yesterday, went to Kbox with poly friends. a fun session turns out boring, left at 5pm with 5 people in the end. zzz. head down dear's big aunt's place for dinner and had a few rounds of mahjong and head home. nothing much. ;/

Going DBL O later, like finally. haha. In total there's 8 people going. kevin, fulong, swing, qiu, 2 of dear's colledge from the roadshow which i don't really know of, dear and me. hope its fun.

looking forward to end work.

Didn't turn up for work on Friday, went to dbl O on thursday and was quite shag. took MC from dear's family doctor at the same time treat my signess, he's a really great doctor. btw, he's call Dr Chan from Dawson Clinic. ;p

went to Amei's concert on Sat, her vocals are very good. the whole concert is soo high throughout. was expecting some special guest(like xiao jing teng) but no one appeared. ;( started to like her songs, FYI, i don't listen to her songs in the past. 

spend the day rotting at home today. haha. just felt kinds weird without have things to do. always rushing for stuff for the weekend when im not working.

btw, my project is officially done. in-charge haven't get to me yet. left data to be keyed into the database, dear will help me. >.<

unpleasant things happen while im took MC on friday. im just being honest telling my incharge that i can't go to work cause im feel unwell due to thursday night. then got a email from my incharge's incharge regarding my irresponsible act. HEY ! im really unwell can. I HAVE AN MC ! he was so SACASTIC can in the email can. still give me a smirk.

sorry, im not really happy in IPP. its irrelevant to my course. what is requested of me is not required. im here to maintain database not REPLYING emails. heard from a friend from another poly, his friend is also having the same problem as me, doing job that is IRRELEVANT. !@#$%^&

get me outta here !!!

btw, my motorola's in charge is giving me ZN5 to take pictures for the advertisement. haha. its a 5mega pixel with auto focus phone and xenon flash, WIFI enabled, touch sensitive keypad, long battery life. bla bla. sounds like a cool phone to me. but its running under lunix, can be lag and not user friendly. ;/

looking forward to end work = going for motorola's training, should be getting ZN5 !!!!

was very late when kevin, dear and me reach the motorola trainning. past the program to my incharge, setup file cant be done. zzz. happily thinking that i will get a new phone, but didn't get it yet. there will be a training on the phone again, but by another company.

basically, yesterday night trainning was fun, done by Joel who was a nokia trainner. things learn there were very interesting. like how human behave. how to tackle if human objects to your point. haha. somehow acting like a worker for a boss, seeing boss behaviour agree to whatever boss says then let boss like you (in our case, get the sales).

he shared with us about eye movement. When you're facing the person (so left is referring to your left):

Look up left - Constructed image (telling lies)
Look up right - Recalled image
Look horizontally left - Constructed audio (telling lies)
Look horizontally right - Recalled audio
Look down left - Thinking about emotions, touch and feel, etc
Lok down right - Talking to self

This is generally applicable for right handers. (left handers will be opposite.) Do note that it is a generalisation, so there are exceptions. However, no matter what exceptions they have, it will still be consistent for that particular person.

also, he share with us about 3 kinds of human style. there's visual people, audio people and kinesthetic people. Visual people remember things through pictures/scenes and will talk about what they see most of the time. Audio people remember things by sound, like reading a book aloud to remember the book, they will talk about what they hear most of the time. As for Kinesthetic people, they remember things through feelings and they will talk about how they feel for this and that. No one will be 100% Visual, Audio or Kinesthetic. its either more of visual, audio or kinesthetic. as for me, im a visual person. ;p

somehow, ive learnt another method for people to get to know you. (by mirroring the person's actions. but not in a very irritating/purposefully way.)

to not bring down hopes of people, don't say the word "BUT" !!! ive been trying every since i learnt it from com skills in school. haha.

to not give people a little/no hope situation, don't say the "i'll try", say "i WILL do my best" instead.

its all about human behaviours. for my interest and passion, seriously, i would really like to learn physcology.

after training, went to al-almin for nasi goreng. haha. delicious ~ ate it up even though im not very hungry. wahaha. food there is nice "and at the same time" (im not saying the word "BUT" in my sentence), they should consider killing the cockoroaches there. haha.

