came back at 3+am. had a great time ~

before everything. L4D with Swing. >.<

met with Roger, Jianlun, Heechai, Welfred at chomp chomp. the timing was bad, it was very crowded. had my stingray and kangkong ! >.<

then headed to yishun damp being squeezed by Heechai and Roger. love the bikes. no 'fantasic' cars over there. the guys were throwing stones. lol. then went up on Welfred's car for 93.3 ghost story while Roger trapped himself in the boot of his Murano. LOL. not scary though. Welfred's car is like a Kbox room. LOL. we're singing away to the song. 

then headed to Jln Kayu to meet Desmond for prata. didn't eat. but everyone else ate. BIG EATER ! lol. ;p then went to punggol end. walk a scary path which looks like one of the path in L4D. it was like 1am then. so freaky.

after that walk. went to the park at SengKang slack for awhile. then Welfred drove IN THE PARK !! LOL.

then Welfred drove us back. after he drop off Swing, Jianlun and i swap places. totally regretted. Desmond and Jianlun start gay-ing/molesting Roger. i really couldn't take it. eeeewwww.... luckily, i stay nearby, else i think i be tramatise. LOL.

thanks for everyone who came. had great time together. next will be dinner at ikea. okay ppl ?! LOL. the food is nice ! HAHAHA.

smiling widely for the reason i used to smile before. XD

though this may not last for as long as i wanted it to, im very happy to have this reason.

was out to Chinatown with Agnes. though its freaking HOT, we had a great time. but Agnes only saw one of her cute China boys. LOL. ;\

i forbid myself ytd again to get online. to get more sleep and that now im still tired. i was thinking about some stuff and smiling away. LOL. alright, i admit being crazy. =x

have been raining for the past 2 mornings and i still have to be up to head to work. ;( oh ya.. training is extended till next tuesday, else it will be end of this week. YEAH !!

today had my first LIVE call. was really nervous. closing wasn't good. ;( hope for more double banking with a senior to guide. but there's no enough seniors and the call queue is high. ;\

i found the FAMOUS POTIAN wanton mee !! >.< so yummy. give it to me everyday of the month, 3meals per day. im more than happy to finish it up every single day !! ;p

oh ya.. Amber's bday tmr. been invited to attend. guess what ?! 

"..Best for couples and soon to be couple etc.."

Elson and Amber is one couple, Jianlong and Yongjia is another. then me and Clement who is a NOT couple. Jianlong kept pairing us up can ! -.-"

recently, im really having short term memory. my brain is getting really worked up. need power sleep real bad. 

heading Sentosa on sunday ~ mr SUN, here i come !! ;p

WOHO !! pay is nearing. >.< can't wait !! fulfilling my wishlist one by one.. >.<

i have a new phone. its a Nokia 5800. but i have to say i dislike full touch screen phone. nvm. new phone to use, why should i reject ?! ;p

turned up for Amber's birthday yesterday. ate Mache. nice nice !! XiaXue was sitting on the table next to ours.

met Jianlong after work. he went to look for his ex-colleagues, which is my colleagues. ;p then Yongjia came. all of our presents are from Perlini Silver. then headed to Vivo to meet Clement. waited for him to end work then secretly bought the cake for Amber. Jianlong asked a question that stunted me. really smelling something very fishy with Jianlong. he ask when is Clement and me getting attached or something relevant. -.-" can't he just let us be friends ?! after the food, we went home. was late too. so damn tired. zzz.

today handle calls with the help of Chelsea and Marc. i kept missing out information to tell cust. ;( nvm. practice makes perfect ~

okay.. seems like everyone classified me as a clubber now. Rena and Agnes are one of them. ;( damn it. i'd go. so ?! im not a frequent club person alright. haven been to club for like 4mths okay !! argh !! just go there to enjoy myself. have been rotting at home before my job starts, then job starts, busy training. though that time pub on Roger's bday. =x when pay comes, i just want to enjoy !! since long that i have an income.

