its april's fool day ! and my body put a prank on me by wake up so early when i slept late. zzz. how great ! ;\

woke up saw 2 messages from my boy. one of them was about some misunderstanding stuff, which end up to be a prank and im blur enough not to scroll down and see it. ;\ i admit that im blur. LOL. he always said that about me. >.<

can't see him for this week.. he will be confined.. ;( its another week that we wont be meeting.

we've been together for weeks and quite a few things happened. what does this means ?! haiz.. i don't want to care. just hope things will be back as normal and yet holding on. 

ever since i came back from BKK, we texted lesser, we talked on the phone lesser. will this contiune ?! will we drift apart like this ?! where is the ziyang when we started to texted each other ?! if i don't treat you as good, will we be back as before ?!

argh ! WHATEVER ! 

came upon a note in facebook about my friend's distance relationship. find it so so sweet of the guy to write this..

Distance relationship where the toughest survive.
For only 1 out of 20, willing to live through those dives.
Distance makes the hearts grow fonder,
This is what u told me on Live Messenger.
Many may say you can find some1 better,
For I’m just another guy who’s nowhere smarter.
I’ll miss you more every single day.
A little less than tomorrow & a little more than yesterday.
I’ll dote u, care for u & pamper you even when I’m 85.
For you are the girl who I want for the rest of my life.
Just want to let you know how much I’m into you.
How can I survive the days without you?
Bibi Deardear, I Love You

Happy 304 days!!

isn't it sweet ?! ;p

hm.. wanted to hang out badly. ;(

somehow, i just don't feel like being at home. just wanted a day out. my eczema is recovering, real fast. actually, the rash stopped ever since i came back from BKK. im no longer itching. >.<

i feel like slacking at starbucks, but everyone is busy. ;( then Telvin ask me to drink. zzz. have no idea if it will affect me with my medication for eczema.. didn't went out in the end. 

didn't expose me with my eczema to people that openly before. no pictures though. but its redish patch everywhere especially joints. thought of it, makes me embarrassed of myself. moreover, my bad experience in secondary school life. being despice. ;\ stay away from me, if anyone is scared that it will spread to you, i don't give a damn, im just immune already. alright, whatever is past remains the past. look forward !! >.< gonna avoid the things that i should be allergic to. sad to say, i have to avoid eggs and chocolates. ;( then im fine with not having any of peanuts, prawn, squid and crab.

zzz..

i have been in rotting in front of my lappy since i woke up. and watching movies. >.< letting my restaurant city in FB to run. LOL. im dead bored. zzz.

everyone seems to have activities but me. nevermind, i should be busy from monday onwards. im gonna work up myself. XD don't blame me for being busy. =X

he broke up with me. hm.. ive expected this outcome. from the beginning, im worried for this outcome.. which ive accepted it like few days ago.

im fine. really fine. not feeling upset over this matter. seeing it as an experience. 不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有. ;p 

for the days with him, im happy. and ive never regretted being with him, getting to know him and the days of texting him. if its not him, i wont be who i am now. he made me realise a lot of things.. hm.. the real me ?! i guess. 

thank you and learn to just take care of yourself the easy way. ;p

i almost forget to blog. came home like 12am and kinda busy in MSN and FB. and my brain ain't working well now. haha.

suppose to go dinner with mummy which in the end was cancelled. made my day avaliable for Swing. hm.. she just need someone to be there for her. so went Doby Ghuat. met Anthony there at his LG booth. then chat a little. went to Aston at The Cathay, its a western restaurant, their sides are nice. my chicken was alright only. price wise i can say affordable. then head down to Plaza Singapura to look for my fellow promoter friends. really missed the life of being a handphone promoter. saw Zhengwei, Sin Yee, Bryan.. and Motorola is empolying again ! but Nicole is the in charge. =x not making any comments, just that i prefer Jeffery. >.<

slacked at that Starbucks there. hm.. then thought about friends. cause its really hard to keep a friend and i want to have friends to hang out with. got to initiate meeting-ups. >.<

guess its about what i wanted to say. currently, im mentally not functioning well and im multi-tasking at the same time. LOL. bed time ! 

