetched us to kovan for the HK cafe. its nice ! was bloated when we left the cafe. hehe. then its a day for me. ;p

ytd was a lazy day for me, suppose to stay home to study, but ended up with dear's aunt, sis and bro-in-law for food. haha.

in the morning, dear received a call and went for 7th month praying while me dreaming away till noon. but still, i dragged myself up to bath. then took a very lonely down to queenstown to meet dear and aunt. omg. feel like blabbing 'those' language at someone. i was so darn boring in the train !!!! AGRH !!!! then finally got there with a small piece of bread in my stomach, maybe my stomach chose to be small then. ;p then got there, settle down, slack. -bored- waiting for the MP of the district to come, then left for town to meet sis after her gym. oh ya and dear bought me a mickey shopping bag. haha. ;p after that, bro-in-law fetch us to east shore hospital to visit his dad, who had an operation on his gall bladder, there's stones in it. then went to old kallang airport hawker centre for dinner ! yum yum ! we ate $36 of food ! haha. and i saw a jerk there, my ex. he is still look like those cheap-skate, selfish minded guy. he just have the looks.

then today, intended to get sis a present, but cant find any. DEAR BOUGHT ME ANOTHER APEE T-SHIRT FOR MY BDAY ! very simple, yet colourful. but i still want my I LOVE AP t-shirt. ;( its sold out. i dont care who has it, i just want it. same as the red ipod nano ! nvm, i shall hunt for jobs, get my pay and get 'em ! wahaha. oh and, dear got us a 1st year anni. couple rings !! the one i love alot !! haha.

photo time ! ;p

my plain APEE t-shirt. -loves-

APEE dust bag ! ;p

our 1st year anniversary couple ring ! nice ~

our together and 1st year anniversary rings ! ;p

-grins-

us !

bday girl. haha.

my dry and fluffy xiao bai

my wet and shivering xiao bai. lol.

just send out my notes for tml's module to justina and lingwei. got a reply by lingwei with a huge thanks in it ! haha. ;p no denial, after i met lingwei as friends, i become more motivated in studying. haha. maybe cus i envy her hard work in studies. haha.

i managed to finish 2 papers in like few hours and even did a summary on the parts that will be tested.

currently doing friendster's survey away till dear comes home. haha. he'll be back soon, but my stomach still have alot of water ! mummy told me to take some pills for mensration, and its like a bottle form will lots of pills in it. without reading the instructions, i took it all. ALOT of pills and few glasses of water, till the last mouthful, mum told me to look at the instructions and it says one bottle for 2 days. omg !!! somemore i drank a glass of water after i took the pills. i was so so bloated ! till now, i still dont feel hungry.

today i did a good job in closing up the holes that the ants sqeeze themselves in. haha. too bad for them. im the ANT BUSTER for my house ! waha.

its my 2nd last paper today and also dear's sis bday and engagment day ! happy birthday to sis !!! and congrats that she's getting married today . ;p

it just started raining heavily outside. i still can take like 1/2 hr of sleep done my flipping thru of notes. kinda tired still. meeting dear over at AMK ltr, headed to his place then going out to sis engagment restruant.

okay, i shall take a rest now. ;p