BTW, KEVIN BOUGHT ME A GUESS WALLET !!! FINALLY, I HAVE A NEW WALLET ! >.<

rmb what dear planned last month ?! should be going to singapore flyer (ferris wheel) in the evening, but he forget about the date and made arrangement with his family for dinner.

luckily, the date can be changed. we'll be going tomorrow. he's always that careless with dates. starting i will get angry, but now, im fine with it already. what to do.. ;/

I miss my choco. ;(

be going home finally.... later... after going to singapore flyer. and dining at popeye chicken for the first time (finally again). >.<

fave hobby now at work is going to forums. hehe. =X

thinking about the number of weeks left in IPP (attachment), im getting excited to go back to school again. haha. was chatting with kevin (from school) the other day about getting back to FYP (final year project). Food is the most accessible, time for breaks is also free and easy. haha. i cant wait. planned to train up in school's gym too. haha. >.<

oh ya, complaint(like what most typical singaporeans will do) about my bad experience in work(part time/motorola) to my incharge and im not going back to tampines this weekend. he too, was upset when i told him about it. life is good with a caring and easy going incharge. ;p just love being in motorola.

having a weird stomach since last night. zzz. felt like farting. =X

went back to tampines for the weekend. zzz. one thing that is rewarding is that the sales is better and i got a compliment from a customer. met Lifang from HTC there also, know her from dear's BBQ. she talked about her relationship to me, bla bla... somehow we're the same type of girls with similar problems. haha. had really great time with her.

i bought a rainbow potka dots bag! -grins-

AND I NEED TIME TO MAKE A PROPER LAYOUT ! -.-

oh ya, almost forget to update on my experience on the singapore flyer with an uncivilize foreign family.

in the cabin, there's a china couple(maybe married), THE FAMILY and us. in THE FAMILY, there's 2 children, not even close to adorable/nice. the 2 girls were shouting throughout the ride, running around and all THE FAMILY did was to ignore the girls' presence while the maid handles everything. they don't look rich either, they wore what singapore aunty/uncle wore to the coffee shop. at first, i wanted to wait for the next cabin, but dear said its okay... zzz. felt like pushing open the door while mid air and push the girls out. i almost walk up to them and gave them a tight slap, but thinking that it will cause me more upset later with them crying like nobody's business.

what an unpleasant first moment to remember.

however, i tasted ny first popeye chicken. love the fries and mashed potatoes.. dear said it tasted the same as AMW's. it was like donkey years ago since i went to AMW can?! miss the crispy ice cream waffles. when will be the next time ?

watched Eagle eye yesterday with dear and his parents. nice show, just that the "BIMBO" aunties sitting beside me kept screaming. -.-" so distracting can! like they've never seen such shows before. normal people will jump w/o making noises when shocked, they jumped and screamed. i just can't believe it. the whole cinema was so engross in the show and quiet, then suddenly the aunties screamed. its too over reacting. there should be a new rule in the cinemas, "Please do not over react, its just a show !". lmao

was texting dear all along, till we came up with a topic on Christmas. its coming soon. a festival well awaited for us. first time we went out together(with a group of friends) like 3 years ago. wow!

dear said he will draw for me and it will be a present for me for christmas. i requested for it also since dear didn't drew anything for me before. i told him will love it and keep it nicely even though he draw stick men for me. 

i assured dear that this christmas i won't get anything for him like the previous years. cause i need to save money up for... kehehe.

so looking forward to christmas every year since i met dear. >.< 

was kinda busy since start of work today. previous entry was submitted after my lunch break when i came back and purposely find time to post it up while doing my assigned work. finally have time to blog again.

went to market drive with colledges. had a yummy lunch though we waited for quite long. then went to dear's dad's coffee stall for drinks. had free drinks though colledges insist on paying. they said that dear's dad's coffee is nice !! HEHE !!

busy with work and at the same time dealing with my personal stuff and noting project amendments. finally free and time to leave. haha.