suppose to go mahjong yesterday. im so so sorry. =x my mind is so blank.

have been quite indecive for the past couple of days. guess im always free and when things came up, i don't know what to do. haha.

went to AMK this afternoon. and im very tired now. no idea if im going out for supper or not. no reply yet. ;( had my chicken rice ! and as usual, the uncles there still remembered me. ;p also had my sugarcane juice. hehe. then bought some daily products then head home.

suppose to go gym. don't be surprised, cause since im free, why not. then Telvin kept asking, so just tagged along. end up not going cause he was so addicted to facebook's Restaurant city. haha. be going tomorrow! ;p

think im heading to the movies later. like finally. LOL. ;p Shinjiku incident or Fast and Furious 4 ?! >.< i have to go out anyway. gonna settle my dinner cuase not going gym already.

my plans might be affected for today. ;( no gym. wild wild wet can't confirm yet. DUE TO THE RAIN ! argh !

reached home at 5am this morning. >.< went for supper with Telvin at chomp chomp. he said that im a big eater ! its just cravings which made me eat so much. =x intend to go to coffeebean to slack but the one there closed down. zzz. met yanshan and Kenneth, from sec sch. chatted a little. then went to get a place to slack. we ended up going to Ehub! for movies. watched shinjiku incident. like the show ! >.< like the part when Jacky chan whipped off the taiwan gang's leader's hand off. so instant and so 'shuai'. XD

take it that im crazy or whatever.. always envy those mafia's wife. mafia as in those super big shot kind who is a family person. like so sweet. >.< and in shows they just seems to be a perfect family just that they are doing unlawful acts. maybe its just in shows, those men are so well built, tall, macho and manly looking. XD and i think i like those kind of guys. >.< 

in the show, it said that bad girls get good guys. i hope im one bad girl, but its just not in my blood to be one. ;( so i get bad guys ?! ;( haha. i like guys with the bad look on them i guess. it make me feel more secure i think. haha. 

have a sudden urge last night to club. maybe cause of the playlist in Telvin's car. ;\ or maybe i could get a few friends for pub. i just like those get together, talking craps, going crazy. ;p

i miss you, my boy. at times, when i do something, i remember the times when we spent together. it made me smile. though its short, but im happy. ;p

im starting my PAID training tomorrow ! >.< meeting new friends too. ;p

went Wild Wild Wet today with Jianlong, Yongjia, Elson and Amber. its also a family day, full of indians there. im with 2 couples there can. not that im feeling weird, but just hope that someone is there to pair with me in the activities. then Clement got to work. ;\

went Vivo city to meet Clement and dinner at Carls Jr. then drove down to dempsey hill for ben and jerry's ice cream.

they officially welcomed me to their gang. LOL. ;p and i think i found people to kayak ! ;p

there's too much to remember in a day. and after each module there's a test. my first test will be tomorrow morning, how great ?! hope my mind is clear enough, else there will be a re-test.

met my new colleagues. 3 guys and 2 other ladies. and im the only direct employed employee. all except one is same age as me. haha. guys did their National Service. one of them is in the Sniper unit ! so interesting can. he said that he could wake up at 10am and slept at 3am daily and nothing to do most of the time. haha. the other 2 is in infantry and signalist. they find it weird that im interested to know about their camps and units. cant blame though, most of my friends are guys and waiting for NS. then the common topic will be about NS. ;\

just found out Zijie is working in my rival company, Singtel, also as a call center consultant. haha. then Kokboon went into Starhub too. for some promoter job. should be a part-timer of Starhub i guess. ;p

guess my busy time starts today ?! just love to be busy. >.<

think is saw Bryan just now. lost contact after what i thought is a misunderstanding. ;\ we have common likings, BAPE. >.<

whatever.

made myself sleep early last night. ;p was really tired.

had dinner after training with mummy yesterday. went to Sakae dinner buffet. its the first time im so happy eating it and was crazy over there with mummy. >.<

dinner with mummy as usual today. nothing much. but im watching fast and furious 4 tomorrow ! >.< with Zijie. finally get to meet up after like 4years ?! lol. guess we will be comparing about Singtel's and Starhub's products tomorrow. LOL.