ohya.. caught an eye on a FCUK watch. but the strap seems so cheap and there's no numbers on the watch,i will take a longer time to read the time. ;( but its like $168. SO AFFORDABLE. the store is having SALE too. then i will get 20%.. but still im thinking about it. hm... should i or should i not. its different now, i know what's saving up and i have to. 

nice right ?! simple and nice. its maroon, btw. ;\

anything will update later. cant think already. 

http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=1154765&key=OQR6

do it ~ thanks. ;p

Ranking Quiz Takers

87% Hee Chai Ong (so touched.. LOL)
62% Rena Tan
62% Chia Sheng Zhi
62% JianLong Ooi
62% Nur Liyana
62% Roger Chua
62% Shu Xia
62% Kevin Fong
62% Jasmine Tan
50% Agnes Ting
50% Chua Yi Da
50% Welfred Ong
50% Clement Zhouquan
50% Clement Low
50% Jeremy Chua
50% Derek Ng
50% YongJia Chee
37% Raymond Ong
37% Leslie Toh
37% Amber Lim
37% Elson Soon
37% Jeremine Chan
37% Zi Jie Wong
25% Desmond Tan Zhen Ye
25% Rayden Lim
0% Eddy Chen

im a happy girl !! XD enjoyed my calls today. its fun. other than me, Agnes is another happy girl. ;p

will be signing up for Amore together with Rena and Agnes. ;p mummy gonna sponsor half of the subscription ! >.<

060509 - us with Chelsea and our Double Bankers.


060509 - Amber's 24th

today's group photo. ;p

have been having mood swings for the past few days. no one noticed. anyway, just a short period, cus im busy with training. 

i find it quite difficult to laugh my heart out for the past few days. moreover, im not sad over anything. just a sudden mood swing and feeling down. ;\ hope this will go away. 

though im a "happy girl" stated in previous entry, my heart isn't feeling any feelings. 

what the heck is happening ?!

someone is gonna be surprised later ! >.<

Desmond called me along last night to Rebel without letting anyone know. then Heechai was like laughing at me that i have to stay home. then i appeared there. SURPRISE !! ;p

met up with Desmond and Jeremine for my dinner. haven had my breakfast nor lunch. then met up with Desmond's friend and then Jeremine's 2 friend. then met the rest up. ;p

got our entrance at like 10pm. still early. went to check out Zirca, cause one cover can go 3 place, Zirca, Rebel and Lunar. the DJ @ rebel last night was from France. his songs rocks !!

before club got high, we went out intend to get a place to drink. but we're like 12 people and can't get a place to seat. luckily, Leslie brought Black Label. We drank till high before we head back to dance. Leslie and Desmond was like almost half gone. cause Leslie drank with his colleagues before meeting us and Desmond drank Tequlia before meeting up. 

im not drunk surprisingly. after we went back to dance, Leslie pull me for Tequlia shot. our favourite. then after that shot, i drank 3 more shots, one after another. >.< still owe Roger a flaming Lambor. nvm, next time.. ;p

dance with Jui Kern's friend, Gary. its the first time i dance with a guy, being hugged. opps. haha. 

after the club. waited till midnight charge to end. Mcdonalds is full, so we sat outside 7-11. then there's this foreigner gave us money. felt like a beggar can ?! Heechai went to get cup noodles. then being tempted by it, i snatch it and ate some. =x then Jeremine use it to get 2 burgers from Mcdonalds. LOL. i have no idea why im the one being bullied. im the victim. ;( everyone kept shooting me.

was a FUN night !! enjoyed to the max in the club. but had a bad time heading back. there's no cab back, took the train and walked home with my blistered legs. ;(

before head back the club

in the club

my pay is in !! woho ~ ;p

its my treat on mother's day @ sakura international buffet as promised. 