BYE ~

intend to get a Kate Spade bag like a week ago. finally went to the website. SIMPLY FELL IN LOVE with one bag. just one. not very expensive(in USD). but heard that it can be almost cost double the price in Singapore. (like a bag in US cost S$400, but in SG is cost $700, its what i found in Flowerpod forum)

what i will do is to go down to the outlet and check out the bag, if price still reasonable then i will get it there. else get it online. and DEAR WILL GET IT FOR ME !!! >.< (because i need to save alot of money, i let him do so)

im not going to share the picture of the bag i WANT till i get it. to prevent anyone from get it before i do. wahahaha.

IM IN LOVE WITH A BAG !!!

there's this person(i dont know who), posted my picture up in HEY GORGEOUS. the picture so ugly can. NB. changed the picture and also the my profile. definitely a prank. i dont hang around in the toilet. haha. so "funny".

since yesterday, my tagboard became so happening. lmao.

This 'Your Admirer' posted my ugly photo up in HEY GORGEOUS. made me so embarrass. says its nice... bla bla bla... now this person says "Your Admirer: so wat u change the pics? i still love u... but i think the previous pics is more nicer..."

i've stop you from embarrassing me till the contest end, that's what. if someone loves me, he/she should be seeking attention from me instead of making me feel upset right ?! you're not making sense unless you mentally unstable. -.-

For one moment, i think that 'Your Admirer' is from my Yr3 class who loves to prank and joke around. now i don't think so.. cause they're more mature. not to hurt anyone's feeling, but its just my views.

just found out that this person went to dear's blog and saying that he/she is my admirer and posted the link of me in hey gorgeous. simply finding trouble!!

WHAT YOU WANT ?

somehow, im curious who this person is. i know its someone in my friendster, cause only friends are allowed to view my photos. and in dear's tagboard, this person says he/she is my collegue.

so Fuhan and Anson is out of the picture. haha. from the very start, i thought is them, cause they kept teasing people.

i really don't know who. how did a collegue get my IC no. ?! (IC no. is needed to nominate people)this is creepy.

im know im plumb. i accept people who says that im fat. just that why this person have to insist that im fat, are you trying to insult me? at least i have BREAST and my posture is straight. 

this supervisor at Tampines M1, joyce, called me over and told me that im grew fat. then, just for fun, i replied that its my top that is small. then she told me to stop making myself better. WTF ?! you mean i cant ?! and i have been tolerating her attitude for since i met her like almost a year ago already.

it is a verbal abuse and i can charger her for that. her words are always very hurting than anyone else. other staff do says that, at least it sounds like a friendly advise or even like a joking manner.

i also wonder how she got the post with such  F*** up attitude.

New product launching, but none are going to the subscribers. zzz. might be posted to retailer to sell them under retail price, it should be more challenging.

seen the specs. of the new products, like them. if only they're all 3G. ;/

its another gloomy monday. zzz. headache again... had one last thursday and friday too. that sucks.

Fulong was working with me in tampines M1.. that crappy guy. Shuxia is with him already. haha. He just broke off with his paranoid ex-gf not long ago. somehow he should have do so in the very start. =X Fulong is Shuxia first bf. heard that they will start their relationship after Fulong's FYP and also to avoid people saying that Shuxia is a subsitude. bla bla.