oh ya, suppose to lunch with Kokboon, but his side cocked up and we don't get to be lunchmate. and he won't be working for that job already.

and i found 2 more people for Kayaking one star ! its my new colleagues. get to exchange numbers today also. ;p

just woke up. hehe. kinda stone still. >.<

reached home at 5.30am. went Yongliang's house for mahjong, LOST. small winnings, big loses that's why. 

before that went to AMK hub for Fast and Furious 4 with Zijie. Saw friends, but don't think they saw me. ;\  btw, the show is really nice ! saw Heechai and Leslie. but too far to call them. haha. haven't see them since i graduated. hope to meet up soon. ;p

THEN WE DID A REALLY CRAZY THING ! by walking from AMK to SENGKANG !!! took like 2hrs of walk. hahaha. then sorry to let Clement, Jianlong and Yongliang wait for me. =x then Zijie asked me something weird. haha. he asked if its okay for us to start all over to get to know each other. LOL. whatever. 

im finally beaching for the weekend !! >.<

just hurt my tail bone again. slipped and fall on the wet floor. this time it is really unbearable.

previously, it was hurt due to Wild Wild Wet on the U shape thing. then just now, was rushing to the toilet, was urgent, then i didn't noticed the floor was very very wet. so i fell. then mummy shouted and then BLAMES me. WTFH. super pissed and very in pain.

almost everyone knows how to blame first and not assist to the situation first. FUCKING PISSED!! so everything its my fault ?! then what's the point of living when everyone blames me for everything ?! do you know its so darn hurting ?!

felt tears coming out now. its really really really pain still. i can't bend properly. and i have to bear the tears. friends are coming over for mahjong. 

haven't slept. mahjong-ed till 8am with 2 whole rounds. zzz. everyone was dying to end it. LOL.

heading sentosa !! FINALLY !!

my tail bone still hurts. damn it. i really fell very hard that i have difficulties bending. Clement's cousin said that he took a month to recover from his fall off the stairs. omg. zzz.

maybe im working up myself for being out everytime for the past few days. hm.. cause its to enjoy. i won't want to waste my time for that. >.< somehow, ive lost the time of enjoyment in the past, so ain't gonna let it pass like that.

i want to say something.. before Mahjong, was short of a player. called Jianlun up to join, then he said that Heechai wants to drink my bottle of Martell. its not that im not willing to open, but i don't want my parents to know that im drinking. then Heechai really craves to drink really much !! >.< ended up they didn't come cause Heechai is having things on today and he cant stay up late. Aww.. too bad !! LOL. ;p Roger bday soon, maybe can get the chance to drink ! right Roger ?! ;p

went sentosa today with Swing. slept while tanning as usual. ;p and the sun is blazing HOT ! manage to get tanned. >.<

went off earlier than we normally do. cause the heat was unbearable. went to subway for lunch. then my place for L4D. then dinner at Compass Point. bought a hair dye and my hair now is dyed. in natural brown. not a big difference, just balance in colour.

im still gonna complain. my tail bone still hurts. i cant leen back on the chair normally, i cant bend totally, when i walk i will feel slight pain, i felt pain when i sneeze.. its terrible. dont think i have time to visit the doctor.. till like weekend ?! 

by the way, thanks to everyone who care. im fine, how bad can i be ?! ;p

my phone is FINALLY done servicing !! its been like a month i think. 

and days back, i find Nokia E66 a beauty. when it've stopped producing already and i have no lines to upgrade. how ?! ;(

my new colleagues, Nic and Desmond, said that im a cool person. LOL. cus im a girl who plays games like L4D, Halo, CS. i know about a lot of things like NS stuff, tips on dying hair, product knowledges of various stuffs, i play Xbox.. and so on.. HAHA. im a rare kind of girl i guess. >.<

then Nic, my new colleague, said that i could look for him if i want to play co-op game. he is lending me Gears of War !! WAHAHAHA !! and he's gonna look for me for L4D. hehe. he need another player. woho.. but gotta get use to the keys and right-handled mouse for gaming. ;p