oh ya. ytd woke up early to bake cake with Agnes. Agnes wanted to bake for her friend. everyone said its nice ! ;p then went back to sleep after she left. >.<

im adapting well with being single and i like to club. club is a place where i think i get the most fun in. im never sad, never emo, never moodswing in the club. ive changed quite a bit.. compared to the girl i was before, im a whole new person, so different from before. my temper, my personality, my character and my mindset are none of what i was. 

im better off being single. its a girl less for the guys for now. HAHA. =x

the saying still applies.. "once bitten, twice shy" 

my training ends yesterday. ;( back to operations on thursday. 

falling sick soon. gonna take real good care. previously had sore throat.. now flu. ever since i came back from rebel. =x have to take care of my throat cus of my job. yesterday, a customer said i have a nice voice. -.-" i was having a flu at that time, my voice wasn't back yet due to sore throat. ;\

yesterday was a real rush day. i can say my job is rush too (in order to get my call stats). my life will be in a rush ! ;p i went Amore to sign up for their 3 months of unlimited fitness course + gym session with Agnes. then rush down to school for my graduation gown, saw Huimin, Kevin, Samuel and Tobi. missing school days, especially the last year. ;( then headed to my fave chicken rice stall at AMK hawker. YUM YUM ~

thats it. im off to shop !! >.<

got to CHEER UP !!

gonna be a healthy girl.. maybe for at least the month. AMORE HERE I COME !! 

just wanted to be alone for today. im fine after seeing my Mr perfect (Show Luo Zhi Xiang) on TV. guess he is in his downturn period due to the news of knowing friend through the net. i can lend him my small shoulder for lean on. HAHA. just feel like saying it though its redundant, its also what i'd been saying to friends. LOL. 

not signed into MSN. just searching for apps for my phone. i can't use my phone to get online to blog, i will go nuts with typing. ive no idea why, its always uppercase, no word preview and using a phone to get online have a lot of restrictions. ;\

MIA for the next 2 days. will be working. i just enjoy working, just stress on work and nothing else. i can do this till i got worked up.

ytd, got home by cab, claim-able. >.< felt lighten up at work, but after that when i alighted the cab, felt so lost and.. kinda down, i guess. 

i will be just fine.

its another day of work ! ;p network outage islandwide for cableTV today. its like free call stats for the seniors. for the new hires, call stats are not accounted for. so just taking things easier and adsorb as much as i could.

heard from Rena someone wanted to know me. haha. i dont know who and i didn't ask. 

after work, had dinner with colleagues. then head back home by foot after i reach Sengkang. ;p

teaching my choco how to sit with hind legs with his 2 front legs up. ;p so cute. however, let him looks fatter than he ALREADY is. LOL. 

still dont feel like appearing in MSN. anything urgent, get me through my phone no. 

im going to gym tomorrow. ;p

im back, happy as ever that i could say. spend my time in work, thinking about nothing else. guess i wasn't wrong that ive lost confidence in myself nor guys. =x HAHAHAHAHA. >.<

thanks to those people who are concerned about me (if any.. ;\ ) im better than ever ! im around to get bully again. ;\

yesterday's kick boxing session was fun.. however, at times i can't catch up and felt so stiff when i look myself in the mirror. felt like laughing. haha.

then went to the gym. ran on the track mile for 15 plus mins at a speed of 9.2km/h ! ;p there's a cute gym instructor there too ! >.< and only in Tampines there will be male trainers. haha. 

have been online just to hunt for apps for my phone. its long since i played with the phone when i just got it. love it !! ;p

caught an eye on an Adidas jacket. then Richard(mr perfect.. not my mr perfect) could help me get the discount. i can't find anything negative about him can ! erm.. maybe he smokes and very skinny.. that's all. he've got one don in taekwando, plays piano, violin, gitar, bball, fair in studies, a gentleman with six pack(Choonhua told me, but quite long ago).. peishan is a lucky girl, have a bf for so long who is so fit (able to protect her), so tall, good looking(fyi, he is the face for SP), maybe he is romantic(i dont know.. if he is, i'd be jealous of peishan.. just jealous and that's it)

whatever it is.. should i or should i not ??