Told Fulong our story and he said dear is too dramatic. haha. (FYI, dear and Fulong are quite close cause they normally worked in west mall M1 together.) cause normally, dear and i will text each other when we're not together. so Fulong was kinda jealous, he told Shuxia that im making him jealous and tell her to say something sweet to him. then he showed me her message. -.-"

anyway, they're a sweet couple. can see a future in them. Fulong is very commited when it comes to relationship. and since its Shuxia's first relationship and she seems like a very nice girl with good character. another stable couple. haha.

dear, I love you ! >.<

so shag. my headache isn't gone yet. felt so sleepy.

went to the training last night. fun. somehow, singtel account's promoter knew dear for don't know what reason. lol. basically, there will be 2 new phones lauching. the ZN5 is a powerful camera phone. and as for A1600, its more suitable for china people or people who always goes china, there's beijing map/singapore, words translation, and fun games. haha. im only interested in getting ZN5. lol.

after training, head down to al-azhar for tissue prata. hehe. i still prefer Jln kayu's tissue prata. ;p

Met dear at compass point after work yesterday. he told me he wanted to get Wii. its a great form of exercise to play it. price wise, have to save 2months to get it. a month's pay is enough for that, just that need money for expenses right ?! ;p

then dear insist in getting the Kate Spade bag for me. i cant get it for myself for sure. i have plans and i have budgets in getting things for myself. ;/ i have to get 4 digits in my bank before spending on myself. im working weekends stressing my energy just  to achieve my 4 digits. im planning BIG ! ;p its the first time im so desprately saving up.

I MUST ACHIEVE MY 4 DIGITS !

back to blog. can't wait till tmr for my pay. eventually, my attachment's pay will be in at the end of the month. zzz. its okay, i don't depend much on my attachment's pay. ;p

Kate Spade bag is nearing !!! ARGH !!!!!!!!! >.<

and finally, i get to go out with dear alone for after so long. i just love being out with him ALONE. we really need quality time together.

after work ytd, had dinner at IMM Ichiban. hehe. Im born to love japanese food. also not forgetting im finally taking OFF on 1st and 2nd Nov to make sushi for dear on sat and maybe out with dear on sun. plans are, heading down to liang court for the japanese super market there to get some stuff. have direct train home also. no plans on sunday yet. im very looking forward. ;p

its a long weekend for a good rest (sat, sun and mon, its deepavali), yet i'll be working for the 3 days. im working for the 1.5 rate pay on deepavali. expecting high pay for october ! don't let me down. ;p

was checking the price out for Wii. still affordable with dear's income. (to emphasis again, i need my 4 digits $$. not that im stingy. its my priority. you will understand later.) 

meet someone so unreliable. someone ordered things with a price and later another price is set due to supplier problems. i tried my best to understand, just that its reliability problems. too bad, so sad, one customer gone.

some pictures to share.

with my clip-on hair extension. (not really obvious though)

me and dear

before amei appearing.

a mei

another great shot in a mei's concert

 

before entering the gates of singapore flyer

us on the singapore flyer. (my arm is so big. omg)

my pay is here !! finally today have come! going to get my hair extension later. im very excited now. wahahaha.

Shopping later. wahaha. time to enjoy ~

im a happy girl.

Yesterday after work, should be taking the bus dear's in. cause the driver when off the bus stop like a feet away only and its red light right in front. he refuse to open the door for me. no good. ;(

after meeting dear, went to vivo for window shopping. nothing much at first. went to the pet safari. then saw cute pups there. puppies always look so blur. haha. trying to dig out some information from dear also. hehe. nono... im trying hard to learn more about dear.. that's all. haha. then bought a choke chain for choco. felt bad, but its the only way to correct choco, choco have to be more wise, he too out of control when he is out the house. got the member card from pet's safari also. under dear's name.

then later head to diaso for food. haha.

head home after that. i was hungry. after my dinner, brought choco for a short walk trying out his choke chain. again, felt bad, but its the best way to keep him in control. when choco slows down, i'll make the choke chain loose. i will feel better. now i dont have to hurt my hand to bring him for walks. haven't got use to it though. time to teach choco to walk on my left side.

;p

my in charge in Motorola, Jeff, was terminated due to some violations. im still stuned. i cant do anything now. so shocked. my mind is blank.

who will want to lose a job right ?! i believe its well paid also.