Nic was saying that when he got his game, he chiong it with his brother. im envy and thinking that how great is it to have a sibling with me. ;\

nvm, i have friends. and its fated for me to be a only child.

im tired. 

dad massage my back for me last night.. which gone worst today. ;( now my hip bone hurts, due to the pressure dad put on it. i don't wanted the massage, its cause mummy nagged at me so i let dad do it for me. ;\

im gonna complain on my training !! in my training, there are my new colleagues in the same department as long as people who is from another department. and i DIDN'T and HAVEN'T met anyone like this. okay.. normally in class, the trainer just teach us what is needed and convey the right message. i think even the trainer find this person hard to handle. this person freaking confuse herself and the whole class with the doubts(still insist that the wrong is right) and is slow in learning. im not blaming this person for being slow, its just why are you making yourself confuse ?? then you came up with things that don't exsist, then you insist that you're right, then YOU CONFUSE EVERYONE !!! WTH !! i just have a hard time interacting with this person. im shutting myself up whenever this person ask questions. i know the facts, the facts is in the notes, i do my read up, that's it. just hope that this person don't turn to me for questions.

had wanton mee at sunshine plaza, nice food !! Nic brought us there, its a long walk for most and the sun is hot. not my concern. there's nothing wrong with the sun. hahaha.

dont feel like getting online when im home. though i slept early last night, but i didn't get a peaceful sleep. ;\ but i hade a really really great dream last night !!! XD i met a mr perfect. dont want to say it, just hope it happens. >.< made me so happy this morning. LOL. as long as you believe in it, it will happen ! LOL. >.< have to blog, else i forget what've happened. my blog = my happening in my life.

Nic brought Gears of War for me yesterday !!! >.< played a little. nice game. hehe. 

ive a new nick among my colleagues. its ms. know-it-all. =x cause i know a lot of things, that they doesn't. and i seems like a wiki when im with them. really. they're just so amazed by my knowledge. hehe. >.< 

i didn't met the passing % for my last prove of learning. gonna stay back tomorrow for a re-test. i got 80%, but 85% is the passing mark. my colleagues are just so nice. they will wait for me to finish my test after training tomorrow. ;D

getting to know more of my colleagues. felt that Nic and me is like duplicates.. not in looks, but other stuffs. have to clarify.. i don't have a new target. and he is with his gf for 4yrs. i just find that we can be great buddies !!! ;p we think in different views, our way of thinking(i think its very very uncommon), he goes for labels(not fully street labels, but labels), etc.. we just have quite a few common topics and common interest.

have the feel to bake again. haha. will be soon. it will be cookies in subway. cus i love the ones in subway, if i could bake it, why not ?? hehe. who could resist to subway's cookies ?! >.< anyone who wants, make your bookings!! LOL.

oh ya.. dad seems to want to get me Nokia E66, but i told him not to. its not worth it to get it with a year's contract to upgrade. have to pay $498. that's to expensive. dad most prob will nag at me later when he get it for me. i rather wait till a contract is till 21mths and get the new HTC Diamond 2 with that money. nvm, i will wait. haven't wanted a phone since my HTC touch. like a year ago ?? that was so so long. nvm, i will save some money for my own phone. ;p

im gonna be more independent. slowly depending on me and myself only at the age of 21 ?! hope i succeed. to pay my own bills, spend my own money, enjoy with my own money. if i, as a girl, could do that, i find no reason why guys can't. and moreover, all or most of my guy friends are fully depending on themselves already. be shameful, if you're not. LOL. no offence.

argh.. BQ cancelled. last minute decision in going and then it was cancelled. im at home on a friday night!! oh no..

training is so so tiring.. and i cant wait money to come. counting down for next month !!!! >.< and yet don't want the training to end. ;( been long since i club. ;(

while waiting for my butter to soften, im here to blog. 

today is baking day !! wish me luck in baking subway's white chip cookies. colleagues we excited about it. haha. 