going gym again ~ today is swimming/gym/pilates. >.<

feeling real good ! i enjoy gym-ing ! >.<

didn't gym for long today and didn't went for pilates since Chelsea is not feeling well and Agnes going to climb stairs and celebrating friend's birthday. 

my muscles are harder.. next up, its my triceps. gonna tone it up more. 

oh ya.. not getting the jacket already. Agnes said that there will be nicer ones out there and since im low in cash now. ;\

mummy making dumping today.

have been going to gym for the past few days. monday, gym and kick boxing. then tuesday gym only. wednesday baking brownie(which everyone @ work commented that it is DELICIOUS) then to the swimming pool. then thursday Kick boxing again then to badminton. didn't play much badminton cus im heading to work after that.

rotting at home for today. XD

now im the teacher for baking and i can open cake shop !! haha. thanks to everyone who commented the brownie me and agnes baked. however, the secret to it is cus there's a cake mix. haha. next time im gonna try doing it out from the receipe. ;p 

bad half work day. ;\ came home asking about my pants and got shouted by my mum that i didn't spend the effort searching for it. felt really PISSED !!! like asking kindly about my pants takes all my mum's energy to look for it. sometimes im really so tired at home. i only have choco who makes the house warm. haiz.. sometimes im just so sick of home.

and i have no idea why, mummy kept saying things that turn me off and she knows it. is it only my choco cares about how i feel at home ? 

having a real bad day and a real bad time. don't blame me to staying out of home, i just find it worst to stay home and get turn off.

just reached home. was having dinner after work with Agnes and Jeffery. then Alphonsus came. suppose to watch movie with Alphonsus, but no one is going. Accompanied him for awhile, walked in PS and then went to ICE MONSTER for dessert. starting was alright, until i noticed a chef (not local who can speak fluent Mandrian) using his bare hands digging things from his teeth. then dig his nose(not really digging, but his fingers are at his nostrals). then scratching his elbow. WORST PART IS..  HE DIDN'T BOTHER TO AT LEAST WASH HIS DAMN HANDS !! he was facing me when he did those stuff. then he went to chop vege.

OMG !!!

then Alphonsus was like talking about the matter and saying out loud to hint the chef about cleaniness. was so funny about him saying those stuff. i laughed till my tummy really hurts.

btw, new "eye-candy". shan't say eye candy though, but whatever. think been caught when eyeing. =x original fake + fenom ! HP somemore. simply owning !!! 

oh ya.. what makes my day today is receiving a compliment email by a customer. Jonny say that i might appear in the wall of fame. i doubt so.. a smile and a sincere thank you is enough for me already.

hm.. i teared last night while thinking about my hardship when im in sec sch. in sch, im being laughed at and bein g so isolated, at home, being "insulted". i really have no idea what makes me live on in life. i shouldn't be here right now though. im waiting for the day that i can surely assure myself that im glad that i didn't end my life then. zzz. 

i actually dreamt of someone with a style i admire. oh no.. what is happening ?? image of that person kept flashing in my mind. >.<

im officially graduating tomorrow ! ;p

got Aaron to be my photographer. hehe. 

its graduation day today. mixed feelings. its the official last day in school. thought of applying for alumni.. but i don't know if i will go back very often so didn't applied. ;\

huimin said that ive slimmed down quite a lot. >.< HAPPY ~ met up with Fuhan, Kevin, Tobias, Huimin for lunch. missed the food. then headed to register. met a lot of familiar faces. >.< 

think im becoming evil. HEHEHE. kept saying about Heechai's 'lovebite' =x moreover, there's a upclose shot on the big screen when we walk to shake the guest of honor's hand. LOL. that's his KARMA for bullying me. HAHAHA. im not better also. ;\ having pimple outbreak currently, for quite some time already.