WHAT HAPPENED ?!

friday went to kate spade. and.... its a disappointment. zzz.

had been working on the weekend. sales wasn't that great actually. did have fun also. Lifang is there. ;p

nothing much to blog though. 

people's life around me wasn't great. hope everything will be fine.

last night, i said 'i miss you' to dear and got an 'unwilling' reply from dear to come over my place. 'i miss you' should be sweet, as for this case, it sound torturous. maybe cause dear's tired after 3 days of work, so am i. after texting him that i miss him, he called and i was emotional. its been 3 days that we didn't met. i tried to cheer up, yet getting angry after each phone call with dear. i just need a simple 'i miss you too' reply and i all i get is 'don't cry, go to sleep okay ?'

times when im upset, be it sad or angry, and i turn to dear, i get more upset. i rather be left alone. dear will only be perfect when he understands how to make me happy when im sad. dear understands me in terms of character, habit and personality. if only he try harder to make me happy or at least simmer my temper. i know its not easy, at least things wont get simmer down when we're in quarrels. i have been trying to make you feel better when you're tired or bored. when you're angry, i tried making u feel better and im still learning. i need you to understand me more.

enough of unhappy moments. got a surprise for dear during the weekend. got people in to help. thanks people, very fortunate to have you guys as friends. Lifang gave me constructive comments, 'my bro' too ! (*my bro will be revealed soon.)

BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BESTEST BEST FRIEND, SWING ! >.< looking forward for the next meet up.

dear didn't have class yesterday, its only everyone reached then found out. so dear went to get something for me. and he got me an agnes b. coin purse. its nice and i love it. then again i have no idea what to put in. haha. (dear's surprise will be nicer ! ;p)

had sakae sushi dinner buffet, finally calm down my cravings to sushi for the moment. also not forgetting to get ingredients tomorrow for the weekend. cooking a meal for dear. i just want to go out in my casual clothes, its been long since i wear them. ;p

dear's 16GB ipod touch came last night. secretly ordered it through my bro, andy, last weekend. glad to have a friend like him, so steady. ;p told dear that i will let him know of his surprise when we got home, was having dinner at dear's aunt's place. he was trying to guess it, i didn't tell him what is it even though he got the answer. let his heart itch more. hehe. the ipod touch was shipped over to me with engraving. its lying nicely in a box on my bed when we reached home. i quickly grab it and took out the invoice and hide it.

as dear opened it up, guess he is having question mark everywhere. so curious that he can't get the box open. lol. then there is it lying in a transparent apple box inside the box. lol. dear's heart melted. aww.... he also took quite some time opening it. -.- the whole opening process took quite long. after opening the transparent box, dear can't get the ipod touch out. -.- have to do everything for him. he was mesmerized by it. he observed every inch of it. saw the engraving and also noticed that its a 16GB one. i don't know what makes dear think that there's no battery. lol. then i turn it on. and dear goes like 'WOW!', hey, its not the first time you're using an ipod alrgiht. lol. my dear is so blur.

i even helped dear transfer his songs. omg. im gonna strave this month. dear, you have to love me more than you normally did. haha.

my fish eye jelly lens came too. hehe. >.<

i never like to say 'NO' to people i cared. this makes me so difficult in my life. tell me how ? i have to screw up my plans to be unhappy just to see everyone happy.

life was easier back when im single. was stronger in my feelings too.

i will date myself someday. i really need a break.

was really down when me and dear clarify some matters. its all because of my presence that cause all this sufferings. this sucks. i wanted to give up, yet i want to be with dear. only way is to put myself to think about other more than me. hai... awaiting to my death for my sufferings in any ways to end.

brought a heavy heart to meet dear. cancel my plans of going to the japanese supermarket for my ingredients. went to Plaza singapura to get dear's new ipod touch for Gmask. they have matt finish now. dear did the same design i did almost a year ago. went carefoure and get the limited selections of ingredients.

life have been unpleasant for me since pri 6. thought life will be better to get attached. now i guess life will be better being alone.

locking me in. farewell.

dear ask for a break between us. so it is a break of us ?!

i dont know.

i tried making dear happy, i buy things he desires. i cheer him up when he's tired. now i get this ? a break ?