Yesterday, Agnes tried to match-make me. everyone says im 'ZAI'.. and i knows-it-all.. Agnes start describing about Weijian which is so funny. basically, Agnes and Weijian is forever arguing about things and both of them are on the same shift compared to the rest. She describe Weijian as not so tall, not gentlemanly, okay looking, soccer-player and love to watch soccer. LOL. no comments for me. i just find her cute. maybe that's what i will do when im 19. haha. 

after training, did my re-test. then headed to Mohamad Sultan for dinner. its nearer than expected. went to the chicken rice stall for food. their sweet and sour fish and pork is nice !! >.< then walk down Clark Quay for the train back.

FYI, my tail bone still hurts !! 

i went out to get caster sugar and more flour for my cookies. was so damn hot outside. then carried heavy bags home. when i reach home, dad didn't even bother to open the door for me, seated down on his phone chatting away. then when i was preparing my stuff. i noticed that mummy haven't been washing the plates since WEDNESDAY !! the soup turned sour and mouldy. was really really ANGRY and UPSET !! with the pain, i did every single thing myself. the FREAKING basin was so darn small and was so restricted, THANKS TO THE CONTRACTOR, WHO WAS ALSO MY RELATIVE. HOW EMBARRASSED ! 

i swear, when i have the money, im gonna renovate the house and esp my room. this house is becoming worst. mummy, rather goes to the temple to cook food than clearing up the unwashed dishes. dad as usual, cares for himself and everyone can only think of him and cares for him. 

im so so upset. 

THEY ARE A SUCCESS !! THEY ARE YUMMY !! >.<

was watching the show on Channel 8. then Daniel wu was the male lead. he is so charming, so well built. but, Shawn yue is still the better looking one to me. HAHAHA ! and Show Luo is still my Mr. Perfect.

his is Shawn Yue. just look at his hazel eyes. so charming. >.< damn !! im really crazy. LOL

this is Daniel Wu. i like his built. that body is just enough ! hehe. 

MY EYES ARE ATTRACTED TALL WITH BUILT GUYS !!! but good looking ones can only be eye-candy. ;p to me, good looking guys always have double eye-lid, good complexion and nice thick brows. >.< ever since that DREAM... im going nuts when i see good looking men on TV. Vin Disel too!! hahahahahahahahhahaaha. he is the only big size men im interested to. LOL.

alright !!! SHUXIAN, YOU GONNA CONTROL YOURSELF !!!

im going haywire now. LOL. alone at home. think mummy forgets me. ;\ think im gonna settle all my meals today. zzz

haven't been eating anything. and im having a headache. and its TTOTM !! bad state now. oh no.. 

the headache is really really unbearable. and with the headache, i still have to take care of myself. mummy came back just to bath and went off the the temple again. she know im having a headache. 

took a bath and it gone worst. then still had to do some chores. now finally get the chance to rest.

just noticed that all i need is attention, not the time.. it will be great to have someone to be there to take care of me.. to the extent that i can stop caring about things for the moment. but, till now, no one have had. maybe when im small.. i cared for everyone, i gave my attention to everyone, but.. no one gave their attention to me when im sick.. i always tell myself that, its okay, i could depend on myself. but at times, i just felt so so upset.

everyone thinks that being an only child will get all the attention i want, so sorry, its exceptional in my case. 

im ever so emotional when its TTOTM. i feel like dying now.. 

was low blood. AGAIN. so will it happen for the next few days ?! zzz

yesterday, went to meet Kokboon for dinner. watch 17 again !! im mesmerize with Zac Efron's charm. since that part when he wore the black leather jacket, a plain white t-shirt and black jeans. so so charming. before that, i just don't see why girls fall for him, but now i really really know it and felt it. >.<

then as for today, its a new module for training. then had a tour, my earphones, my locker key and my ID. which means training is gonna end soon. met the team leaders too. and the pantry is so yummy. LOL. there's agne's favourites cans of biscuits. vending machines of snacks and drinks. mircowaves, fridges, toasters. and most of all many seats. LOL. ;p

oh ya, Agnes thinks that Nic looks like Edward Cullen from Twilight, which i agreed to that. think its his hairstyle today that makes him so. ;p and that's a compliment. 

have to think of 10 names to use for my job. im stucked!

rather fun day for me. ;p

came up with the topic of the attached and the singles for a girl. me and Agnes is having the same feeling. then Rena kept asking what is it, cause she's with her bf for 4 yrs. the guys were having a lot questions marks too. haha. its the freedom if it, and seriously, im loving to it. somethings are not appropreiate to do when you have a bf. and when i have a bf, i will try not to do things that might upset my bf. BUT BUT BUT, i will let nature takes its course. 

then while on the train back with Rena, was back to the topic also. then was talking about her relationship. finally knew why she wanted her bf to get into NS earlier. LOL.