before collection, was practically stone-ing at my seat, cant belief that this is the day of my graduation. then was sms-ing Heechai and Huimin. *opps* hahaha. oh ya.. ShengZhi was there at the visitor seats. 

during collection, i started to get nervous only when im at the queue to move up the stage. then later.. im under stone-mode throughout. during the speech of a representative of all the graduates, really felt for it. but the performance by the yr 3 students made laughed. it just looks like a musical when there's those dancers, just seems so weird. haha.

then after everything ended, collected my cert with Heechai, his friend and Shengzhi. met up with Aaron and started my photo taking session. take with most of my friends. then headed to the "BIG" NYP sign. hahahaha. then to block L, my studying block. 

oh ya.. purchased for the photos and at the same time took the studio shot there. mummy told me she waited 14yrs for me to wear a gown. haha.

btw, Aaron is charming when he take photos. he owns a 40D, changing to a 5D MKII, then have the NEW mac book that cost S$2,345, wearing label clothings. how can a $7/hr job let him get those stuff ?! he is my all-time idol !!

PS.. speacial THANKS to Aaron to stay up after school to wait for me and help me take photos under the freaking hot sun.

im super hyper at work today ! okay this morning, went to Agnes place to help her dye her hair, no difference but covered her coloured hair at least. then went to Toa Payoh for dinner. the stores we wanted to visit closed. ;/ i somehow dont like the feeling of going to work after a day out. simply gloomy.

"gary" was wearing Kikstyo if im not wrong. >.< and im addicted to it/him.. hm.. i dont know. just admiring, and enjoying it. =x

OHHO !!

now i wonder why, im having a headache when im at home. ;\

suppose to go Sentosa, but ended up like 5 ppl going only. then i request for a postpone. so im going next friday. anyone interested just inform me. i need players for beach volleyball.

put up a status on FB about me being addicted and a gonner. haha. then friends start tagging. LOL. just enjoy letting friends go curious about it. =x  im still unsure of the feeling though. guess it've become a habit to peep/glance. i dont know. haha. maybe i could say "gary" brightens up my mood. 

i think im like bribing ppl at work with all the stuff u bring to work for them. seriously, im not, its just the season that im in the mood to bake and mummy did extra ba zhang for me to bring over. nice food is only made when there's a passion. maybe the next time im baking, the food will taste alot nicer. HOHO ! Agnes gonna bake a cake for a friend soon, Jianlong wants to learn brownie to bake for Yongjia around her birthday. so i'll be baking soon. 

oh ya.. im still wondering how am i gonna celebrate my birthday. zzz. to think about it, my last celebration with friends was around a decade ago and all i wish to have in my 21st, is to have everyone to celebrate it with me. just hope it will happen.

just found out something on the HP bag i saw in office.

its a reflective waist bag. OMG !! DAMN !!! IM FREAKING ENVY !!!

Chelsea and Heechai came asking me about "gary". LOL.

"gary" is a name i came up for this guy. not anyone with the name of Gary.

DONT ANYHOW ! LOL

i give up on "gary". He is attached and can only be my eye-candy.

im kind of sad over not participating in Sundown 2009. ;( shouldn't be remembering about it, but was reminded. zzz.

oh ya ! Alphonsus says that i look slimmer in person than in my FB photo and Agnes agrees ! my FB photo is taken around 3 weeks before !! >.< made my day man ~ 

im kinda sad that everyone around me is getting into a uni, while im here hanging in mid air. ;( dishearten. left so alone/isolated. DAMN IT.

its a tiring day. did an hour of OT just to explain to a cust who can't understand and get over with the FACT. i spend like 40mins explaining to same things and trying to advice a solution. 

have to thanks to Alphonsus and Merissa to wait for me after work. went slacking with them. chatted about drinking. kinda bring the urge back to me.

=x