Leslie told me to plan an outing.. he asked to party, but i only can go after 10th may. aww.. right ?! LOL. planning for chomp chomp maybe something else, and will be next friday. SO PEOPLE, MAKE YOURSELF FREE !! >.<

jumped up this morning wondering why ain't my phone's alarm ringing. my phone was dead. luckily, i woke up earlier than i should be. but still ended up rushing out. i just don't like to be late.

then training was so confusing. its TOO MUCH to remember. zzz. and im tired. makes it even harder to focus. and its a day lesser of training and a day nearer to start work. oh no.. O.O im nervous.

headed to Ikea for dinner with Swing after training. had my caramel ice-cream !! >.< then went to Tamp 1. its just a new shopping mall, no big deal. lol. Saw Andrew at Starhub, he is a Sony Ericsson promoter. O.O get him to plan an outing, hope it will happen. then went up to M1. >.< my 'scandals' are working !! ;p the one-face(cheerful) Jovan, Henry(xiao de) and David. LOL. they are funny people. miss those days working over there. ;p and Herny don't seems to store my number after like 3 times of me texting him. -.-" they are still as crappy. David says that im slimmer.. >.< when he is serving a customer. LOL. then Jovan said that he is single, cause he is waiting for me. WTF !! to most, that's their way of conversation with me in it. ;\ hahaha. Jovan had highlighted hair and the same one-face, cause i thinks that he just seems to have ONE expression, SMILING EXPRESSION! LOL. 

im busy and enjoying it. tomorrow morning, baking time. then Choonhua's bday chalet. after that BQ, Roger's bday celebration. then sun, going for movies with Clement, Jianlong and Yongjia not confirm yet. then its another week of training. >.< book me IN ADVANCE !! oh ya, next friday booked already. LOL.

please look at the NAPFA TOP 5 SCORERS RESULT AND TOP 5 FOR INCLINED PULL UP !!

im the TOP FEMALE NAPFA SCORER IN SCHOOL OF INFOMATION TECHNOLOGY, 5TH FEMALE NAPFA SCORER OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL !!! >.<

Huimin is TOP FOR INCLINED PULL UP OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL !! CONGRATS !!

Heechai is TOP MALE NAPFA SCORER IN SCHOOL OF INFOMATION TECHNOLOGY, 5TH MALE NAPFA SCORER OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL ! CONGRATS TOO !!

don't believe, just http://nypnapfa.files.wordpress.com/2009/04/top-performers-female-09.pdf it ! ;p

reached home around 7am, after Roger's bday celebration at SheBang. surprisingly, im feeling fine after drinking Martell and Beer. i did get high, but its when i drink Martell only. for sure, bday boy was drunk. became a serviet girl for Roger. now, we're fair ! XP when i drunk, he look for tissue for me. so its FAIR ! im good okay. ;p drank till shebang's closing time which is at 5+am. then waited for 30mins for the cab's midnight fair to be over and went back. met new friends too. >.<

before Roger's bday celebration, went to Choonhua's bday chalet at east coast. the chalet was really small. im a busy person. LOL. Choonhua gave short noticed for her chalet and i tried to fit my time to it. sorry to Roger, im late. ;( at least im there right ?! and TOOK CARE OF YOU !! LOL. ;p

oh ya.. before everything. woke up early for baking. cookies are below standard. cus i reduce the sugar for mummy, which makes the outcome different. then Swing came baked brownie but ended up it sticked to the pan. zzz.

very brief. im very tired already. went to watch Friday the 13th with Clement at Ehub after i woke up around 3+pm when mummy woke me up else i be still sleeping then. LOL. Fish and Co. express's fish and chip is nice !! >.<

damn it. my lappy is infected already. and i don't have time to cure it. my trial anti-virus software have expired. damn it. gotta get time to install another one. argh... and im having problem logging into my MSN. damn damn damn.

ive more to post on my previous post.

was feeling terrible after baking on sat. should be having low blood pressure again. made myself to go out as promised. and was still having a bad headache and dizzy head when i was at the chalet. didn't ate much there too. 

photos be up soon. just got my lappy a anti-virus software, finally. LOL. i don't have much energy when im home. still gonna think of where to go and what to do on friday. FOR THOSE WHO GOT MY MESSAGE, PLEASE BE AVAILABLE, DONT WASTE MY EFFORT. esp Leslie, for him, i plan it when im shag enough, everyday. LOL. ;p 

guys are receiving their letters for NS. im sad. cause of my job timing. be missing out a lot i guess. when they book out, im working, when im free, their in camp. argh !! will i be forgotten ?? ;p

new module today for training. the trainer, Ivan, is funny. he have the "ah beng" look also. lol. the bad thing is, there's no computer in the training room. zzz. will be MIA for the next day too. dont miss me. 

today, Nic and Weijian said that im scandalous. =x cause was messaging with Henry.. then i told Agnes about what happened on friday. then Nic and Weijian came up with the discussion.. fine then !! ;\

oh ya.. my MSN is up and working. >.<

damn.. the urge is back again. 

i finally got my hands on my GRIFFIN REFLECT MIRRORED CASE for my ipod classic !!! >.< i searched the whole SINGAPORE and finally found it at Compass point's best denki. ;\

and i got the last on the shelf !! >.< im so so satisfied. ;p

dinner out with friends on friday night. Leslie gonna ps us !! ;( he asked for a meeting and told me to plan, ended up he meeting his friends to party after that. zzz. 

oh hu ~ key in my attendance for the past days in training. working hours 128hrs till now !! wow ! can't wait my pay to come. spend in with friends for sure. ;p 

im nervous to start work. ;(

oh ya.. Agnes commented on a high cheekbone guy, she said he is cute. o.O hm.. i dont have any comments, but to give a cheeky smile. LOL. (huimin, you know that guy. hehehe. >.< ) i don't think so though. hahaha. =x

and oh ya.. my tailbone recovered like days ago. >.<

random taking of photos in training today. ;p

Desmond, not the one from work, say that i like being single that's why im gay. O.o wth !! 

i just enjoy being single. enjoy the freedom and NO SELF-LIMITATIONS. yet, letting nature takes its course. if its not meant to be, its not meant to be. haha. sometimes, it gets hard to understand. but.. i know what to do. ;p

its either someone who is close to my mr perfect appears, else i be single for the moment. haha.. 

[c=#FF8000][b]jeremy[/b][/c] says (1:24 AM):
but now is really serious lo
u pierce thru my heart
=(

♥shuxian says (1:24 AM):
which part  ?

[c=#FF8000][b]jeremy[/b][/c] says (1:24 AM):
everything

♥shuxian says (1:25 AM):
why are u attracted to me ?
which part of me ?

[c=#FF8000][b]jeremy[/b][/c] says (1:25 AM):

 ur attitude

♥shuxian says (1:26 AM):
haha
what about my attitude ?

[c=#FF8000][b]jeremy[/b][/c] says (1:26 AM):
dont noe

♥shuxian says (1:26 AM):
bully you ?
o.O

[c=#FF8000][b]jeremy[/b][/c] says (1:27 AM):
i always dont noe wad to reply when girl ask me why u attracted to me
lols
always dont noe wad to say

♥shuxian says (1:27 AM):
haha

i didn't ask further. cus "i don't know" done the talking already. ive tried. but im sorry. i made myself love someone for a few times. i just dont want to give high hopes. nor i want to hurt him. he is the guy who i treated best to. i never(didn't ever) cared about someone's feelings that much. i just hope he can let it go. its been very long, like 3yrs ?! im touched, but its impossible to be together. even if tgt, its not for long. again, i dont like to give high hopes. we're 2 different type of ppl.